16 days!!

my only thought for today, only 16 days til Baby # 3 is here, at latest!!   the closer it gets the more anxious I become. dont know how I am going to manage the adjustment to a mom to 3 boys!  not to mention 2 in diapers.  I hope God knew what he was doing when he created this little guy when he did.  We thought since it took a few years to concieve both of the first two we had time to take chances, a year of ttc at least, but God had other plans. I dont know if I could have physically handled waiting a few more years, or rather, I dont know if I waited til I was closer to or over 30 if I could have done it, this pregnancy has been hard, new and different challenges than the first two pregnancies had.   and I dont think if I would have waited to being older if I could have done so well managing with all of it.     so I am sure God had his plans, but now that I’m facing having a newborn, a toddler and a preschooler all at once I’m scared out of my mind.  I keep telling myself if others can do it surely so can I.   we’ve done fine adjusting to being parents to one, then 2, almost too easily so I’m praying that this child will blend into our family just as easily!!   but the countdown is  on and  with each passing day I  face new concerns, for now about my health and the baby’s, if I try to worry about what happens after delivery I get way too overwhelmed.  I guess I better start praying now for an easier post partum period than I had with Boaz, I mean the csection was fine to recover from, no big deal.  it’s the other conditions that worry me, and the doctors dont know what to expect other than that I will probably be pretty sick again.   this time though they know what to look for, so in any case I’ll be under more watchful care than sitting at home being sick and miserable for a few months before finally going to the dr to find out just how sick I was!   so much to look forward to, right now my only concern though is that this little guy needs to be ready to come soon and so we better be ready for his arrival!   on that note…off to get some laundry done! 😉