I have been up and

I have been up and down all night, I think I have either been having cramps again or Caleb is moving. Everyone keeps asking me if I’ve felt him move yet and well since I dont know what it should feel like I just say no. But I keep getting twinges of pain here and there and sometimes sharp sudden pains and I just blame it on his growing but I dont doubt some of it is him moving, especially after seeing him be so active on the ultrasound. I have tried to be so careful since the ultrasound about what I do. If I get a cramp, or whatever it is, I try to lay down or just practice my breathing. I feel like I have to be so much more careful with my body now that I know he is really in there, complete with all of his organs just a little small right now. But all night long I have been cramping and it is really scaring me. I dont know what it is from and I dont even know if it is just my stomach, like constipation or gas or something, or real cramps. I mean I have always had stomach problems and I am probably just confusing the pain now with something else. And I know the dr said to call if I have cramps but I dont want to call and then find out it is just gas or something. I wish I knew what was going on with my body, it is scary and I dont know what else to do but stay in bed and relax. All this stuff is exhausting anyway. Dean said he didnt realize how exhausting being pregnant makes you until he read someone elses journal about how from the time she got pregnant she started to realize she couldnt do as much and would start going to bed earlier and earlier. It’s nice to know that now he wont think I am lazy, just pregnant. I was always so tired in the first few months. Now I can get through the day and be ok to do some things at night, but if I give myself a chance to lay down well then I am in for the night. So I have more energy now, but not tons. I am glad he read that though so now he wont get frustrated when I am soo tired all of the time. Speaking of which, I am getting sleepy again, all this being up and down all night doesnt help either!