happy birthday to me

I wish I felt happy.   Last night we got some new furniture, that made me momentarily happy.   I am not doing so well healthwise.  I hadnt been doing that great then ran out of my one pain medicine and since we still had no insurance info I was trying to wait it out.  we finally got insurance info on Monday so Dean went to drop off my prescription to get refilled, well as of today the insurance still wont foot  the bill for it and it will cost $186!!   we’re not sure what the problem is with the insurance, I hope to deal with that tomorrow.   I need to find a new dr too, so that’s part of the problem the script is from my dr in Baltimore, hoping thats not holding it up.   So..I havent had that medicine since Monday, I thought the only problem would be the pain but since yesterday I got really sick, thought I might have the flu, but turns out it’s withdraw symptoms from stopping that medicine.  guess when it says dont run out or stop abruptly should be taken seriously.

so dean and I were going to go to dinner tonight but I am still too sick.  Food makes me worse of course and the pain has gotten almost intolerable.   so not sure what the next step is,  I tried to get online to look at drs on our insurance but since I have to use the real computer not the laptop it’s harder w/ the kids.  they keep getting in trouble and the puter is in our room which isnt kid friendly enough for them to play while I look online.   so now Dean and the kiddos went out for dinner leaving me here to rest.   too bad I cant call and schedule a drs appt now, the house is quiet finally!   hoping I get a chance to make calls tomorrow for a dr and about the medicine.

so no updates really, typing hurts my arms and hands, well just sitting does that!   please pray that I feel better soon!   I had being dependent on meds to get by, but the fact is even on the meds I am in pain so I need to see a dr to see what happens next.  I admit I’m depressed.   Being alone here all day and not feeling well will do that to you.    on top of things Dean lost the keys to our car so we have one vehicle til we find them, yup we’re crazy , only have one key for our car no spares at all.   so today Dean had to pick caleb up from school.   it’s always something!

other than me, the kids and hubby are fine.  dean is getting stuck w/ the kids more by himself when he’s home and I feel bad about it, but I dont know what other option there is.   so he’s tired more than usual.   caleb likes school.  bo is getting so smart, and every now and then decides to use real words.  zeke is a little trouble maker in the making, he has two masters to watch so I expect life to be fun in the coming months and years w/ the three boys!!

well it’s been a blah birthday but at least I’m getting time alone and time to write….now time to rest…that’s all I really need/want today…