My sugar readings have been very high lately, higher today than since I started keeping track of it. I am really worried about how this will affect Kiddo and was getting very concerned about how I’ve been feeling, shaky and dizzy lately. Not to mention Kiddo wasn’t very active at all for most of the day. But since I’ve been home from work I’ve done nothing but lay around and watch tv. And the whole evening he has spent entertaining me! I could sit and watch him move all day long, if he would. Several times he moved so much that I lost my breath, or at least that is what it felt like. So I felt much better as the evening went on, but I still worry about how my high sugar will affect him. I cant wait til Thursday when we go for our ultrasound, I am both anxious yet worried about it. I worry that we may find out there is a problem yet anxious to see how big Kiddo is, which in itself may end up being a problem.
Dean’s been at rehearsal all night, and I’ve had to fight more than once to keep myself from calling his cell phone to tell him how much fun Kiddo was having. He would have loved to watch Kiddo playing. Usually Dean cant see him move because it is so sporatic that Dean could sit there for 15 minutes staring at my belly and see no movement yet all evening I sat and watched him! I think Kiddo knows when his Daddy is around. Lately if Dean talks to him or touches my belly he moves towards or kicks at him. I find that adorable. It’s like hey Daddy here I am !!
We have a prenatal baby listener, and we usually try to see if we can hear Kiddo’s heart beat. So last night, Dean was reading and I made him put on the headphones so he could listen too just in case I found anything worthwhile and sure enough for the first time, since hearing Kiddo’s heart beat at the drs office, we got to hear Kiddo’s strong heart beat with our monitor at home. It was amazing. At first I wasnt sure it was really Kiddo’s heartbeat, then we listened for a while and it really was! It was the greatest thing. I mean we’d heard it before at the drs but sitting in bed cuddling and listening to Kiddo’s heart was just amazing. I am looking so forward to holding our baby in our arms, even if the thought still scares me, but I cant help but wonder what our child will look like. All I know is that no matter how sick I have been and how much pain I may be in sometimes, it is all worth it to know that living in me is a life Dean and I created, with God’s master design and help of course.
