Well my appt was quick and kind of frustrating. Partially because I didnt ask the questions I should have now I’m wondering about a zillion things. Suprisingly it was a dr I hadnt met, which suprised both of us as often as I’d been there and I thought I had seen all of them. Kind of glad I hadnt, she was too brief for my taste, left me feeling like I’d been rushed out the door. Her immediate concern was to find the heartbeat, I mentioned the other day hearing it via ultasound so knew it had to be there. After a painful 10 minutes of her pushing on my stomach, even for a good 5 minutes after I told her how much it was hurting, she asked me if I had been told I had a tilted uterus. i said no but at the first appt and 2 ultrasounds they had a very hard time finding the baby via normal ways but finally after much work found it. She pulled out the u/s report and didnt say if it mentioned it but said it said everything looked good. She said we shouldnt expect to hear the heartbeat in the office w/ doppler until after 12 weeks due to the tilted uterus, guess its’ good I had those ultrasounds or I’d be really worried.
instead of the one cyst I had that showed up 4 weeks ago on ultrasounds I now have two right next to each other. those and the tilted uterus have accounted for a lot of pain lately and I’m glad to know I’m not imagining it. She also is doing tests to check my kidneys because I’ve had a lot of pain in that area this last week, also very painful so we’ll see what comes back. she did remind me that the u/s showed my dates as a week behind. this pregnancy is completely different than my first two, this one complete with it’s own set of annoying problems. i dont know why my kids torture me before they are even born, I dont deserve to have to struggle so much with pregnancies, I wish I was one of those lucky enough to have fast uneventful healthy pregnancies, I’ll keep dreaming. I’ve gained 4 lbs total already, that’s freakin nuts to me, with the other 2 kids I lost all the way up until the third trimester. It’s no wonder I look and feel a few more months pregnant already. I am not thrilled at all with how things are going so far with this pregnancy and I’m not entirely excited about it because of everything. I hate not being happy about things but I just cant seem to get excited about this one. it would help if I didnt feel like my body was giving up on me. some days I am in so much pain in various parts of my body that getting out of bed is hard. I really need to check in with my neurologist but I know if I do it will mean tests and possibly finding out if I do indeed have ms and I’d like to prolong that if I can. but in the mean time the days are getting harder to get through.
the time between Caleb getting home from school and waiting for Dean to get home are the worst part of my day. by then I’m so worn out and miserable that all I want to do is sleep but caleb is always wired; luckily Bo sleeps for most of this stretch of time or I’d be really miserable.
on a good note, my meeting with my pastor went really well. Soon I’ll be the “team lead” for the nursery at church. they are going to go from one main director of sunday school to one for each age group, an idea I thought of a while ago and was excited with the vision he has and the plan for initiating the changes. It’s going to be great and there are going to be a lot of changes. I am excited to be able to be a part of it and only hope I’m physically able to do my part. I’m going to do my best to not give up hope that I can overcome whatever is going on with my body, I just dont look forward to the everyday struggle. well Bo is awake and caleb is driving me nuts, just wanted to update with what happened at my appointment. I’ll try not to whine on here for a few days, but that means little to no updates, sorry!
