37 weeks! oh my gosh I cant believe I’m really this far along and that our baby will be here in a week! Is it normal to feel crappy before going into labor because I’m hoping that’s what’s going on w/ my body. All I want to do is sleep but it’s been hard because I cant lay down without getting severely nauseas and/or having an upset stomach. well the upset stomach thing has been going on since Saturday night and is making keeping my sugar levels in range hard. I am pretty sure it’s not a bug just normal for me stomach stuff since it’s not constant and I’m still constantly hungry!
At my check yesterday I still wasnt anywhere closing to going into labor, that’s getting annoying! I feel crampy and have pressure whenever I”m up and about but when I go to the dr they make me lay down and rest and do the stress test and of course everything is normal. I went for a walk with Caleb yesterday hoping it would help move things along if I am indeed in some sort of pre-labor phase, but it only made me more tired and uncomfy! This morning I didnt roll my big belly out of bed til 10:30 since the boys are at preschool, and then only becuase I felt sick again. I am so ready to not be pregnant but I’m also so not ready to have the baby. Does that make any sense??
well my next drs appt is Thursday and I’m hoping that maybe since I’ve hit the full term mark they’ll consider doing something to jump start labor so I can maybe try it before my c-section but I doubt they will! They had said before that if I go into labor fine I can labor but they wont induce labor, dont know if that means they are against membrane stripping or else to increase my chances of a vbac earlier. Sure I’m probably nuts and should be happy it’s only a week away, but I really am afraid of the surgery and the closer it gets the more freaked out I’m getting. Ironically the thing I’m most afraid of right now is the epidural, one too many bad spinal taps, the last one being horrific has made me very frightened of my upcoming epidural. i’d almost prefer being put to sleep but that would mean I would miss out on the chance to meet my baby for the first time. So basically, I’d rather labor w/out meds then have to get an epidural, yep folks, I must be insane! sure they arent all that bad and I did fine w/ calebs but my last few rounds in the hospital w/ needle sticks and spinal taps were truly horrible experiences and I’m not ready yet for another planned entry to the hospital for all the same kind of stuff plus a major abdominal surgery. sure I know I dont have much choice, the kid has to come out somehow and my pelvis is too small for his head so theres really not much I can do. I guess I should be greatful that I’ll be highly drugged and with any luck I’ll get a really good dr to do the epi. So as I sit here waiting the week out all I can do is wait and worry, I know I should be more positive and really I am being much more positive then some people around me about this pregnancy but somehow the knowing what is going to happen in a week is completely screwing with my mind.
well I am going to get a little housework done before the boys get back. I probably wont update again til Friday, my appt is in the afternoon thursday so I probably wont get around to any posting til late Thurs or Friday. or if I”m lucky I’ll be going to deliver the baby then!
have I mentioned how much I really want to decorate for christmas like now??? the other hell of preganncy is nesting and I want to do so much but everytime I do a lot my bp gets high and my body gets all goofy, and the hubby wont concede to help me with the christmas stuff. anyone want to come over and help me spruce up the place for the holidays!?! every other year I’ve pretty much done it myself, but this year theres no way I can so it’s quite disheartening. I also want to get the carpets steam cleaned and well I dont think that’s going to happen either so so much for my grand to do list. it’s not fair that our bodies and minds make us go crazy during pregnancy and makes us crave things we cant have, it’s like the whole world is against us! I mean a little cookies and cream ice cream wont hurt me and the baby right? especially as I watch Dean and Caleb so innocently eat some. Meanwhile I am stuck w/ low carb made w/ splenda ice cream that still made my blood sugars spike which made my dr chew my out yesterday. blah! You should have seen my sugar levels Saturday night after a bonfire where I ate smores, no wonder I was up sick all night! I didnt think much of it, and should have heeded a friends warning that marshmallows are pure sugar but I couldnt help myself. it was sooo good. I’ll be so glad when I can eat normally again or at least not have to watch everyone else eat and can choose to eat snacks or not based on what I want not what I cant have. So this has turned into one great whining entry so I’ll stop boring you.
Also if one more person asks me how many more days when I just told them 2 or 3 days ago I’m going to choke someone! Ok it’s not that bad, but you’d be suprised how people we’ve told over and over again that the c/s is next wed the 24th cant count the days or keep saying that the baby will be here the day after thanksgiving……ok I’m not really that upset about it, just wanted to say that I never felt this way w/ my first pregnancy. but Dean and I decided last night that its because we didnt have as many friends around that we see several times a week to keep asking us about the baby. I dont mind it really, it was just after an uneventful appt yesterday the last thing I wanted to talk about was how I could go into labor any time now when I know darn well the chances of that happening are slim to none. but while it’s a little annoying to keep talking about it, it’s also neat to see how excited all of our friends are for us and the baby. that’s something I dont remember at all the first time. sure people were excited about Caleb but there are friends we have now who I know are just as excited about Baby B being here next week as I am, I cant say I remember having as many friends waiting so expectantly with us with Caleb. so it’s cool but also a little annoying, I mean be excited for us and all cause it helps me stay excited just dont drive me nuts, well at this point I think everything is driving me nuts so nevermind. just keep asking how I am and I’ll indulge you because one day I’ll have the chance to bother you too! so the countdown is down to single digits and the nursery is finally complete, minus a few things, say curtains would be nice and we should have them ready soon, but other than that we’re good to go and are in full waiting for baby mode.
speaking of babies, I hear Dabrettman is expecting his this morning, which came as a complete suprise to me since I dont ever remember reading that his wife was expecting, dude how can you go months without mentioning it??? then I thought about it and Dean doesnt really write about it either, men. we get to do all the hard work or pregnancy and all they do is get the fun first 5 or 10 minutes of creating the kid. well that and financially support us of course! well congrats brett and make sure you post pics or something vaguely mentioning details.
