having a hard time reading

Posted on 8/5/2003 by amy_mck

having a hard time reading others blog right now and not wanting to participate in my own as there are so many moms out there w/ kids calebs age who are pregnant as well. my heart has been broken time and time again over the last few months of ttc and I just am having trouble coping. So it will no doubt be quiet in the next week as we see if this month was another failure. In other news, calebs big birthday bash is saturday and I’m doing my best not to stress over it. Big mess w/ the family harboring old pains so looks like it will be mostly friends and my parents. Last year we had the whole family, all sides, it was the first time some of them had been together in a long time. I guess they hadnt gotten over having to have dealt w/ it then and dont want to this year. I was stressed over that but now am deciding that its is their choice if they dont want to participate in my sons life. But it still hurts. Blah. I feel blah the weather is blah I just want to curl into bed and cry……….

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3 Responses to having a hard time reading

  1. Paula says:
    8/5/2003 at 3:35 pm

    Hey, Amy–

    I saw you at the “Milkshake” concert today and I wanted to say hi but you were gone! I met you last year at Artscape–my husband Sean is friends with Dean. Sean’s blog is Falling Anvil. I’m the one who gave Caleb the smile stick! My little girl Zoe (shaking her stuff in the floral tankdress) is 2 1/2. I’m at home, too. Come on out and play and I’ll introduce you to more moms! I know it keeps ME from feeling depressed.

  2. Dana says:
    8/6/2003 at 8:06 am

    Sorry to hear you’re feeling down. I know how discouraging to see everyone else around you having babies. We’re not officially TTC, but we wouldn’t be disappointed if I did show up pregnant.

    God’s timing is best. Of course, remind me of that in a few weeks. I’ll need it 🙂

  3. Amy says:
    8/6/2003 at 5:10 pm

    ((hugs))

    Isn’t it exciting that our little boys will be turning two this Sunday? I can’t believe how quickly time has gone by!