Last night was dinner with my dad and his “friend.” Apparently as he told my husband, he keeps a few women at a time but they all know about each other. Yeah he’s definitly Jerry Springer material, but heck, he’s still my dad and I keep praying some of our decency rubs off on him, but I am not so sure thats even possible. So I was expecting his “friend” to have some major issues and well to not be so decent looking. No, she’s not beautiful but she’s definitely not what I was expecting, I was prepared for some missing teeth and frazzled hair, but what I got was a very well put together young lady with very well manicured nails, that and lets not forget to mention 8, and 6 year old daughters with another due in 2 months and we wont even discuss the paternity issues with that one. So we go to a great restaurant where I have the best salmon I’ve ever tasted and afterward we went for ice cream. It was the most pleasing evening I’ve ever had out with my dad, things are definitely changing with him, yet he’s no saint yet by any means, but theres a noticeable amount of changes that are more positive than not. But I wasnt expecting much anyway, the very fact he’s being so persistent in keeping in touch and wanting to see us and the baby is breakthrough enough for me, hey, I know it’s all answered prayer I’ll just need to keep praying for all the other major issues he’s got going on. For me its enough right now to know and see his love for his grandson, I never thought he’d have a relationship with Caleb and the prospects of it are amazing, even if he isnt the greatest role model out there. Like I said, he’s still my dad, and for some crazy reason I am determined to keep loving him and praying for him despite our past, if anything for the chance of Caleb knowing his grandad.
While we were out last night, Stacey was out on her second date. Since high school I’ve never met any of the guys she’s talked about hooking up with. I was excited for her when she said she met a guy. But it doesnt seem like we’ll be meeting him anytime soon. Apparently she feels he’s not worthy yet of meeting us. Meanwhile I feel somewhat jilted by the fact she wont let us meet the guy. I guess I was just getting anxious for her to find a nice guy and am being selfish cause I want to see for myself this guy she is drooling over. But something about it bothers me, I’m afraid maybe she’s worried about us meeting him for some reason. I am definitely not one to judge anyway and we’re very accepting of people, even strangers. I cant help but worry that it’s got something to do with us being Christians, that maybe she wants to make sure it’s okay for him to go out with us or something. Who knows. I guess I am just thinking about it too hard, like I said I just want to meet the guy. I hate just talking about him and not having a face to put to the name. I want so much for her to find the kind of happiness Dean & I have together. She deserves someone great and heck I dont want her wasting her time on someone who cant offer her the world on a gold patter….nah, just kidding there. I am sure she can take care of herself just fine, but it sure is nice to have someone special to come home to at the end of the day….speaking of which……Dean’s car broke down on Tuesday night so he has been taking my car thus leaving me stranded at home with the baby. And I must say the last few nights when he gets home I feel like I’ve never been happier to see him. I think it’s partly not having an adult conversation all day, that and I’m so used to him being closer, being able to visit him at lunch time or even enjoying a drive in to work together. He’s such a great daddy and I wish he had more time to spend at home, I am so looking forward to the weekend so we can spend some quality time together , maybe even go out without the baby if we can manage it. But I enjoy our nights out with Caleb too, to be able to share the responsibility of caring for him and especially to have other people see how great of a daddy he is. Speaking of Dean and Caleb, right now they are both cuddling in bed and I am longing to go join them………….
