The ultrasound. I was really

The ultrasound. I was really nervous, yet so excited that we might find out if the baby was going to be a Caleb Richard or Brynn Marie. I tried to think about that so I wouldnt worry about anything else. I hated it at first because she kept saying , do you see the hand, the feet and I couldnt see a darn thing, or at least I couldnt make it out on the screen. Dean was so excited and kept telling me where it was on the screen. But eventually I got used to it and it was unbelievably. The best part, for me, I dont think Dean would get this, well cause the baby’s not in him. Well the baby flipped over completely and I almost cried, cause here I am watching on a screen and didnt feel a darn thing in my uterus move. But there the baby was kicking and moving his hands like crazy. It was unreal, like I was watching a baby in someone elses stomach. The tech said she had an idea if it was a boy or girl and I told her not to say if she wasnt sure. So she did this thing to test how much blood was going that part of the body and said you could see the blood flow to the umbilical cord, well I am sure Dean saw the cord but I couldnt distinguish it, I just wanted to know if it was a boy or girl. Then she showed us how there was no blood flow from the cord to a part sticking out between the baby’s legs and sure enough that meant to her it was going to be Caleb Richard McKenzie, just like I’d thought all along. Dean didnt seem to thrilled, I think it is a lot to deal with in one day and I know I was amazed at all we had seen that morning. He had all his fingers and toes and kidneys, and heart, and he was swallowing the fluid the way he should. And his spine was miraculous! Just the way we could see him was miraculous. I thank God for giving someone the skills and wisdom to create such a machine that can help us know that our babies are ok in there. I mean I pray every day for God to protect our little one and to help him grow and develop and for him to be strong, but I do that because I know I cant do anything about it, sure I eat well and rest like I should but in reality it is God creating this life, just with a little help from me every now and then. And well Dean helped in the beginning but now he just gets to wait to see what we get when we mix me with him and a lot of miracles in between.