Breaking through the Fibrofog…

I keep getting on Dean about not updating his blog but lately I’ve been slacking as well. Today we invited Caleb’s preschool classmates and parents over for a playdate since there is no school this week. A few of his friends came and we had a great time. The kids play really well together and it was nice to get to talk to other moms. I’d really like to do this on a more regular basis and one of the moms seemed interested so we’ll see.

I keep forgetting tomorrow is New Years Eve. Somehow the holiday season is confusing me alot, I guess it has a lot with missing out on Thanksgiving, and that usually sets you up for the other upcoming holidays, or at least for me it does. and this year its like the last 2 months are all a blur. I dont mind it really, but I wish i felt like I could celebrate and get into things more. I dont know how to expect tomorrow evening to go, we’re planning to go to a friends house for a party if we all feel better, Caleb’s getting back to normal after a cold but Dean and I are feeling pretty bad today. We’ll be taking the kiddos with us so I dont know how much I’ll really get to enjoy the evening. I feel like I cant do anything social and enjoy it, so today was nice. I didnt mind nursing amidst other moms, and especially another nursing mom. It’s when we go out with our single young adult friends that I feel odd and have tried to have to not nurse while we’re out with them. I know it might just be me, but I dont want to offend anyone while nursing, and it’s not like I’m not discreet, it’s just I know in the past they’ve not understood what it’s like for us to have to be parents and do things so I doubt they’ll understand how hard nursing is let alone that its not easy sometimes when you have to worry how it’ll affect those around you. I’m even considering not attending our current young adult group for awhile, we currently have a babysitter for our weekly meetings, but I tend to have to nurse during the time we are there so I dont really get to participate so I may as well just stay home and nurse in the comfort of my own home instead of try to attend and be disconnected. Not to mention we just found out our current sitter wont be able to do it anymore so we dont know what will be happening with caleb during that time. Not sure why I got off on that tangent, mostly because I’m not really looking forward to trying to get out and be social tomorrow when I know it will be challenging due to nursing and caleb. it’s hard when your kids are the only one being tagged along to events, you want to be involved but it’s not really fun when you feel like your kids cant be there and be happy, that or you have to constantly be on them to behave or in the babies case to worry about when he needs to nurse and trying to figure out where you will nurse so you’re not nursing in public. sorry for the complaining just worrying in advance about what should be a fun night out, dean says this sets us up for a failed evening but I want to be realistic, and taking a 5 week old and a 3 year old to an adult party isnt exactly realistic. blah! not that we could really leave the baby with a sitter since he wont take a bottle, but I really wish we could. I think I may just decide to spend the new year at home with my boys. it would be so much easier!!

I’m hoping to at least get out with Dean for a date in a few weeks to celebrate my birthday but know even then the baby might have to tag along due to feeding issues. if the boy would take a bottle we’d be fine but he’s so spoiled w/ my nursing him on demand that he wants nothing to do with it. he’ll barely take a pacifier when we offer it. this is so different then with caleb who took bottles and a pacifier from almost day one. it’ s good I guess but it’s hard, so very hard. well gotta run, the baby was laying on my lap and his diaper just leaked all over my leg, fun fun fun.

Just a quick update, Boaz had his a drs appointment. He last went when he was 5 days old, then he weighed 6 lbs 5 oz, today, at 5 weeks old he weighed 9 lbs 5 0z!! A whopping 3 lb gain! We were concerned at how much he was eating and since I”m nursing there’s no way to know if he’s getting enough, add to that his constant spitting up and we were a little worried. But guess he’s doing just fine, as the dr put it, that must be some good moo juice! They expect them to gain 2 lbs a month, so he’s just great, exceedingly so even. He was 19 inches long at birth and now is at 20 ( it may have been 20 1/2 I cant remember but it was at least 20 inches) inches long!! he’s doing wonderfully and didnt have to get shots this time, next time he will. just wanted to update and will get a 5 week pic up later!

Since I’m hoping to be doing more cakes in the future, I am in the process of getting pics up of all the cakes I’ve done. There’s now a link on the side of this page to get you to that webpage, it will be solely for my cake decorating pictures and information. I hope to work on getting it working fully soon but for now it’s a start.

Picture of the skid marks, look back towards the traffic you can see how far back the skid marks started

Just imagine that where the skid marks ends is where the tires were, and we have a Hyundai Sonata, so measure in the front of the car and you get to just about the pole, literally we barely managed to not hit the pole.

