It’s monday. My body tells

It’s monday. My body tells me it’s Monday. Tired, torn and ragged. Isnt the weekend supposed to refresh you? the last two weekends we’ve done little but hang out around the house. This weekend we worked a lot on the house though, Dean even cleaned til aobut 1 am on Friday so I wouldnt have to stress all weekend, meanwhile I slept peacefully! Poor guy. I didnt ask him to clean, but I did argue w/ him about feeling horrible because I havent felt well enough to. I awoke w/ a severe headache this morning. It’s come and gone all day. I called out of work. I’ve spent the day cuddling and playing with my son, preparing him for a day or two when I wont be able to interact with him much. Tomorrow is my spinal tap.

We’re aiming to having everything ready as far as house preparations and grocery shopping by tonight or the latest tomorrow before my test. Things are going smoothly. The house looks good. I washed up the china and the table cloth today. but mostly today I’ve been enjoying the little things. The hugs, the kisses and being able to hold my son and read to him, and having him sit through a book not squirm away. All weekend I’ve tried to give him more attention, attention I’ve been lax in giving lately because I always feel horrible. It’s almost 60 outside so despite my nagging headache and spots in my eyes I walked him to the park to play. He walked half way back home like a big boy then I had to put him back his stroller for fear it would take hours to get home at that pace. My plan worked well, he’s enjoying nap two which with any luck will last until it’s time to leave to pick up Dean from work. I was planning on napping as well, but thought I’d write a little then prepare a meatloaf for dinner.

I think the main cause of my feeling so bad today, headache, naseaus, and stomach ache is from having to stop the birth control. I was in week 3 of the pills and now I’m all off whack. i was fine the first two days w/out pills but now I feel horrible. I havent gotten my blood test results back yet so I dont know if these symptoms are old or if they are from stopping the pill. Tomorrow the big day, afterward we should have some more solid news. If the test is normal we’re back to square one, if the pressure in my brain fluid is high then it’s on to treatment for that. All I know is I cant wait to get this all resolved so I can feel better.

Hopefully we’ll have lots of good news to be thankful for this week, if not, at least having the precious time with my family is worth thanksgiving enough!