Breaking through the Fibrofog…

My son is amazing! He is so smart! I usually take him into our main bathroom with me if I need to go in there and I shut the door so he doesnt run out. He mostly stands and beats on the tub or on the cabinet doors. This last week, after I flush the toilet he would walk over to the handle and jiggle it. At first I thought it was just funny, I guess he just wanted to see what I was doing with that shiny silver thingy that moves and makes that loud swishing noise. Today he actually flushed the toilet, twice! I dont know if he realized he did it, but I did, and I was laughing so hard. I just hope he enjoys the toilet this much when it’s time to start potty training! He never sees the water in the toilet bowl cause I make sure the lid is closed so I am not quite sure what he thinks it is in there, but I know he loves the handle! What a kid! Today he has scared me, angered me, hugged me, kissed me, and made me laugh til I almost cried! I am so glad we have such an angel, even if he doesn’t lay still for diaper changes. Those are the hardest part of my day. Dean came home from work early, he caught the bug Caleb and Stacey had, so I had Caleb all day and evening alone. I was doing well until he wouldnt settle down for bed and when I tried to change him one last time before bedtime he squirmed so much I screamed. It had been a long day and I hadnt had a break, I was so mad at him. Dean got upset with me, but I was trying so hard not to bother him since I knew he was sick. I dont know how single moms do it. I so look forward to the end of the day when I can at least go to the bathroom by myself! Let alone have someone else change a diaper or two. It’s been a strange day, but I feel so accomplished, as a mom and a housewife. I got alot done around the house and seeing all of the things Caleb is learning made it a satisfying day. He is so close to walking by himself it’s scary. Tomorrow we go to the zoo with my brohter, sister in law and my nephew who is two. Then they and my parents are coming to our house for dinner. Looks to be another busy day for us, and one with a lot more suprises and fun! I hope Caleb enjoys the zoo, I know I will at least.

In Dean’s words, UGH! Caleb just figured out how to take the electric socket cover off the outlet! Guess those people who made them didn’t count on a nearly 9 month old figuring out how to take it off! Luckily I had something to plug in there that if I put it in the top socket then it covered both, and it’s one of those heavy box like things you plug in , so hopefully he wont be able to get it off anytime soon. But theres several in the living room, I dont know what I’ll do about them! Just when you think you are babyproofed enough…….

Caleb has taken a sudden interest in zippers. He can get them unzipped! It’s so cute to watch him think so hard about it. He really wants to play with the keyboard for the puter but instead we gave him a spare one to play with, but somehow he seems to know hitting buttons don’t do much unless he does it while mommy is typing on her keyboard.

I think Caleb finally kicked his bug. He was finally, for the first time since Thursday, able to drink a bottle of formula without throwing it all up again! Wohoo!! I was SO happy. We have plans to go to the zoo tomorrow and I would have hated it if we had to cancel cause he was still sick. I am really looking forward to it. He’s also just about walking on his own. He can take 2-3 steps unassisted! He is always standing by himself now and tries to take steps alone but only gets a few before gracefully falling on his bottom. He’s so independent. He will play by himself for hours if we let him. His favorite thing to do is stare out the window and watch the birds and squirrels. We stopped by the pet store yesterday and he didnt even get excited looking at the animals, I hope he finds the zoo a little more enjoyable. I think he will since he is feeling more himself now. Well he’s calling for me as I write, he may be independent but then there are the times when he’s glued to us….

What would you do-o-o-o for a Klondike bar? I’d pick up baby poop off the carpet then scrub it up then change 10 more dirty diapers in 3 hours! Argh! I hate having a sick baby! He wont drink pedialyte. He will drink some gerber juice. He would love to eat solid food but every time he does the diapers gets worse. He throws up anytime he drinks formula! What am I to do? I told Dean we should just give him pedialyte and juice for 24 hours, that is what the dr said to do last time he was sick, but this time he wont drink and he wants real food. Poor thing about screamed at me whenever I try to eat something. If he doesnt start to drink something soon I may have to take him to the er. He has had some baby food, I thought maybe some bananas would help his belly go back to normal, but he still needs fluids and he just doesnt want it.

In the meantime, Dean’s out and about having a grand time. I told him I’d be okay, I know he’d be upset if I told him I needed him to stay home. He’s been so into his plans to go to this Christian rave tonight. He wanted me to go, and I knew I didn’t really want to, and there was no way we were taking Caleb out in his condition. I am not even sure I’ll drag him to church tomorrow. Depends how he does through the night. I wanted to put the poor kid to bed at 6, but I knew it was way too early. But he was tired and so was I. I finally wore him out playing and with a bath and kept him up to a little bit ago, about 8:30 he finally fell asleep. I was so relieved! I am exhausted and not having Dean around didnt help much.

Now hopefully he’ll at least sleep until Dean gets in so I can enjoy some ice cream and watch Armageddon.

What a horrible night! I awoke around 1-ish to hear Caleb crying on the monitor. I went to get a bottle from the kitchen. When I got to his room, it was quiet. He had fallen asleep again, and laid down right on top of a whole bunch of throw up! I hated to move him cause he was so peaceful but it stunk. So I laid him on the changing table and he slept while I removed the dirty sheets and blankets. He woke up while I changed him and I held him as his fell asleep. A few minutes later he gets restless and sits up and throws up all over and keeps doing it. He’s never really gotten sick,he would spit up when he was younger but this was the real deal. I was so scared. I started crying cause I didnt know what to do. Dean came in and held him, then I bathed him to soothe him. He then laid in bed w/ us and was fine the rest of the night. I am so scared to feed him becuase I dont want a repeat performance, but he has to eat. I dont know what I will do if he ever gets really sick, I am so bad at that part of being a mommy. I can deal with other peoples sick kids, but when its mine my heart just hurts too much! Hopefully today he will be fine.

I made the call today, I am starting the process of being a family day care provider!