Breaking through the Fibrofog…

the day started  out wonderfully!!! I went to curves before 9 a.m.   then my friend took Bo w/ her to the park so it was just Zeke and I hanging out and doing some chores and we went for a walk after lunch.   I had time before Bo got home to shower and do my hair then we had time to play outside w/ friends before heading off to a crazy busy night.  we went to pick up Caleb from school early, Dean from work early , so we could go volunteer at a conference at church.   I had taken dinner ( a crockpot of chili, cornbread muffins and brownies) for our tech crew so after a rough first session technically (our A server was down at the start and a fire alarm evacuated the building) we went to get our kids so we could feed them dinner before the next session.  We couldnt find our keys and when we did we found our van wouldnt start.  we couldnt go get our kids food!!  not to mention or van wouldnt start, not even after being jumped a few times!!

A friend drove Dean to get the kids food while I stressed out and called my friend to insure a ride home for us all at the end of the night.  Sometime in there Caleb dropped all  of the brownies I had made on the ground in the parking lot, so only one person other than our family go to enjoy them.  We had little time to finally feed the kids  before being back in our serving roles for the meeting.   Things were going much better technically, aside from the time freeze ( u had to be there), and sometime during the service our friend Sara, who turns the BIG 30 today, showed up.   She was meeting her hubby and they had a spare vehicle so it was decided we could drive their van home.  Things continued to improve and now if we can just find the money and time to fix our van we’ll be good to go….tomorrow’s going to be crazy but we’ll figure it out.

Praise God for having friends around willing and able to help us, we are truly blessed, even amidst the difficult times.     it’s been a whirlwind day emotionally and I am just floored at how things can take such a drastic turn.   not sure what tomorrow holds for me, but I am determined that someone doesnt want me to attend the session I really want to tomorrow, which makes me more motivated to go so ha ha on you devil I am going!!  :-)  I’ve got a paid sitter lined up, free childcare at church available if that doesnt work out…so I’m excited that no matter what I’ll be where I am supposed to be tomorrow.    Now off to rest so I am physically and mentally up for it!

we havent gotten our stimulus check yet although we dont know why.   It should have come by May 9th.  We could really use it, esp. as today while on the way home from curves I noticed the shell on one side of the intersection had gas for $3.73 and the Speedway across the street was $3.95!!  everyone was trying to fill up before the .22 cent hike in price, and since we were almost on E I had to too since we’ll be going to church a lot this week so will need gas.   blah.  thankfully as far as gas goes we only have one vehicle, the downside it cost $60++ to fill it up.   blah.    I’m going to seriously start reconsidering where I go during the days to conserve gas.  This is so ridiculous.   It’s almost pay day but even then the money will be going towards the mortgage and bills.   time to cut back, seriously and I’m going to dread it, I know I am spoiled, esp. for a SAHM.   oh well time to live like we only have one income.

I’m not writing for lack of time, not really at least.  Everytime I open this up to post I decide not to.   I have a lot of stuff keeping me busy, new opportunities on the horizon and I’m feeling mostly ok.   Constantly dizzy, but mostly otherwise ok.   I went to curves 4 times last week and counting yesterday two times this week.  The rest of the weeks schedule is pretty hectic due to a conference at church for which I’m volunteering a lot.

The boys are doing ok.  Bo’s got his normal, ok normal for him, issues.   We are so unsure of what to do about it, if we seek out testing for autism or other syndromes or if we wait it out.   He can be completely sweet, kind and even spur of the moment genuinely caring, then a split second later beat the crap out of someone, which is not limited to kids, he will frequently bite me, hit me, pinch me, hurt me in anyway possible when he’s enraged.    We’re not sure what triggers that anger and often the only way to get him calmed down is when he finally falls asleeps or has a major distraction that he truly cares about.

oh well….not what I wanted to post about.  Zeke has decided he doesnt need to nap.  i think this is what happened to Bo.  It’s hard when an older sibling is outside playing and you can stand at your window and watch him doing so, all while you are told go to sleep.  he’s not buying it this one.  He has decided he doesnt need to and wont nap if he can manage it.   He will no doubt fall asleep in the car if we go someplace but keeping him asleep is another issue as well.  I cant manage him stopping napping at just 2, for his sake and mine!!

Just a few more weeks of first grade for Caleb. He’s doing really well, he’s bright like his mom!  :-)  not much else to say about him at this moment….

well not much going on really.  not much I want to talk about at least.  mothers day weekend was ok.  I wasnt feeling well and was homesick, so it was kind of a bummer weekend, that and we had horrible rain yesterday.

off to see if I can convince zeke to nap.   babysitting this afternoon so the sooner he falls asleep the better!!

Bo awoke around 3 am w/ a high fever.  It comes back as soon as the tylenol wears off.  no other symptoms but lack of appetite which for Bo is NOT normal.  My stomach is a mess today too.  lovely……I didnt get to go to work today. Praying if we all get sick it is short lived, I’ve got a lot of volunteering to do next week for a conference at church and all I need is to have to cancel due to sick kids.    plus I hate being sick and having sick kids!! 

I guess I should be glad I filled up yesterday, that should at least last us a few days.  OUCH! this is going to do well w/our struggling budget.  Dumb inflation.

Yesterday morning we debated about what to do since the weather was yucky but in the end kept our original plans to attend the church wide outreach and met others at Vineyard Central in Norwood.   After that we came home and while I napped so Dean and our friend Jay put new front brakes on the van.   When I got up I went to get a haircut, my hair is way too long to be manageable for my schedule so I kept the same cut which I love when I have time to blow dry it straight, but got at least 3 inches cut off the back!  ok at least 2+ inches!!   but still it feels much lighter!   We also worked tech at church all weekend so I was there yesterday from 5 - almost 8 then came home and crashed to be up and out by 7:45 this morning and we got home this afternoon around  1:30 p..m.   Dean’s resting while Zeke naps and I’ve been uploading pics and am now doing so while sitting out front watching Bo play.  I’m exhausted and we’ve no plans for the rest of the day so hopefully we’ll all get a restful, at least relaxing, Sunday afternoon/evening.  More pics up on Flickr… 

This past Sunday Dean and Caleb went to Kings Island for their first 2008 trip on their season passes.  Wohoo!!  waiting on that extra tax money to come this next week so the rest of us can get our tickets!

Last night was Caleb’s first baseball game.  he did great, even got a really good hit in!  Sadly it was a chilly day and I felt horrible. I have some horrible cold that is making me feel like crap.  I awoke feeling better than I have in days, then I opened the windows again this morning and now I am back to sounding horrible. well gotta run…the boys are fighting, again… as always, more pics up on Flickr