Shew! Did I complain yet about how bad these headaches are getting??!?!? I had a Pampered Chef show scheduled for tonight but cancelled this past Wednesday because I hardly got any RSVPs and because of the weather situation, our road is still quite slippery. The way I’ve been feeling for the last two days, it was a good decision because I dont think I could have hosted the show tonight. I did end up w/ enough orders to count as a show though, so that helps. The greatest part was giving away the host benefits, I had planned on doing a drawing to see who would win the benefits of hosting which include points for free stuff and great discounts. the person who won was excited and said she never wins anything, I am glad she can pick out free stuff! If anyone wants to place a Pampered Chef order send me an email or even if you’d like to host a show. It could be as easy as gathering 6 or more orders from your friends and then enjoying the host benefits as a catalog show and you wont even have to have people over! You can look online at products or I can mail you a catalog. Well thats my plug! I love these products and am glad I can earn them for free or at great discounts by being a consultant! Just send me a email if you want to know more!!
The juror is in, or rather the doctors orders. I am going to try the Topamax again, it’s the med I was on before around Thanksgiving that helped me lose all the weight but made me crazy! But the hope is that taking it alone, as opposed to w/ the diamox as before, helps the side effects. I’m all for doing something to lose weight, but the point is we cant focus on getting pregnant right now. The headaches and spots are a lot worse this week, so I am almost ok with going back on meds. The dr said my eyes look fine, which is good news, but doesnt explain the spots I’m seeing. So I have to see the eye dr again, and I didnt like how the last appointment w/ him went, so I’m not quite looking forward to it. I’m feeling particularly bad today, not sure what the difference is, probably just because I didnt sleep well last night, due to all the stress. I’ve got another pressing health matter I’m worried about but dont want to talk about freely yet, I am hoping that after my drs appointments that I have for Monday wil help relieve alot of stress related to that matter and then I can hopefully talk about it, or at least can not stress so much about it. They’re calling for a huge wintry mess Sunday - Tuesday next week, I am so hoping it doesnt affect my doctors appointment. Luckily Dean will be home so I am hoping if the weather is bad he’ll drive me to my two appointments.
Well I hope everyone has a great weekend, we’re going to have a busy one, and hopefully it will be good too!
Well I did what I’ve been dreading, I called my neurologist and left a message saying my symptoms are worsening. I’m feeling in general better than I have been, but thats because a major part of why I was feeling so crappy before was the medicine. now it’s just a different kind of not feeling good, and even so , I dont always feel bad now. On the meds I almost always felt bad. Now I just have problems w/ my vison and headaches. Which is better than the list of ailments I had on the medicine. But this is more serious than before. This means my body needs the medicine to treat my condition, even if it causes me other problems. Not sure what the dr will say or recommend, I’m sure whatever he says will upset me. Heck, the receptionist, seeing as they all know me so well, asked, you stopped the medicine because you were going to try to get pregnant right? I said yes. She asked next, so are you pregnant now? I held back a tear and said no. She was very nice about it and apologized and told me it took her and hubby 2 1/2 years to get pregnant.l After I got off the phone w/ her though I was in tears. It’s only been 2 weeks since I saw the dr last, not like I could really be or know if I was preggo yet, but still, the fact is, we hadnt even started trying really yet because I have 2 drs appointments on monday that I was waiting to have before starting to try, but it is possible we could be pregnant now, but we didnt make a point of it, I didnt chart like I should have. and like I said, I wouldnt know it yet, it’s still kind of early. Plus I’m still on the one medicine that I need to stop and that process is supposed to start tomorrow, if I had been feeling well. I know, I’m sure this is way too much info for you, but I cant talk to anyone right now because my best friend is at work and Dean’s in training and cant be reached. Like I said I dont know what happens now, it might not be as bad I think it will be but theres no way for me to know. I guess I’ll go wait for the phone to ring…..just hope it doesnt wake up the slumbering kids!
Memories
Dean posted these pics of me from my senior year of high school. I find it hard everytime I look at old pics from high school. I used to believe I was overweight, a size 8 sometimes a 10, mostly due to my chest size not my stomach size. Looking at these pics I’d die to be that skinny again. I wouldnt know how to get back to that point other than starvation and excessive working out, and I dont have the energy for that. I feel horrible about my size and weight right now. I have for a while. Yet I still continue to eat like I do and dont have the energy to work out much and I know I’d need a gym membership to get me what I really need, but we dont have the money for it. So I guess I’ll have to look for a good work out video until we can afford a gym membership and cut out my carbs again soon. I hate to do it but I know it’s effective, or rather that cutting carbs works best for me.
