8 years ago today I was anxious and excited because it was my wedding today.  Family and friends came from miles away to be a part of our special event. Today I am anxious and excited, and almost giddy.  It’s been a week or so since I’ve seen Dean and tonight he’ll be home.  It’s like a long waited homecoming although it’s just been a week. Dean and I have been together for a long time, considering our age. The longest we were apart like this was when I went to college for a spring semester in Baltimore and he was in Ohio.  After that semester I left to be with him because we missed each other too much and that November got married.  Ever since then we’ve been together. We go to the store together, to church together, to events together. As a family or a couple we are typically doing it together.   So when he’s gone not only is it difficult because managing 3 kids alone is hard, but it’s hard physically and emotionally. I was telling someone yesterday that after a few days all i want is a hug, from anyone will do.  Just to have that touch from someone who cares.  Emotionally it’s draining to deal with life’s issues alone and especially as others around you are turning to you for help because I would tend to talk to Dean and he’d offer me the words I’d need to hear. he can do that on the phone now but it’s just not the same.  again, I think it has a lot to with having that physical touch sometimes, just feeling not so alone.
but I feel like I have a surge of energy, not to do things but just from the excitement. almost as if I know no matter what happens today that at the end of the day I’ll be in my love’s arms and if I can make it through this day than it will be worth the struggles just to be with him again. silly I’m sure but it does help to know there’s an end in sight.
the seller of the house in Ohio has until 9 pm tonight to counteroffer, accept or reject our offer on their home.  both realtor, one from ohio and our baltimore agent called me before 9 today, and both sounded positive so it has helped feeling like they are both doing their jobs today and are invested in this for us, and today that helps me a lot, considering how the past few days have gone on the home buying/selling front.  so a lot going on today, all things I cant control, I just have to be patient and at the end of the day there will be news of some sort, and I can share that news with my hubby when he gets home from the airport.  So there’s a lot to be anxious about today, but I’ve got too much to do in the meantime, so I’m going to focus my energy on the tasks that must get done today and that I want to get done before hubby gets home. it’s going to be a busy day! a good but busy day…
