I survived my first trip to walmart with Zeke and Bo by myself. It wasnt so bad, if I had needed more things I couldnt have pulled it off. I sat Bo in front of the cart, placed Zeke in his carseat in the back of the cart and put all the stuff I bought under the cart. It was an experience that’s for sure.

I think Caleb is getting sick. this morning he said his throat hurt but seemed otherwise ok. he’s home now and is just laying on the sofa complaining of a bad headache. I’m praying it’s not strep, this is how it started last time. I think he is falling asleep…that would be nice I suppose except if he’s sick that means I’d have to keep him home tomorrow and I’m not ready to have all 3 kids all day all by myself. Ugh…I really dont know how I’m going to manage having 3 kids, I think if I felt better I’d be fine, and realistically I’m doing ok, really tired and feel crappy but the kids are cared for, the house is clean as is the laundry, so I’m keeping up, but just feeling bad in the process. Dean and I both have drs appt this Thursday afternoon and didnt mean to plan them for the same time, I am going to have to cancel my appt since theres just not going to be a way to pull it off with the kids and having to get caleb from school. It’s such a pain, needing help so often, I just want things to be easier and to not have to rely on others so much. I’ve got two appts myself the following thursday, neither that I can afford to miss so I figured I’d worry about sitters for those appointments and worry about seeing the endocronologist some other time, when I dont know, but this week just isnt going to work.

well I better go find out if Caleb has a fever and get ready to feed Zeke. it’s a beautiful day and its sad we’re sitting inside, at least I know Caleb played outside while at school so he got to enjoy the nice weather some.

ugh….calebs temp is 101………….