Intrigued another new dr today by showing her my medical history. Wish I’d do that with a doctor who could actually look at it and not get all excited about having a rarity sitting in front of her, and treat me like a person who has all of those conditions and takes all of those meds and maybe needs their help! Needless to say, she eventually woke up from her shock and did just that!
At least for once,a new diagnosis is being treated and they are hopeful the results will be life changing. This time, I got to be in the drivers seat and make a difference for myself. Guess who told who what the diagnosis was? That’s right, after a lifetime of putting up with crazy illnesses, pain, (physical, emotional, mental and always life altering) and keeping track of how I felt and micro managing it all as best I could, I went to the doctor and said hey I think this is what’s wrong, they looked at my history, my test results and say hm-mm I think you might be right. For once they listen to the patient, and immediately started treatment.
Today I got news that if this med works I could ultimately feel the best I ever have, AND there could be hope for my kids too. Knowing what conditions you have always makes it easier to diagnosis hereditary conditions, especially when you are trying to figure out why your kids are acting the way they are. I’m a little more hopeful today, for a lot of reasons.
I believe in God and I know He can heal, physically and spiritually. For whatever reason, despite our prayers, this is something I’m suffering from and have been for a while. It’s something I believe our family has suffered for for a long time, but no one took the time to pay attention to because they were afraid of what it might mean if they did. I’m willing to wear a label to save my kids from growing up without one, if I can. I believe God gave us doctors and medicine for a reason, just like He has the power to heal without them, sometimes He uses other measures as well. Sometimes though, the biggest healing comes through our being willing to accept there is a problem to begin with. I’ve walked through that door, and already feel better about what’s on the other side. Hoping my steps to freedom not only save me and my household, but maybe frees our whole family from the generational curses that have been plaguing us for years. So much pain has been brewing in angry and sad hearts for too long, and maybe it’s time to realize it’s time to be free of it, even if it means admitting you can’t do it on your own. I serve a living, loving, freeing God and He wants me to be happy and not held down by anger and fear, I’m choosing to set my household free; what will you choose?
Joshua 24:15
“But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.â€
