Learning to Trust

There are people in my life that I know I can depend on, no matter the circumstances.  Recently I was told something that will forever change my trust level in one of these people.   I started to and continue to doubt myself.  Were these things happening because I did something? Was it all their fault?  How can I ever trust them again?

I will struggle with these questions for a long time.  Today I don’t feel strong enough to. I know there will be more days, like today, when the doubts try to overcome and cause me to feel weak.  But I also know there will be days like yesterday, when I feel strong enough to face it all.  I know that years from now I will look back at this experience and see that it has changed me, hopefully for the better.

I’ve been betrayed in the past.  I will likely suffer emotional harm from someone in the future. All of these are occasions for me to grow and learn.  It may not be how I want to learn these lessons, but God has a plan for me that is even better than anything I can imagine. I know that out of this pain and heartbreak I will find joy and strength.  In fact, in spite of this pain I will find joy…it just might not be today.