Rainy Day Blues

Well today is an exact opposite of yesterday. I still awoke not wanting to get out of bed, but the feeling has yet to go away, eventhough I am up and have already left the house and been back. The sky is gray and the rain is falling. I feel like the raindrops are all the tears I am not crying. I am very down today. Partly due to weather, partly due to circumstances, mostly due to my own storms that are brewing. I would have loved to stay curled up in bed and had Dean stay and tend to the kid, but that would never happen, it’s only Thursday. I am determined not to let these feelings take over my day, but I can slowly feel it happening. The desire to crawl up on the couch and veg while Caleb plays by himself. Will probably end up doing just that, if I can force myself I might go to the mall, theres one that has a huge play area and Caleb would no doubt enjoy that more than being in this dismal place all day. but I cant say I’ve got the strength, physical or emotional to do so today. More reason to force myself to …..well the little angel calls…..