admitting I have a problem…

After I had Boaz and was breastfeeding I ate so badly those first few weeks. I figured it was just a physchological adjustment to being able to eat junk food again so that was the main thing I ate those first few weeks. here I am just about 2 weeks post partum w/ Zeke and if I look back over my day the main thing I’m eating is cookies. I’m craving them like crazy. I never craved anything so badly in my life. I am starting to think since this happened post partum w/ Boaz that this is normal for breastfeeding or something. I’m trying to resist the urge to eat junk but it’s all I feel interested in eating. I made myself eat a salad yesterday because I felt so guilty! I know I have a problem but short of throwing away those yummy cookies, and brownies a friend brought over yesterday, I cant do it. i have no self control. When I was preggo and diabetic I had motivation to not eat badly, now it’s just me that will suffer and while I’m dreading getting on the scale at my drs appt this Friday, I know I’ll at least weigh less than I did 2 weeks ago, and I know nursing uses more calories so really if I am not eating much food just junk I’m probably eating the right amt of calories just not the right kind. I need to fight this urge but this morning so far I’ve had brownies, cookies and an english muffin, not really healthy I know. I need to get out of the house or something. or at least hide the junk food. I am weak, so very weak…..I figure for the weeks/months of dieting and no junk I’m entitled but I still feel so guilty. guilty but ready to grab another cookie……help!