Luckily my hubby is very supportive and tells me he loves how I look, granted I find it hard to believe that since it was my senior year of high school when he truly fell in love w/ me, and I know I was a different person then. I guess that’s what marriage and unconditional love it about, but I still struggle with it. I guess if I know I am unhappy about my weight than surely he is too. But he disagrees. Being stuck indoors w/ nothing to do but veg out in front of the tv w/ snacks isnt helping much, but I guess It’s my own fault for not getting off my ass and doing something. Maybe I’ll start running up and down the stairs while Caleb naps, that would be exercise right? Blah. I hate exercise. Not really, I just dont know how I’ll find time for it w/ Caleb let alone do it on my own. Any ideas would be much appreciated.
In other news, also spurring my ideas I need to watch my weight….. I’ve been off diamox since Friday and I am able to enjoy soda and foods again. Taste buds arent back 100% but I notice I am eating more. Which is bad. The worst part of being off the medicine so far is that the headaches and spots in my eyes are getting worse. I dont want to call the dr becuase then we’ll be back on the meds or at least putting off trying to get pregnant longer to see if it’s just adjusting to being off the meds. But I know it’s not good to jeopardize my vision either. I’ll wait a day or two more to see how I am feeling.
Well more snow is coming down, again. Gotta love winter, well not really, I do actually hate it. if it were a person, winter that is, I’d say they were unpredictable, chilling, suspenseful yet having a calming nature…well I was going somewhere w/ that, but my headache took away my current thought….i’ll try to be more inspired later….
It’s Tuesday, the day I should be babysitting. But once again, I’m not. Yesterday was snowy, today is icy. They were calling for 1/4 in of ice but not until this evening, BUT we’ve already got 1/4 inch or more of ice on everything! So, today we wait to see what else we get. by tomorrow we are expected to get that other coating of ice then later 3 inches of snow or so. Then more messy weather will arrive on Friday! So needless to say we probably wont leave the house for a while, well Caleb and I. Dean made it out to work yesterday afternoon and he just headed out a little while ago but is taking it slow. I wish he’d stay home, he can work from home and I wont have to stress over him getting in an accident. I was up bright and early stressing over how bad it was and if my friend would endanger themselves to get the kids here, luckily when I called I was rousing her from bed, so no babysitting today.
Meanwhile we are still dogsitting. That was going well but yesterday I left a pair of my shoes on the porch so I wouldnt get snow everywhere and forgot to bring them in the next time I let the dog in, and when I looked out to check on the dog he had tore up one of my shoes! He also tore up a cup that we had out there that we were using to poor salt w/. The first couple of days he was fine, but I guess he’s either getting homesick or bored or both and thus the destroying things. He has also figured out how to open our front gate, not sure how but he does. So while dean was out cleaing off the icy car the dog got out and didnt come back for about an hour, and then I had to trick him to get him in the house. He’s escaped at least 4 times! Today I am not letting him out unless I take him out on the leash because I cant go out chasing him in this icy mess w/ a toddler in tow. I am sure he might come back, but since he’s not used to being here I’m concerned he wont. when Dean tried to leave after the dog escaped, the dog chased the car down the road and he probably would have chased him farther had dean not come back in an attempt to get the dog back in the house. I wanted a dog, now I”m just getting annoyed. It’s like he’s trying to drive me nuts. I know he’s probably not but it’s still frustrating.
Hopefully the weather clears up soon but it’s not looking to be a good week ahead weather wise. I just hope we dont go nuts being stuck inside for awhile. Hope everyone is staying warm and safe!
What a weekend! Well, Caleb was sick Thursday, I was sick off and on all week, and we tried to be well enough to go out Friday night and managed a good evening in that ended in playing games w/ friends til midnight while we got about 1 1/2 inches of snow! Saturday we went to a birthday party in the afternoon after spending the morning out enjoying the snow and even managed in a walk to the park since we are dogsitting, I think we enjoyed it more than the dog though, it was great seeing Caleb enjoy the snow and the dog! Last night Dean started to not feel so good and sure enough today he’s been in bed all day w/ a stomach bug, probably the same one Caleb and I had. I’m glad I managed to not get the vomitting part of it, so far. So today I”ve tried to entertain dog and kid alone, which is hard because I so want to be able to spend the day w/ Dean , and I hate seeing him so miserable!
