Theres so much I want to write and I have “thought” out some entries but I just cant make time and energy for it to get here. So today instead i’ll leave you with some images of the good stuff going on in my life that I’m trying to focus on to outweigh all that other junk.  I’ve struggled all morning with pain and being sick but then I remember that it’s been 8 weeks since this little joy came into my life and everytime I hold him I am reminded that he is a blessing that we didnt plan on and that this is all in God’s plan.   I mean I know he didnt make me sick but He knows what comes next and is allowing this so I know it cant be all that bad.   I’ve been wondering if I hadnt been pregnant if I still would have eventually got this sick or if getting pregnant just triggered it to happen sooner.    but I know we didnt plan this child per se, yet here we are with a little miracle.   Maybe God knew he’d be my last chance for another child and wanted me to have him around to remind me of the good things while dealing with the bad, it does help keep me focused to have he and Bo around needing me all day.  more pics in the extended entry.

this little guy keeps me on my toes even when I dont have the strength to get up, he reminds me I need to keep going.

Caleb’s been our big helper and I wish I didnt need his help so often but here he’s off enjoying the playground with his brothers and daddy.

Just like Dean is my better half and strength, Bo and Caleb have a special relationship that only two little brothers can have.

they get to enjoy the upsd and down of life together with the rest of us.

like all good daddy’s should, Dean is always there to provide, whether it’s ice cream or smiles!

there’s one thing you should know about Bo, ok a few things, his two favorite things are food and cars.  Today he put the two together and I didnt realize it til he was napping and I was cleaning up and found this car that he filled with his ritz dinosaur crackers.   He’s asleep and he’s still making me smile!

I love my family and on days like today when I’m truly feeling at my worst, it’s nice to be able to see my boys and know that while today might be hard, there are days ahead filled w/ ice cream, playgrounds trips, and animal filled cars!   I cant wait for better days!