I havent blogged yet about a wonderful evening I had this week.  I dont have time to now but this is sort of my reminder to do that later…..

being the good patient I am I have googled arthritis and found many suprising things.   After they diagnosed me w/ sleep apnea I wondered if I really had fibromyalgia at all, now I wonder the same with this new development.  Before we left Baltimore my rheumatologists did x-rays of my hands and feet to check for things like this, arthritis.   Everything was normal.  Sure it’s been about 2 years but can it have happened that quickly?  And back then I had a positive test result at some point for Rheumatoid Arthritis but they said it made no sense with the lack of other test results to back it up.   I just wish I could go to a dr, have them start all over w/ a fresh slate and start again.   Many misdiagnosis’ later and I still feel crappy.  They are still bad days nows(good ones too dont let me mislead you!), more now since I havent been able to exercise lately.    but at the event I attended Tuesday night something I took home w/ me was something a woman said to me while praying over me, once even before I asked her to pray for my health ( and never mentioned what in particular health wise) and that was something like this ” that I’d never miss anything” that whatever opportunity He lay in front of me or whatever He’s called me to , that I’d always be up for it so to speak.   Later after I talked to her and mentioned wanting prayer for my health she mentioned it again, praying that I’d always have the strength to do what was needed of me and more.   I often pray that prayer but sometimes it’s easy to forget when you are in bed writhing in pain….like last night and today….that I’m not missing anything today.   that He’d make a way for me to be where I need to be when He needs or wants me there…and it’s true.    it always has been and always will be.    Todays just a bad day, and theres no where for me to be but here fighting w/ my grouchy kids, no doubt a side effect of my own impatience and pain.    Just another day…I’m not missing anything…and while it may not be great….this is where He wants me TODAY.     Praying for big things TOMORROW!!  🙂