I saw the gyn yesterday to discuss my u/s results in more detail and discuss whats next. First off let me say this dr was much better than the LPN i had been seeing. So the dr shows me the actual u/s report and goes over in it detail, basically saying everything is normal for a woman my age , that the cyst at this point are functional and normal and of a very small size. So when I asked her then why am I having daily stomach cramps she said that she didnt know but that the small cysts would not be causing that much pain and on a daily basis. This is completely different than what the LPN told me a few weeks ago. The worst thing was when I asked the gyn about the cramps she said what cramps? what back pain? I had to tell her about it all again and she said no where in my chart did it discuss those problems. basically that lpn didnt do a darn thing and just made me deal with pain that I could have been seeing the PCP for and getting help for. So basically for the last two weeks I was told that the cysts were causing the pain and to wait it out. So I did that. the only reason I never went to the ER for the pain was because I was told by the LPN that the pain was from the cysts. So all of the last two weeks when I was doubled over in pain or in bed from the pain, I should have either been calling my pcp or going to get seen somewhere. but I didnt because of that other damn dr, or rather LPN. SO thank God I have a cat scan for friday to find out what is causing all of this pain. It has been very bad and now I am super worried because for weeks I thought it was cysts and now I dont know what the heck it is. So now I wait and worry. I could just wait and not worry , but this pain is nothing to sneeze at so I am very worried. My mom thinks its kidney stones but I’m not so sure. we’ll see what happens. I am upset about how I was getting treated or rather at the lack of treatment I was getting. nothing to do about it at this point.
In other news, no wait there is no other news. Working very hard on coordinating the Easter Egg Hunt for church, which has been hard not feeling well, but I’m good at pushing myself even when I feel bad. Actually sometimes I think I do way too much when I feel bad but it cant get much worse so theres no point in laying in bed feeling bad when theres things to be done. speaking of which, gotta run , babysitting today….
It’s been a few days since I’ve written, mostly because we’ve been so busy. To go backwards in time from most recent to furthest away in time would be best for my memory to recall…so yesterday I slept most of the day away because I had such a long crazy week. On Friday I ran errands all morning and left early afternoon to go to the Eastern Shore for a Pampered Chef show which went well considering all the kids that tried to make it a disaster for me! On thursday I babysat and ran around that evening doing stuff for our church’s egg hunt. Wednesday was a blur, something about shopping all day for stuff for Egg Hunt, having meeting for same in evening and spent most of the day on the phone w/ different health insurance companies about unsettled claims. Tuesday, didnt do much the kids I babysit were sick so I didnt have them. Monday, spent time w/ my mom shopping and in the evening went to the church for a little bit, but I wasnt feeling very good so we left early. Sunday, ok getting too far back for my bad memory, something about church, oh yeah, then lunch w/ friends, then a meeting, then shopping then home at 8 pm after being out all day! It was a super busy week and yesterday my body decided I needed a break so I slept in and even took an afternoon nap, all which left me unable to sleep last night! I’m hoping this week is much less eventful but it doesnt look to be. I’m very grateful my PTC symptoms are better because I could never have done all of this w/ my condition still flaring up. now if these stupid ovarian cyst would go away, still having pain from them! weeks later! I have an appt tomorrow so hopefully we’ll figure out what to do next about it.
So this week ought to be fun and busy. Next Saturday is my nephews birthday party, so I will be decorating a dinosaur cake for him. Before that I have to keep working on organizing our church’s egg hunt which will take place on April 10th at 11 am at Centennial Park in Columbia for all my local readers!! we’re hoping to hand out fliers at a shopping center next Sunday to advertise and I need to blitz local stores and libraries w/ fliers this week when I can. which means I need to finish up the flier I made. Fun Fun Fun.
Hope everyone is doing well and maybe I wont be so busy that I cant write this week!!!
well, I dont feel better, but feel better knowing that I have two ovarian cysts and there was also a shadow on the ultrasound so the dr said that may also be a cyst but it was on the ovary so they couldnt see it. It explains these horrible mid month cramps and back pain at least. today has been pretty bad. So two, possibly three cysts! I’ve never known that I’ve had that many, I’ve had one show up before when I’ve had ultrasounds but never more than that. So I’d guess that I also had them or different ones last month since last month was also very painful. So now I follow up with the dr in two weeks and also then get a cat scan to see if it shows anything else.
I was told the only thing they could do is put me on the pill but thats not even an option for me since you cant take the pill when you have pseudo tumor. Somehow the pill keeps you from getting cysts or at least cuts down on the frequency of them. So guess now at least we know I can get pregnant!! that would help, i’d at least not get a cyst then!! So nothing to do really for them. a few years ago when I had them the dr said to cut out caffiene. I did that and have stuck to it, suprisingly except for today and yesterday but only because we only had regular pepsi in the fridge and i kept forgetting to buy more diet caffiene free. but that wont affect how I feel today, apparently caffeine can cause cysts or at least worsen the chances of them. Now i can at least stop worrying that it was something major, I mean it’s not good, but it’s not going to kill me! although earlier today I was in so much pain I wondered….So maybe next month if I cut out completely on caffiene, unfortunately that probably means I should cut out chocolate just to be safe, and I oh soooo love chocolate!!
I’m heading out for a girls night out at church, we’re getting together at the church, some people may sleep over even, and playing games, getting massages, pedicures, scrapbooking, stamping, anything your little heart desires. I stocked up today at Joanns’ sale since all scrapbooking paper and some supplies were 50% off! I dropped some film off at walmart one hour and will pick it up right before I get to church, so scrapbook be prepared…you gonna get an update!!!! wohoo!
