Today at work a patient came in for an appt with her baby. He was so tiny, so of course we all wanted to see him and ask questions. Apparently he was 2 weeks old and weighed only 5 lbs 9 ounces. I asked if he was a premie and she said he came 8 weeks early, ok , folks that is like me having our baby anytime this week! He was 4 lbs 19 ounces when he was born. She had had a drs appt that morning and they did an exam and told her she was 7 1/2 centimeters dialated and needed to go to the hospital. She’d had no contractions and no pain. She said that morning she woke up with pressure in her pelvis and her hips hurt her but that was all.
She barely made it to the hospital and he was out of her in no time. I was somewhat jealous but all day long I keep thinking that I could have Kiddo at any given moment, or it could be another 9 or 10 weeks. Who knows. I asked the girl if she had had any problems or if she was high risk and she said she had a completely normal pregnancy. Which scared me even more since I am in such a high risk category right now.
So all day I have worried and pondered, am I really ready? As if it makes a difference cause once Kiddo decides to come I think he will do it his way not mine. I only hope it is as easy as her labor, but I realize that is absurb, I mean how hard is it to push out a baby less than 5 lbs. Oh well. But seeing her baby gave me hope that even if Kiddo comes early he will more than likely be just fine and as healthy as can be.
I see Dean has been talking and thinking babies today too, which is funny cause sometimes I wonder if he even realizes soon we will have one. And I told him a little bit ago, after relaying this same story to him, that at any given moment or upcoming day we could be in labor and life will change forever. Okay, I am really getting scared. To top it all off I registered us for a one day childbirth class on July 8th, and I kept joking that if I didnt schedule it soon the baby might come before we even go to class for it, and well it could still happen, hopefully though, and I dont see Kiddo arriving anytime before then, we will at least make it that far. But I dont know, this heat today is getting to me, so I cant imagine how it will be when I get bigger.
At work we were scrub like uniforms and nurses shoes and a week ago I asked if I could wear maternity clothes instead and they were fine with it. Then today I asked if I could wear different shoes, preferably my sandals and my boss laughed and said,”what are your feet swollen now too!” I said yes and she just kept laughing. Apparently no other pregnant employee has ever cared and well just wore what they wanted. But I didnt want to show up in comfy clothes and sandals, even if I do still dress professionally mostly , and then get in trouble for it. Today I wore a comfy dress and comfy shoes and all the girls at work asked me why I was dressed up. I laughed and said these are my comfy clothes. I’d rather wear dresses anyday and especially lose fitting ones , much better than drawstring waist pants. And they all said they’d rather wear pants or shorts, but I was happy to be able to sport my summer dresses and now sandals too! I’ll probably look more professional then everyone in the office though becuase they all wear pants and it will seem like I am the only one dressed up but the drs do dress up mostly, but not always.
One of the drs in our office is pregnant and due a month after me and today the nurses told me she is definitely bigger than I am by a lot and they cant believe she is due a month after me. That made me feel good. I felt good today because I realized you can only tell I am pregnant when you see my belly. If I am turned with my back to you you cant even tell since the only weight I have gained is baby weight it is all centralized in a big bulge on my belly. So I didnt feel too bad about it today, I guess knowing that I am not too huge yet helps, but I know that soon I will probably put on a lot more weight and quickly.