We are supposed to get 4-8 inches of snow overnight, it just started snowing about 30 minutes ago and everything is already covered w/ snow, again! They arent predicting a very good rush hour for the morning, which is fine since I think Dean will probably be calling in sick anyway. I just hope that I dont get any sicker than I’ve been this week, but it comes w/ the job I guess. i’d happily take the illness if I could take it away from Dean, he looks so sad!! My poor boys! Caleb and the dog kept trying to rouse Dean and play w/ him, but that just made Dean more miserable.
It’s been so nice having a dog around. I thought it would drive me nuts, but this is a great dog. he’s pretty big too, which makes it hard when he likes to lay w/ you in bed or lay on the couch next to you. He pretty much has to be near you no matter where you are. I went down to do laundry and he went w/ me, found a seat for himself on the futon as I did laundry! I thought he went back upstairs when I went into my office, but as I turned to leave my office an hour later , he was laying right next to my chair! Caleb keeps playing with him, or sitting in front of the dog as he lays on the floor. It’s too cute. I told Dean if I coud clone this dog I’d be happy, but I know that theres a slim to non chance we’ll ever get a dog this good! But I can dream. I think we’ll all miss him when he leaves on Tuesday.
Well I’ve had a long day but I”ve been feeling so good w/out the med I am not that worn out. I usually am drained of energy by 10 am, but since I”ve stopped the diamox I’ve got a lot more energy. The headaches has subsided some, which is great, I will just keep praying they stay away for awhile! Now if we could just get this stomach bug out of the house….
Hope everyone has a warm and safe Monday, hopefully mine will be spent lazing around w/ Dean, Caleb, and Mystery(the dog).
I have one more pill of diamox to take and then we’re done, hopefully! I was able to almost enjoy a soda this week, for those who dont know, it makes soda taste metallic. So now that the dosage is lower or the fact I havent had a soda in months, it’s tasting better to me. So all next week we wait to see if I get worse or not, if not the next week we start lowering my lasix dosage until I’m off of it. I”m already experiencing some worsening headaches but I keep trying to excuse them away as something else, wishful thinking I guess. I am sure if they are PTC headaches then they’ll just get much worse after tomorrow when I”ve not had this medicine to control my increased spinal fluid. But if it’s not PTC headaches then the hope is all next week I am fine. If not I will have to make the dreaded call to the dr and tell him that I might need to stay on the diamox but we’re going to keep praying that the headaches and other symptoms go away so I can be med free and then on our way to baby making, but I’m a little doubtful today as my head keeps hurting, but ….could be a zillion things, stress is a big one but we’re actually not dealing w/ a lot of stress right now so I’d be suprised if that was an issue. Hormones, shouldn’t be dealing w/ that this week, so it’s not good to be having these headaches, but it could be worse.
thanks go out to the Galleghers for providing dinnner for us last night! It was great! Caleb is feeling better today, definately some sort of stomach bug but he’s eaten today and is playing more so things are looking up! It was so thoughtful of them to make a meal for us! Thanks a bunch!!!!
I’m getting a little bummed about my part time job, you know the PC Consulting stuff. In an attempt to have people over and to sell some products, I’m hosting a show at my place next Friday. I sent out 50 invites in the mail and emailed at least 15 more people who didnt recieve snail mail invites. I’ve gotten no RSVP’s of yes! One person has placed an order. One out of 65, and still not one yes. Guess I just need to find 60 more of my closest friends and family to invite. I know people do this for full time jobs, maybe I”m not trying hard enough, but I dont know where else to turn. I really like entertaining and hosting, so it’s really not all about the money. I actually hate asking people to buy things, it’s just not in my nature, maybe why I’m not succeeding at this. but I personally love these products, and they are great! I’m not completely biased, as I’ve seen many a people rave over the products who aren’t consultants for the company. I guess I’m just in a rut. I thought for sure once I was up and feeling to it I could succeed at this, but looks like yet again failed attempt at trying to work outside the home for me. Guess it’s just not my thing. I can change diapers, do laundry, clean house and cook, so at least I have some skills, too bad you cant get paid well for these thing! Just griping. Not that I expect anyone to buy stuff if they dont need it or have the money to, but heck who doesnt want to come eat and socialize!?!?! Enough whining, dont come if you read this and feel guilty, this is my place to share I need to feel comfortable doing so. I dont want to know you came becuase I made you feel bad. thanks for listening! (or reading, as it is w/ blogs)