When I was a teenager and even as a pre-teen, I was called upon to be a babysitter for different families in the church. One family relied solely on me and as the kids got older kept referring to me as their nanny, and still do when they see me, and now they are in high school! I was loved by many a child and could enforce many rules and most of the time be listened to by the youngster. Today I cant even get my own son to listen to me. I have little to no patience left and feel like all I do all day when I babysit is yell and put kids in time out, my own included. They wont listen and often directly disobey. we’ve gotten to the point where one child no longer hits and scratches Caleb, which is an improvement, but aside from listening to that one rule no one listens to me. Today I just about had it, I was literally in tears over it.
I’m sure most of the problem w/ my own son is age, but since i went to the hospital in November he has stopped listening to me. He constantly calls for Dean all day and night long. I’m sure I’m not nearly as fun as I used to be since I”m always sick and if I’m not sick we’re out running erands or going to drs appointments for me. It’s no life for a two year old. I do my best to plan activities and take him places, on Monday we even went to Chuck E Cheese for lunch! we paint, play outside, go to the park, go over flashcards and other educational things. I do a lot with him, when I’m not feeling so bad that I cant do much but lay around and let him watch tv. I do alot with the kids that I babysit when they are here. but if they are not constantly doing planned activities then no one listens to me. Sure, structure is good, but I know these kids get more structure and activities here than some places but I dont always have the energy to plan and engage them in non stop messy artwork and planned activities for 10 hours a day. I’m exhausted and stressed beyond my capacity. I’m ready to throw in the towel. but I love the kids and it’s good for Caleb have kids around, not to mention we need the money. it’s only two days a week but the other days in between I’m stressing over how I’m going to be able to do it and worrying about planning things so they arent running around not listening to me all day. Today I admit I let them have more free time than usual and that ended up in craziness, but you should be able to let kids play and have fun w/out constantly fussing at them to stop fighting or to stop getting trouble or yelling at them for not doing what I said to do the first time! maybe I’m crazy but I know when I taught preschool it was not this hard.
I dont know what I’m going to do. I feel bad for not being able to watch kids just twice a week, when I know people watch kids full time and can do it. I also feel bad I cant hold down a regular job as is because of how sick I always am. I used to be able to do this and be fine, granted it wasnt for such long periods of time but still, it shouldnt be this hard right? three kids ages 3 and under? I am sure if I was healthier I wouldnt be having as many problems, but I cant do anything about that. I’m upset and dont know what to do or where to turn. at least tomorrow is friday…..
I hate insurance companies, and really hate drs offices. Two weeks ago i went to my PCP for a sinus infection and my chronic back pain. she said then that they’d order a cat scan for my pelvis/abdomen to find out what was going on. they changed that after I had normal urine lab work come back and said that the insurance company wouldnt auth the cat scan w/ those test results. she said if the pain got worse to call and they’d try to get auth based on increased pain. so last monday I called and they started the process of trying to get auth for the cat scan again. On wednesday I called, still waiting. after still having not heard from them I called today and was told that the way the dr put in the order that the insurance company would approve a pelvic cat scan but not an abdominal one, and her order asked for both. and my dr is out all week so cant change the order. I just got told that another dr will decide this week if they just want to order a pelvic cat scan. I told them I just had a pelvic u/s on Saturday and am waiting on those results,I dont know what would show up diffrently on a pelvic cat scan then a pelvic u/s, but hopefully telling them I had the other done will help them decide what to do about a cat scan. I dont care I just want answers. I’ve been having bad back pain and stomach cramps for days now. the cramps come and go as does the back pain but when I have it its prettty bad. I thought I could handle it but it’s hard to function w/ that pain, a sinus infection and taking care of kids. It’s only tuesday…argh! I wish it were Friday already. at least then I’d have Dean for the weekend soon, right now I have nothing but 5:30 to look forward to and even then I’m not to excited because Dean will have things to do and I probably wont get any rest. life is so difficult for me lately. I really need to feel better soon or I’m gonna lose what little sanity I have left.
Days like these make me think everyone would be better off w/out me in their lives. Heck, I wish I wasnt alive, this pain is horrible. I cant function yet I agreed yesterday that I was ok enough to babysit today, dumb dumb dumb. now I’m have 3 kids here and can barely see straight because my head hurts so much. I dont want sympathy I just want a miracle cure. I guess getting sympathy would be easier. why does my life have to be so difficult? I know there are people out there in worse shape then me….but I know that being sick for the 4th week (at least)in a row is not normal. I do know I am blessed but right now all i can see and feel is the pain. The weather out echoes my mood, it’s rainy/snowy and cold, when yesterday it was warm enough to not wear coats and sunshiny. BLAH!!!!
Tip for the day: do not attempt to paint a rather large living room and hallway whilst a toddler naps while battling a sinus infection. I feel like crashing but the room is only half done if that….couldnt move the fish tank and entertainment center so worked on a wall or two and the hallway….what a mess. now the room looks crazy!!
caleb was already coughing now I”m sure paint fumes wont help either one of us, but I’m trying to keep myself busy so I dont worry about those dumb u/s results….luckily it’s nice out so all the windows are open and the sun is shining in….that should help our colds…but they are calling for snow tonight?!?!? goofy weather!
have a happy Monday!!
