Breaking through the Fibrofog…

Despite my horrible cold, Dean and I went out to celebrate our anniversary, it’s not til Friday but since I was scheduled off today we had planned on having my mom babysit so we could go and celebrate. Not feeling well didnt help, not to mention our car decided to break down as well. So we were able to get to my moms where we borrowed her car and went out for some crab soup and a stroll around the mall. We found a great deal on a down comforter set that came w/ 2 down pillows, a duvet cover and 2 matching pillow shams, and of course the down comforter, for a price we thought was pretty fair, considering it’s quite a hefty price for those things usually, and this set was half off! So Dean got off pretty cheap, soup for dinner and a new comforter, ha! It was a pricey date, but we’ll sure enjoy that new comforter set for a long time. I doubt either of us will exchange much for christmas, but it was nice to finally get something nice for ourselves, anymore we spend all of our extra cash on Caleb or computer parts, or tomorrow again we will spend it on car repairs. Bad thing is I wont be going to work tomorrow, another unpaid day off, which wont help, and that will put me closer to getting fired for absence, they just made a new policy a week or two ago that even if you have a doctors note they can still enforce corrective action including as far as termination. We’ve known this was a possibility, but I can barely talk and we wont have car tomorrow so we wont have a way to take caleb to daycare or pick him up so it’s pretty much out of our control. So tomorrow Caleb and I can lay around in our new expensive comforter and dream of all the things we wont be able to afford once I am fired. Good for us we bought Caleb a few Christmas presents early, a few weeks ago there was a great sale at the toy store and we got caleb one big gift and two littler ones, plenty for his age, and I am sure he’ll get tons from family, but if things get worse from here on out, we’ll at least have exchanged good anniversary gifts, for the first year ever, and Caleb will have toys for Christmas.

on the way home from our date as my parents followed to make sure our car would make it back across town, I reminded Dean that things could be a lot worse. We joked about maybe having to spend the night at my parents house, but the reality that this time last year we were living there puts it all in perspective. Sure we may have car trouble, but compared to the obstacles we’ve overcome in the last year, it’s not that big a deal. We take the bus to work, so we really only need a way to get Caleb too and fro and if need be we can do that by bus too. Good for us we can afford minor car repairs right now, which is amazing for us. Now that we’ve got a few unneccesary purchases for our anniversary gifts out of the way we can focus on saving some money again. If it hadnt been for starting saving in the first place I doubt Dean and I would have gotten each other anything, and like I said this is the first year we really exchanged gifts And as I sit here writing my hubby is enjoying his Game Cube. So it wasnt a needed toy but it makes him happy, and that’s all that matters. Now its time for me to go enjoy my new comforter- night night!

What would anger you more:

Your best friend being friends with an old enemy of yours from high school OR you best friend being friends with your old boyfriend from high school OR is it completely ridiculous to let either of things interfere in a friendship? Just a thought. It’s recently been brought to my attention that my friendship with someone who my friend does not like makes her mad. The irony of it is that I am not even friends with the person she thinks and is mad at. But it is ok for her to be friends with my ex boyfriend and even bring him to my home unannounced as I sit and say nothing, I even tried to be nice and talk to him and so did my husband. Yet she can get mad at me for friendship that isnt even happening. She thought I was talking to my old friend but thing is it is someone different, an old friend that she doesnt even know really. One who is on the same place in life as me, she’s a mother and a wife, therefore easier for me to relate to and hang out with. What’s more important, being able to accept that there are other people in your friends life or being too worried about your own problems to care that your friend needs someone to go to thus had to find someone else to fill that need.

I am home, I got ready for work, all dressed up and ready to go. Then I took Caleb to daycare then it started raining, as if the chill in the air wasnt enough to make me feel worse. So I went home, I decided to rest and then take the later bus to work. I slept until well past time for me to take that bus so needless to say I didnt go to work. I then slept all the way til 1:50! I know I am a bad mom, leaving Caleb at daycare and sleeping. But I hate messing w/ his schedule and I am sure he’s getting more attention there then he would here. I am going to pick him up early then pick up Dean so he doesnt have to wait for a bus in this yucky cold rainy weather. I think we’ll pick up dinner on the way home so neither of us has to cook. Luckily I was scheduled off of work tomorrow since i have to work this Saturday, we (caleb and I)were going to visit an old friend of mine who I saw for the first time in 4 years a few weeks ago, but I doubt we’ll do that now. She has a toddler and I dont want to get them sick, let alone drive the 50 minutes there feeling like I do now. I was so looking forward to spending the day with her though, we’re going to get together soon though. She and I met in Elementary School! We were friends until I moved to Ohio in 1998. It’s great seeing her as a mom and wife now. I just wish we lived a little closer so we could have play dates!

Well I am going back to bed for a bit before I go pick up the son I’ve neglected all day. We figure we are paying the sitter anyway, and why keep him here where I cant take good care of him, when she can, and plus he wont be around my germs as much!

