As I type I sit here with my two boys in a dog free home. Dean is on his way to drop Stella off at a shelter. I’ve gotten a lot of slack from friends because of course if the dog isnt found a home then she’ll be euthanized. I admit it’s not a nice thing to think about but I know that her continuing to live her was going to kill one of us, I’m sure my blood pressure has been through the roof lately and I’ve had horrible headaches as a result. I’m praying it was just all the craziness in the house and that it will get better now that a big part of that stress is going to be gone. I thought it was just me and that I just couldnt handle it but after seeing and hearing Dean deal with the boys and the dog this morning I know it not just me. Our house had turned into an angry place, we were always yelling at the dog or the boy because of the dog. Dean and I would argue about the dog. Poor Boaz has been stepped upon and pawed at by the dog one too many times, we wont even mention the horrible licking on his mouth that the dog constantly did, yuck! It hasnt been good for any of us. Depsite my fear that Caleb would be an emotional wreck at the news Stella was leaving he now sits here content as can be playing with me. I know it’s early yet and he may start to get sad when he realizes she ‘s gone for good but for now I’ll take this as a comfort that he’ll be ok. He’s a very emotional child but I hope that he knows we are doing this for the best interest of everyone, and knowing that right now he’s young to understand that, I know the best thing we can do for him is to talk it out with him whenever he wants. We’ve been talking about her going away all week so he was prepared in a sense but the true test will come in the next few days.
meanwhile Boaz is laying in his new playpen and he likes it. caleb and I are watching Monsters Inc. We have no plans for the weekend, all I can think to do is clean my house of dog hair for once and for all….sounds fun huh?
