Today at work the girls were talking about when they were pregnant. It started by them once again telling me how big I am getting. They repeatedly say, you sure are getting big all of the sudden. So today they were getting on me about it and asked what the name was we picked out, even though I have told them several times, and I told them that for now I just refer to him as Kiddo, and it’s mostly “hey kiddo, stop kicking me!” So they all started telling me about the times when their babies would get settled up against their ribs and stay there. And then Linda said one time the baby stretched out completely and her whole belly flattened. And I just sat their thinking, one day I will be able to tell stories like that too. But for now the baby is still kicking me and staying low, below or at the area around my belly button.
So tonight as I was sitting down to rest after touching up the paint on the bathroom, I noticed a strange feeling. It was like my whole stomach flipped or something, but this time it was higher up, above my bellow button. So I thought maybe it was just my imagination because I hadn’t felt him move up but apparently that huge flip I felt was him moving up further. So for the next 15 minutes I watched my stomach move and jump all sorts of ways. But this time it was in a different spot, and since it was higher up I just sat there watching and being amazed at how different the kicks and moves felt from when he had been lower. And I almost cried. It was so strange how just earlier I was thinking that maybe he should be moving up higher soon and sure enough tonight he did. I mean my mid section has gotten huge lately and I was so worried because I was getting fat there and the baby wasn’t even occupying that space. But now, all that room is being taken up by Kiddo. So I dont feel so bad. I can’t help but wonder maybe if before maybe his legs were just lower and now his head is down or something. Who knows. I think about it too much. But the sensations were so new and exciting this evening. I was tempted to call Dean on the directors cell phone to share with him this news seeing as I know he will take great delight in watching the baby move this evening.
Yesterday Dean had read online that right about now the baby can detect light changes. And it said that if you shine a flashlight on your belly you can see/feel the baby move towards or look at the light. So of course Dean wanted to see. So sure enough last night he gets out the light, turns off the lights, and plays with Kiddo. And wouldnt you know it, Kiddo actually kicked and you could see my belly shift as he moved about when Dean shone the light towards him. Dean got such a kick out of it, and well I literally did too! I think it helps him know the baby is really there when he sees my belly move like that. For me it is just awesome until I start to think about the fact that Kiddo will shortly be out of me which scares me because I dont just know how that is going to go, the whole delivery thing, and well I’d rather just not think about it. I guess my theory is, it has to happen sometime so why worry about. It is kind of like knowing you have to go to the dentist to get a cleaning and you know how awful it will be but you know you have to so you just deal with it. Or like knowing you will have to get out of bed every morning to go to work so why worry about it, just do it. Or like when I knew I had to go take the glucose test, I knew I had to do it, so why worry about it or fret over it, it was going to happen and whether I liked it or not it did. Okay, having a baby is a lot different than those things, but the point is, one day I will have to have this baby and whether or not I am ready or know what to do, it is going to happen. I am just glad I get to enjoy these times with Kiddo just watching him move about in there!
