Holy Headache Batman!!! someone please turn off the fussy baby, grouchy toddler and the bright light from that hot sun…..arent Saturdays supposed to be fun?? I finally got Dean to go get me some aspirin now we just wait to see if it actually works for once for me.
I guess it was year ago, dont remember exactly when but we refinanced on our house. At that time our home, a 6 bedroom, 3 full bath, w/ a huge yard and driveway appraised for $130,000. Thats more than what our mortgage is for so we do have equity in the house but all of the sudden the real estate in our neighborhood is going crazy. A 2 bedroom home sold for $250,000. I know our home needs some work but not major repairs. We’re confident it if got appraised now it would be worth much more than it was when we refinanced. I keep trying to get Dean to consider selling and buying something for less than what we sell it for, even if that means having to get a house smaller than what we have. We are making the mortgage but I hate worrying each month if we’ll have enough money for everything. I keep looking at the selling prices for houses far smaller than ours and it’s insane that ours appraised for what it did. the only thing that has changed is time I guess and the prices of the houses around us.
last month they gutted and redid a house in our neighborhood and it sold for a lot. They just started the same process on a house two doors away, I can only imaging what it will sell for, and it’s smaller than ours. The guy paid $40,000 for the house and is redoing everything to turn around and sell it. I’m sure he’ll make a nice profit and with any luck it’ll help our house value go up as the prices of more houses in our neighborhood go up. If we had a few hundred bucks I’d get the house appraised again but I doubt we’ll be able to anytime soon.
I love how much room we have in our house and it would be hard to get something smaller w/ all of our crap and now two kids, but I desire for a “nicer” home. I hate the projects we can’t afford to fix and the unfinished things that need done. I am a dreamer and maybe one day I’ll get my dream home..one day….
Aside from that dream, I have something that some women dream for and it’s free, for a week or two I’m guessing. this stopping nursing thing is helping me look quite “fake” if you know what I mean. I think it’s funny, the sad part is that in the end of this process of weaning I’ll look like I got a reduction not implants. Oh well…. I’ll enjoy it while it lasts! 
Boaz is doing ok so far, he got kind of angry earlier when he was tired and wanted to nurse but overall he’s still a happy camper. he’s had a few bottles and is getting by. I dont look forward to bed time or even seeing if he’s going to make it through another night. last night he didnt get up til 6 and I nursed him last at 8:30 so w/ any luck he’ll do the same after taking a bottle. I sure hope so!!!
I’m still feeling bad today, I hate meds, they make me so sick. but I managed to still enjoy a kid birthday party and then we went to Micheals for a free craft event where Caleb did 4 free crafts. he really enjoyed it. The party was a classmate of Caleb’s from preschool and I really enjoyed talking w/ one of the moms. I’m glad we’re going to the playdates I’ve gotten more time to talk to her than when they were in class, mostly because I was pregant and then had a newborn. Now it’s much easier for me to have time to chat. but if I felt better that would be even better….
hope everyones having a good weekend.
Around 8:30 pm I nursed Boaz for the last time for at least 5 days. I started a different antibiotic shortly after that nursing that wont allow me to nurse him for at least 5 days. I figure at the end of that time he wont want to nurse anymore #1 because he’s going to hate me and #2 he’ll be used to the bottles. I have cried several times today at the loss of this special time I’ve shared w/ boaz, a bond I never got to share w/ Caleb. I dont think this bond makes me any closer or any more in love w/ him than I was in love w/ Caleb at this age, and I know I love them both equally (although its much easier to love a child who doesnt talk back and yell at you). Someone asked me if it’s different, if I recognize a difference in my attachment to Bo since he was nursed and Caleb wasnt. I honestly dont. I’m sure thats mostly because I’ve had so many health problems and for me nursing was out of the neccessity to keep paying formula expenses not out of a dire desire to. I went into this thinking it wouldnt happen and 7 months and several attempts/desires to stop cold turkey I am at this place again. but I took the blue pill(ok it was really a white pill, but you know what i mean) and there’s no going back, at least for the next 24 hours. I am glad it’s a weekend and that Dean is here to help for the first 2 days of this major adjustment. I’m sure Bo will do fine, I’m scared of how long it will take for my body to adjust to not nursing, I dont look forward to this for many many reasons.
