Breaking through the Fibrofog…

well we had a busy week last week and a busy weekend. Today I again woke feeling extreme tired. Thinking some water and breakfast would perk me up, but no such luck, not long after that I felt even more tired! I’ve got a call into my ob’s office, this is the beginning of week 2 of feeling so tired I dont want to get out of bed. I am worried about it being the diabetes again and if it’s that it really is an easy fix, but until then all I want to do is sleep. My girlfriend came and picked up Caleb to watch him for the day so I can sleep, so if I have to go to the dr that will help. Some days I truly hate being pregnant. I cant help but think if I wasnt pregnant right now Caleb and I would be playing energetically at the park, instead he’s off playing and I’m resting. Granted, I should have tried to get help last week when I was so tired, but that means giving in to defeat. I only gave in today because Dean called my friend for help because he couldnt leave work to help me. I hate feeling helpless, especially knowing I have 3 more months of this! we cant afford to pay someone to watch caleb or for Dean to miss work to care for him. I dont know how I worked full time while pregnant w/ Caleb, probably because I didnt have a 3 year old to take care of too! Some days being an adult is no fun, today is one of those days!

for most parents out there today is a significant day, first day back to school! I look forward to the day we have that day w/ caleb but then again even having him away from me a little today makes me sad. I guess by the time he’s in school full time I’ll have another toddler to keep me busy so it will work out well!

While preggo w/ Caleb the first time I felt a contraction was when I was in labor, and then it was mostly back pain from the contrax becuase Caleb was sunny side up. All night and this morning I’ve been having some painful cramps and I dont doubt it’s contractions, but I dont know if they are real or just braxton hicks, esp since I never felt this in my first pregnancy. It’s kind of scary.

We just planned an almost last minute vacation to Ohio for the week of labor day. My mom is upset because it’s too far into my pregnancy, that will be week 1 of my third trimester! but I know if we dont go to Ohio now, before the baby and before preschool starts we wont go until next Summer! thats a long time, and we are already missing our newest neice! I’m nervous about the trip but I’m sure I’ll be fine, and it’s not like they dont have drs or hospitals there if something happens! I wish the drive wasnt so long, but cant help that. It should be nice, we all need a vacation. the day after we get back Caleb starts preschool, so that’ll be good, he wont be too upset about coming home if he knows it’s so he can go to school!

So all I need to do is hold out another week and then I can have a few days break! wohoo!! I can hardly wait!

I hoped it wasnt true, but the first two times after eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich I explained the horrible bout of illness to follow as a coincedence. Today I fixed caleb a sandwhich and thought it looked good, so made myself one. Soon afterward my stomach was letting me know it does not like pb&j anymore. It is a sad day when you can no longer enjoy a simple pleasure like a pb&j sandwhich. I hope this doesnt mean baby B wont eat them when he comes out of my belly too!

We did some real Christmas shopping last night. In my attempt to remain organized and prepared for this years holidays eventhough I’ll be recovering from a c-section when the time comes, I am doing my best to do what I can now to get us ready. Caleb was with us while we hit another toysrus to find out if we could find anymore good clearance deals, we were worried he’d wonder why we were buying toys and would demand to play w/ them but he could care less. The only time he cared was when I picked out a crib toy for Baby B, he wanted to play with it but failed to notice the rest of the stuff in the cart I was pushing. Caleb was being pushed in another cart by Dean. We got 3 things for Caleb on clearance that we are putting up for Christmas. it’s a start, I think we might go out tomorrow night w/out him to find some more gifts. It’s fun shopping and saving money! Plus it puts my mind at ease that although Christmas around here will be a lot different for us this year, with two kids, that we can still make it special for all of us, and less stressed! well gotta run, the kid is stuck behind the couch.

you know your life is getting boring when you get excited about the new toilet your hubby installs! a week or more ago our soon broke our toilet and after a week of Dean and I being inconvenienced by having to use the other bathroom on our main floor he gave in to my requests to fix the darn thing. yes we are lucky to have 3 bathrooms, but when you are pregnant you need a bathroom close to the bed for mid-night potty breaks not to mention one day last week morning sickness got the best of me while Caleb was bathing and I had no choice but make my son see the whole nasty sseen between me and the toilet bowl in his bathroom while he bathed. that was the turning point for me and I began pressuring Dean to fix it and finally on Saturday he did.

We aslo managed to hit a great clearance sale at toysrus, tons of clearance items are an additional 50% OFF!! Go as soon as you can as we hope to hit a few more local stores to see what selection they have left, hoping to get my christmas presents done since I’ll be in full baby mode come thanksgiving and we should have our new little addition by the end of November so none of that last minute christmas shopping for us this year. I vow to get it done before baby B arrives so I can actually pick out some presents for the kids.

well my genius son wants his turn to play online so I’m happy to oblige him in return for a chance to shower in peace! hope everyone has a great Monday!

There is a reason women get pregnant again and again, we’re forgetful. As soon as you deliver that beautiful baby all the pain and torment of the past 10 months fades away. God has given us the ability to forget a great deal about how hard pregnancy and labor is. I think it’s a good thing that we have this ability, or else no one would ever procreate after the first time! Well I didn’t complete forget all of the pregnancy symptoms, and in fact each day when I’d wake w/ an aching calf muscle I’d be thankful it was just achy and hadn’t turned into a full blown leg cramp. While pregnant w/ Caleb the first time I awoke mid-night in excrutiating leg pain I cried while Dean tried to massage the pain away. It’s truly a horrible feeling and not knowing how long it will last doesnt help. So this morning when I awoke to extreme pain radiating down my leg to my foot I immediately tried to calm down and wait it out. This was no easy thing to do, in fact this cramp is worse than any I had w/ Caleb, that or I’ve forgotten! it lasted for quite a long time during which I awoke caleb because I was screaming and crying for the pain to go away! I think it’s completely unfair that w/ all of the problems pregnant women have to face that we get blessed with this horrible pain on top of everything else. meanwhile the men that “created” this problem for us, ie got us pregnant, just get to sleep comfortably for 10 months and then one day they become fathers. 5 minutes, or less, of work for the father of the child and 10 months of pain and problems for the mom, and thats not counting the 18 years to follow the actual giving birth!

