Dean went to have dinner and play a game with a friend of his who he used to work with in Ohio.   He has several friends he has kept in touch with since we moved.    When we left Ohio I was just starting to have a close friendship with several ladies, I had one friend there who I worked with  who I had a close friendship with but because she had infertility problems and was facing those challenges when I got pregnant w/ Caleb it got hard for us to get together.   granted she tried hard to look past my pregnancy and her infertility but it was hard and I cant imagine how hard it was for, ok maybe I can somewhat.  but we lost touch once I switched jobs, shortly after I found out I was pregnant.  in Baltimore I have a lot of girlfriends, several close friends in fact, but Dean has only recently started a meaningful friendship with another guy.   So this move is going to be harder on me in that aspect.  Dean has a network of friends to move back to and I am moving away from all of mine.   I know most of it is because I’ve grown to be more open since we moved so I’ve made it an important part of my life to engage new people, something I never used to do.  I definitely have changed a lot since we came here, guess growing up does that to you. I only hope I can continue to be so open and find some genuine friendships once we move.  but I am already dreading saying goodbye to my closest friends.   I cry every time I drive to my best friends house.   I know, I’m silly but it’s hard.

by the way anyone know where I can get moving boxes, and easily w/ three kids in tow?  or want to get some for me????? I think after Dean’s week home we are driving back with him to househunt and be with him at the hotel.   We have been pre-approved for a loan and there are several ways they said we can manage a new loan while we wait to sell, so I am more hopeful that we can find a house, buy it , move then wait for this to sell.  its looking very encouraging, Deans got a date with the realtor tonight to go see some we found online that look nice.