Breaking through the Fibrofog…

and now we wait!

well Dean got his verbal offer on Wednesday and the written one this morning.  it says his start date is October 1st, so who knows how quickly they will fly him out to Cincinnati.   this could be his last weekend here!!   bah!!   good part is since he’s staying w/ the same company benefits stays effective and the like so we dont have to worry about a lapse in any of that.   sbusy day finishing up getting the house cleaned up then I have a meeting w/. the lady who will be taking my job as nursery team leader at our church.  last sunday was my last official Sunday in leadership, it makes me sad but I know once we move and get settled we’ll be able to attend our favorite church of all time, I’m looking forward to that familiarity and hoping Dean and I can get back on the tech crew for that, I would so love that environment again. he’s had dreams of working w/ the theater group again, It will be nice to go back but hard to leave everyone here.  I have friends here that I’ve had stronger relationships with than  ever before, when we left Ohio we left coworkers and family but we hadnt gotten very deep into friendships w/ that many folks, sadly we had just started a friendship w/ a couple and I’m hoping they are still around so I can look them up when we get  back.  but now I’ve got some great friends that I’ve already cried about having to leave. you know who you are and I love you all.   this is hard on us, as much as we need this move for so many reasons, it’s going to be difficult for all of us.  but I think this is the right thing for our family and a stepping point for great things for us and the kids.   if anything the promotion is a good thing for Dean jobwise so that’s already a positive.   so those of you who are struggling with our decision please know we are doing this for a lot of reasons, none of which include purposefully hurting anyone close to us.   we love everyone in our family and our friends, this isnt about that.  this is about maintaining a healthy family, financially, spiritually, emotionally and even physically.   there’s some good doctors in Ohio, one of the best is there that handles one of my conditions so I know that it might be good for me to go there and see those doctors.   Dean not only hated his current job situation, he got laid off so moving jobs was not an option but a need, so this is a blessing in that area in many ways.   well I’m done trying to convince anyone why we’ve made our choice, the choice has been made and the wheels have been set in motion for this huge transition for our family.  if you cant be supportive of us then please dont bother us during this stressful time in our lives. it’s like when the kids try to help us do something but really only make it harder, so if you cant be helpful and supportive then we’d rather not have your help.  we would appreciate any help though if I havent affended anyone!  I just wanted it be known that I dont want your helping to be more of a burden to us or you, so dont help if you cant.

Dean did get the job transfer to Ohio.  it’s considered a promotion and he is looking forward to doing something different.  they want him there before oct. 9th and said they will be flying him out there sometime next week but that they’d also pay to fly him back and forth as needed to sell the house/take care of family things.   He’s excited to be traveling for business, something he’s never done before. it will be interesting here w/ the kids alone for an unknown amt of time.  The kids and I will stay here until the house is sold, praying that it’s not too long!  well gotta run, just wanted to give everyone an update.  thanks for all the prayers, now we need more so we can all survive this difficult time of transition.

please say a prayer for us today if you do that sort of thing…Dean is expecting a call today to let him know whether or not he’s got the job in OH through his same company. he was offered a job to stay here through the new company but the offer was for less money that he makes now and we cant afford to live on that, esp. if we stay here.   It’s hard waiting for news that will either change things drastically well, either way change things because he will need a job here if he doesnt get the one there and we dont feel we can accept the other offer at the lower salary….this is either the end to the job searching or another beginning of more job seeking.    Bah!!  being an adult sucks sometimes…

Caleb, Boaz and Ezekiel

6 months old!! I cant believe how fast time is flying. He’s on the move, trying to crawl and getting all over by rolling until he can crawl. He and Bo are suffering with being congested though so both are not sleeping all that well but Bo’s the only one really keeping us up. The rest of us seem to be doing alright though, guess Caleb got over whatever he had. I’m anxious about my drs appt tomorrow and Dean’s phone interview for a job in Ohio. So hopefully more news tomorrow…

aside from their poor scheduling and reception service, and billing problems too sometimes…our dentist rocks! it had to be the most painfree procedure in my life!! not dreading next weeks filling that much now, but getting those wisdom teeth is still a whole different story.

Bo and Zeke have runny noses. Caleb is feeling more like himself. Dean and I are exhausted. We havent finished up the house repairs but desperately need to asap. lack of time and energy are the biggest reasons it’s not done, money is the other!

well gonna get…just wanted you to know I survived the dentist! wohoo!!

UPDATE: the procedure was fine and painfree but it hurts so bad now!!! MY MOUTH IS KILLING ME!!! AAAAHHHHH!!!

Caleb’s had 3 doses of antibiotic and is feeling much better. Since he’s had a few doses we are sending him to school late, it will be about a half day for him.  He seems fine and hasnt had a fever since yesterday afternoon so guessing he’s over the worst of whatever it was.  We’re going to keep giving  him the antibiotic til it’s gone.

my dentist appt is in less than a half hour…I am really not looking forward to it. I  am really dreading it actually.  I know it’s not that big of a deal but I remember getting fillings as a kid and it was not fun.  hopefully since I’ve been so much worse, like a zillion spinal taps, well this should be a peice of cake.   but for some reason I am really scared of the dumb dentist.   at least I’m not getting teeth pulled today.   that…well i think we’ll be putting that off for a while.   expect big news by the end of the week about Dean’s job.   we’re all anxious around here today for a ton of different reasons.   I hate it!! i must admit I’m coping pretty well must be the new medicine helping with that too… if you must know it’s an antidepressant that also helps w/ fibromyalgia.  seems to be helping but I”m still having pain for most of the day, just not as debilitating as it was.   but it’s definitely helping my mindset so that’s good.   gotta run to my appt….say a prayer I dont act like a big baby when I see the needle!!   bah! i think that’s my biggest fear, the numbing needle.  Bah!