I am very glad I am pregnant. I love being pregnant, most of the time. I hate being pregnant when I cant sleep at night due to indigestion, cramps, or having to pee non stop. I hate being pregnant when I’m standing over the toilet throwing up. I hate being pregnant when all I want to do is sleep and my toddler wants me to play w/ him or the dog wont stop whining to go out or in. yes the good of being pregnant eventually outweighs the bad, but as I sit here w/ a leg that will hurt all day from a leg cramp I had when waking up I begin to hate the responsibility women have. We always seem to get the raw deal of things, men generally have things so much easier. Thats my complaint for the day, I know I should be grateful to be pregnant and I am, but after this morning I will dread every night of sleep because any and every morning I could possibly have to deal w/ these horrible leg cramps for the next 3 months. I wouldnt wish that kind of pain on anyone, even though I wanted to wish it on Dean this morning as he told me to calm down, you calm down when it feels like someone is stabbing you in the leg over and over again for a good ten minutes! blah, the joys of pregnancy!

well I have decided that those who do not yet know the name we picked are going to have to wait to find out until the baby is here. I’ve had one too many people openly crack up laughing when I’ve told them. It’s one thing to not like the name but at least contain yourself. we picked the name for certain reasons and really like it, not to mention it’s our child not yours. It’s a shame though that people are so rude about it because it’s a great name and has a wonderful meaning behind it. Sorry a few had to ruin it for the rest of you! only a few more months and everyone else can find out!

I ended up having a very long day yesterday. I forgot about having to babysit and was late to the Crablogs meetup at Bay Cafe. I really like that place by the way! I’d love to get Dean there for a date, the atmosphere is great. I didnt show up til 8 and Dean showed up closer to the correct time, 6! So by the time Caleb and I arrived and ate some food Dean was ready to get going. So needless to say I didnt get to really talk to anyone, which was probably better as I was extremely exhausted by the time I got there. Caleb liked it because we sat outside and the decor as caleb puts it is “jungle” and the floor is covered w/ sand, so he had a huge sandbox to play in while we chatted, which made for quite a mess. By the time we got him home and bathed he was more than ready for bed, as were Dean and I!

One more teeny tiny vent and then I’m out of here for today. A while back I won an auction on ebay and paid quickly on paypal and then the item never arrived. the seller said they sent it and ok fine maybe they did, but we never got it. It was something I really wanted. Two weeks ago I win an auction and pay for it and wait for it to arrive. It hasnt arrived and after two emails to the seller I’ve still yet to hear from them. I am getting highly frustrated. I could understand it happening once, but to get screwed twice on ebay is too much. I’m trying to be patient and hope the darn thing comes but if it doesnt someone iis going to have to get me my money back. I rarely try to win any auctions on ebay but every time I do I get screwed. Dean on the other hand has never had a problem. Maybe I should start having him do my auctioning for me! blah!! I want my darn stuff now!!!! Ok enough whining for today, hope everyone enjoys the weekend. This humidity is dragging in some rain tonight and tomorrow so it ought to be a gray weekend, but we’ve got plenty to keep us busy.

Well I made a mistake and forogot that I have to babysit for a bit tomorrow night, so we’ll be late to the bloggers meetup that I mentioned yesterday, but we’ll be there.

Today I had my 24 week ob appt and another u/s. At my first u/s they couldnt check for cleft lip (spelling?) and couldnt see all of the heart chambers clearly, today they could, and both of those things are fine. She started doing the measurements and said the head looks right on target for 24 weeks 1 day, then did his belly, which is measuring large at 25 weeks 6 days! His femur also is measuring somewhere at 25 weeks +. I mentioned how I was worried about gestational diabetes again since I had it w/ caleb and the u/s tech said that the baby’s belly is usually the measurement that is bigger if the mom has gest. diabetes, so thats not a good sign. When the ob measured my belly today all she said was yes, he’s definitely meauring big but didnt give me details, I know I should have asked.

I hadnt seen this dr in the practice before but she was great. She asked me if I’d thought about my delivery options and when we talked about how caleb only weighed in at 7 lbs 9 oz and I couldnt deliver him vaginally she said that I more than likely wont be able to deliver this one vaginally then since he’s already big. I was starting to consider VBAC before but after talking to the dr today it’s almost a sure thing we’ll get a c-section, just a matter of when.

my blood pressure was a little up and the dr said I’ve gained 8 lbs, overall I believe. But I feel much better now knowing that this major belly burst was all baby weight! Caleb didnt measure big until week 40 so I’m somewhat suprised Baby B is already measuring ahead. It will be odd if this baby is a lot bigger than caleb was but I guess if I’m having a c-section that doesnt really matter too much. So I go back in 4 weeks for an ob appt and another glucose test. The dr said theres a “small” chance I wont develop diabetes during this pregnancy, so we’ll know more after that appt and test. But if the baby is already big I’ll be suprised if I dont have diabetes.

overall the appt went well, the baby’s heartbeat was 150 and everything looked good, just big!!