Boaz’s First Christmas Present, sitting w/ his proud Momma

this is the pic of the snowman cake i made the other day since I said I’d post a pic of it

My friends always amaze me!! This has already been an amazing christmas, in a ton of ways. Earlier this week while going to get some stuff at the craft store I saw this and told Dean I never wanted anything so much in my whole life. I knew we couldnt afford it and called a few friends to see if they had any coupons for that store since they tend to run really good coupons for up to 50% off one item in the papers, it was later in the evening and we couldnt track down any good coupons so I gave up on the dream and amidst the christmas craziness forget all about it. Tonight my friend called me to have us come over after church to see them before they headed out of town, her and the other friend I called the other night looking for a coupon had went in on the gift for me! I am floating on cloud nine and am so grateful. it’s something I couldnt afford and didnt expect to get, and something I will use, as soon as next week even! one of the friends had already asked me to make her daughters birthday cake for mid january so I told her now she’ll expect it to look great, and it should with all my cool new tools! I’m so happy!!!! thanks gals! YOU ARE GREAT!

In other news, today had it’s not so great moments. While driving to the eastern shore to visit my brother we had a near death experience, or so we think. we were driving straight and a car turn left into our lane and to avoid getting hit and seriously hurt dean swerved only to end up heading straight into a light pole. I prayed very loudly and waited for impact. we skidded a good while and stopped just inches short of hitting the pole. we’ve got pics of the skid marks. after avoiding hitting two cars, and a light pole we not only walked away but there is not a scratch on our car. we were very shaken and are grateful to be healthy and that our car and the boys are safe. it was truly a christmas miracle and we honestly believe an angel stood between us and the light pole theres no other explanation for our being safe through it. I’ll put up pics later, you wont believe after seeing the skid marks that our car was so close to that pole. I’m still in awe and wonder that we walked and even drove away with no damage. God was with us and we will never forget that moment. it’s been a strange day since then and I keep counting my blessings. I’ll admit I’ve hugged the boys and Dean quite a bit more since then, thats sad that it took such a big thing to do that and I tend to love on them lots but I wont take much for granted after fearing for their safety in such a big way. Prayer works believe me, even if it’s a last second cry out to the master, He does listen, a lesson maybe I needed to hear today, sorry it took him skaing my world to get me to listen to him!

Who said you can’t have a one month old, a 3 year old, and a demonic dog and still be supermom? A month ago I was so afraid of how things would go with the above members of my family, and this being day 3 of my being on my own with all of them I think I’m doing just grand. I’ve gotten out of the house everyday even. On Monday I had my first outing w/ both boys alone, to the grocery store in the freaking freezing weather, and we all survived. Tuesday I managed to get Caleb to preschool on time for once and then Boaz and I ran errands then got home in time for him to nurse then head back to get Caleb from school.

Today I’ve been a busy bee. Before 10 am I had made a batch of cookies for Calebs preschool teacher as well as some candy for her. After bathing the baby and feeding him we headed out for a walk since the warmer temps had blessed us for once! We spent a good amount of time at the nearby school’s playground where I met a few teachers and found out they do indeed offer a 4 year old pre-K program. I was floating home on that news, waiting to tell Dean. Right now we’re paying for a preschool program and really cant afford it. So next year if I can get him into the public school program for free, that would be awesome. The only drawback is that the day will be from 7:40-2:30, but I guess it will prepare him for full day kindergarten. The geniuses who want to cater to working parents are now making all public school kindergartens full days because parents cant find half day daycare. It sucks for those stay at home moms who want to keep their kids with them but also want them to enjoy preschool, but I guess i dont have a choice. Anyway…..we’re going to try to get him into the free preschool, if anything it’ll give me more time w/ Boaz! But thats a year away…

Today I also made a snowman cake to take to Caleb’s preschool party tomorrow, I’ll put up pics later. it’s really cute, and the best thing was I got the cake pan at the dollar store for $2! That’s so cheap for a molded cake pan, and it’s so cute. well Dean is home early and I havent napped all day, and I”ve been going non stop all day so I need to at least lay down for a bit before the baby gets up. Hope everyone is ready for Christmas, I cant believe it’s only a few days away.

Reasons why Christmas this year is truly amazing for me:

Boaz 3 weeks old

Boaz’s First Christmas

First Christmas

Too cute for words!