Reasons I am excited to stop nursing:
wearing my old pretty bras(selfish I know)
Wearing dresses
getting out alone w/out being afraid the child wont eat
getting treatment for my other health conditions w/out fear of their affect on my nursing Boaz
Things I will miss:
the look Bo gets when he sees me getting ready to nurse him
having him fall asleep so close to me
I’m going to get too emotional…so enough for now….
I am really feel bad too so I”m off to bed. Didnt want to not write about this milestone night……Boaz please forgive me for being sick and having to stop nursing you, I love you and I know you will understand, but please go along w/ the game plan, at least for the first 5 days!!!!!
Happy 7 months boaz!! he showed me just how big he is getting, I caught him standing up holding onto his crib railing all by himself!! well gotta run…just wanted to blog the moment!!
I’m so very glad it’s Friday. I just wish it was Saturday. I have awoken every day feeling worse and worse. I went to the dr on Wednesday for part of my symptoms and was given an antibiotic. I started it Wednesday before bed and all day yesterday was sick from it. I feel horrible. I’ve had a headache every morning too but it tended to go away. Today’s headache is getting worse and we have no tylenol or any kind of headache relief in the house. Dean loves me and is coming home early. I feel horrible and I wish he was here now. I was actually in tears I felt so bad earlier. Sounds like it’s going to be a fun weekend huh? Debating to call my dr back and see what is going on, I shouldnt be feeling this bad, unless of course my thyroid is acting up again and being sick doesnt help.
I managed to babysit all day yesterday and then we had a dinner to go to . So I was out of the house til 10 last night, I’m sure that didnt help. I almost called my friend yesterday and told her to come home but I hung in there. I figured I’d be home w/my two kids or there w/ the 4 of them, there at least Caleb had someone to play with. Bo refused to nurse all day since he wasnt familiar w/ the setting. he took two bottles yesterday. I’ll probably give him bottles today too since I havent been able to eat or if I do I get sick so I’m sure he wont get very good milk from me. well gotta run. just had to whine….havent done so in a while, figured you wouldn’t mind!
Woke up feeling tired. Went to the library w/ the kids, still extremely tired. Came home barely got us lunch and Bo nursed before I was able to convince caleb to nap earlier than usual. Bo for once slept at the same time as Caleb, mostly anyway. I was out as soon as I laid down, I was probably asleep before Caleb even. Bo woke up shortly after to nurse since he fell asleep mid feeding earlier…so I went back to sleep until the phone rang and woke us both up. I really need to start turning it off during nap times. Today was the first day I’ve napped in forever. Too bad I still awoke exhausted if not feeling worse than before. Dont know if it’s a result of having watched the kids all day yesterday and running all weekend, or the fact that I havent been able to sleep for more than 5 hours a night for almost a week now. Or best chances all of the above plus my thyroid since I’m feeling crappy overall. I’m wiped out though. I would love to just sleep all day but it’s so nice out and I’ve got plans this evening.
My son is so funny, well they both are but right now Caleb’s in his room singing Happy Birthday…to Curious George. At the library we got a Curious George book about his suprise birthday party. He is saying “curious” funny and it’s so dang cute. Right now he’s flipping pages and “reading” to Boaz. He’s a great big brother, when he’s not standing on Bo or picking him up to help him sit or stand….he really is helpful, MOST of the time!
bo will be 7 months old this week. he’s pulling up on things to try and stand. He’s almost crawling. he can get from sitting to just about anywhere he wants via scooting his butt or by getting down into a crawling position and squirming or rolling. caleb walked when he was 9 months old, I have no doubt Boaz wont do the same, if not sooner. Bo seems a bit more mischevious than Caleb was at this age, but not by much. Caleb was a climber and early mover which meant he’d get into all sort of things…at 7 months Bo is no different. Oh the neatest acheivement for Bo, he ate pizza yesterday. he gummed that peice of pizza until it was gone! it’s was cute and man was he mad when he didnt get more!
well gotta tend to the troublesome twosome….yeah that’s my boys…I cant imagine what it will belike when Bo can help Caleb in his adventures and troubleemaking…..right now Bo is calebs troublemaking….you’d have to see them to understand. I never thought they’d bond so much so quickly but these boys sure do love each other, for now at least.