I hate being sick. I stayed home a ton of days a week ago and last week to care for a sick baby, and I stayed home one day cause I got his pink eye, which happened to be good that I stayed home because Dean was home sick and couldnt have taken care of Caleb by himself until I get home at 8. So I tended to Dean and Caleb then. Now I am feeling progressively more ill and ill, I must have got that horrible bug Dean had, but now I cant call in work sick or I’ll get fired. It’s not fair. Someone had to tend a sick baby, what’s a mom to do when she gets sick herself. I think I’ll take my chances and stay home, I am off tomorrow, and last night I told myself I’d try to make it through today and go to the dr tomorrow, but I feel so much worse now than I did last night. I think I’ll muster up the energy to shower and then see how I am , maybe drop Caleb off at daycare and decide after that. But I doubt anything but a nice long nap and bottle of nyquil will help me much…..

Here’s some highlights of our weekend.
Caleb and Dean
Caleb picking out his pumpkin, isnt he so cute!
Caleb and Amy
Amy(my sister in law) w/ Tyler (my nephew)
Amy , Tyler, Caleb and Amy eyeing up the pumpkins
Jesse(my brother) and Tyler canoeing
Another pic of them canoeing
The boys!(Tyler, Caleb and my sister in laws nephew Ray)
Tyler, Caleb and Ray, again

We spent the weekend w/ my brother and his family. On Saturday we went to yet another fall festival, this time it was so nice because it was on a pier by the water. We got the kids fingerprinted and Tyler got his face painted. It was so much fun, but by the time we got home yesterday we were so tired!

Well Caleb’s feeling all better now, but now mommy and daddy arent. Dean’s feeling miserable and we are both home today. When I got up this morning my eyes were red and itchy and sticky like they were last week. I took some pink eye medicine and they look better but still hurt. I called out of work since I know they’d all have fits if I came w/ pink eye, I told them Caleb and I had it last week and they all acted like it was the plague. Good stuff about the eye drop medicine for it is it makes it better so fast. I probably need another drop or two now, maybe thats why they are bothering me.

dean’s got that all over achy sick feeling accompanied w/ ear and head pain, and he sounds congested, sooo…. he may be off a day or two. Either way neither of us have paid time off since we’re still new at our jobs. I may not even have a job to go back to, but I feel so yucky. And like I said if I went this way they’d all throw fits and I’d probably get sent home, but even so just cause I have a contagious sickness doesnt keep me from getting in troulbe for not being there, how’s that work? Oh well.

Caleb is doing great actually. He’s talking so much more and learning the few signs we’ve been working on him with. Now us and the daycare provider are working on numbers. I want to start teaching him some Spanish too while he is young. But personally as a child I would have much rather learned sign language, or now as I look back, it’s something I wish someone would have taken time to work on me with.

Well despite being home ill I’ve been trying to catch up on my household chores. I’ve been not myself for the last week or so, mostly cause I’ve been feeling bad, and since I’m home I cant help but work on stuff. Especially since we did take Caleb to daycare today, so he wouldnt be subject to our germs or grouchy states and unattentiveness. He’s probably having loads more fun than we are. I feel guilty him being there while we are here, but bringing him home will throw off his routine and that’s not good either. he’s already have trouble going to sleep at night when I am not home and throwing tantrums in the morning when he wakes up and daddy is gone for work. Since I was home so much last week he was taken off his routine and it’s been hard him adjusting back to it. So I’d rather not mess with it too much, I will definitely bring him home early, but I wanted to make sure he did lunch there and napped some so that he didnt get confused too much. It’s crazy how one day of change screws his schedule up so much. Kids love routine and it’s good, but as an adult I love the changes in my routine, especially if they give me more time w/ Caleb but I dont want him getting sick again. His eyes were looking a little yucky this morning so I wonder if I stopped giving us our eye medicine too soon, i mean once our eyes looked better I stopped taking it, but I dont know if we should have done a day or two times more to make sure, cause now it will stink if we both get pink eye back.

Well I am going to rest while I have the chance. Sure is nice to lay in bed all day with my honey even if we are both feeling sick.

I am a bad mommy. My son is sick, so what do I do, take him to the mall! He was great, he was so tired he didnt much care to just sit in his stroller and enjoy the ride. He got a happy meal for lunch, and actually ate it, which was very suprising. He even turned down a fry for a nugget! We also shared a yummy baskins&robbins strawberry ice cream. We shared a scoop of it that is! Mmmmm! He loved it, especially as he fed himself w/ the spoon! He also got spoiled w/ new toys. Kaybee had all pooh stuff on clearance and then 25% off! I got him the love to hug pooh that we’ve always wanted to get him, and it was only like $9. And he got some little pooh and friends characters, they are so cute. My mom had half the set that she keeps at her house for him but she never got the other characters, so I got them cheap today for him to keep here at home. He will be so happy to see them when he gets up from his nap. Considering he’s sick he did great while I shopped. Luckily I found a nice coat for myself pretty quickly so he wasnt bored too much. We spent more time eating and looking at toys then shopping for me! I really wanted to find an anniversary present for Dean, our 4 year wedding anniversary is Nov. 1st and I know what I want to get him, but I know there are probably things he wants more. I hate this, I want to suprise him but he’s just too hard to shop for! So since I cant pick something for Dean, once again I just spent money on me and Caleb, like most of my shopping trips! Maybe I can convince Dean to at least shop for a new pair of shoes since he’s been complaining about his.