this post was a year ago from the day I just got my MRI done last week, I cant believe it really. we were sitting dealing with this same illness/es and fighting the unknown. Since then we’ve been blessed with a beautiful baby boy. this time though I feel more physically drained than I did this time last year. Maybe it’s the newborn, toddler, preschooler, load of crap to do and then add being sick, oh yeah and I did have a major surgery 2 months ago. It’s not reason I feel so bad if you put in perspective but new moms shouldnt feel like this. no one should, ever….
so…I’ve been waiting for my primary dr to call me back to discuss my mri results that Dean faxed to her today, but instead my neurologist actually called. I assumed he wasnt going to since I knew he should have had the results already.  So…he thought I was going to the same place I went last year to get the MRI in which case they would have compared the MRI results for him but since I went to two different places he will need to get both sets of films, from the one taken now and the one taken last May.  Reason being this new report notes changes in my gray matter and this means there have either been changes in the last year, not good, or that the radiologist last year didnt make note of the areas on the report but that they were there on the films.  So… after I take him the films he said he and a radiologist at Mercy will go over both set of films to decide if there are changes in the two sets of films or if the reports just werent complete last time.  I dont really know which I want, changes means something is wrong and we’ll be closer to a diagnosis but it wont be a good diagnosis.  if the films show the same thing we’re back to the beginning.  I justdont know what to think. If Bo wasnt napping I’d go pick up the other films right now as they are ready for me to pick up….but I guess I’ll go tomorrow morning before our zoo field trip then drop them off to him tomorrow sometime and hope he has time to review them but if not we wont know more til later next week. more waiting….at least it seems like he’s interested in looking more into it which is hopeful as far as in the past its seemed like he wasnt willing to do much to help.  so keep praying…answers are closer than they have been in the past so that’s good news even if theres no real news yet.  have I mentioned how much I hate waiting?!?
