the under 10 weeks countdown …..

and the stress that goes with it!!  I hate this feeling that nothing will ever be ready for the baby, that theres just not enough room for 3 kids , but know full well there is.  I really just need to start throwing toys away but I keep thinking that one day Bo will play w/ them and then baby # 3 too.   i’ve thrown out a lot lately but it still doesnt seem like enough!  Dean’s worked 20 some hours since gettitng home from his regular job on Friday afternoon.   I went to my brothers on the shore for most of Saturday, getting home in time to let the boys see Dean briefly before putting them to bed.   As usual I cant sleep well with Dean gone at night, right before he got home mid morning Bo woke me up, shortly after I finally got comfy and asleep.

I let Dean sleep until it was time to get ready for church, I had to go take care of nursery staff issues or else we would have all stayed home.   While letting Dean sleep I started working more in Calebs room to make room for the crib and then once Bo is a little bigger the toddler bed.    A friend gave us some more cool dino stuff for the room and I went out today to get some new letters that match Calebs to add Bo’s name to the wall above where his bed will go as well as a few more wood dinos to paint to add to that now empty wall.    At least the baby room doesnt need any work, we’ll eventually get letters for baby boy # 3’s wall as well but we have to pick a name first!!!    I’m determined to get the crib for Bo into Calebs room but we’ve barely been home all day and theres a meeting at church at 5 so I doubt we’ll get anything else done.  I’ve gotten a lot done and if I can get Dean to bring the crib parts up I’ll try to assemble it tomorrow I guess.  I’m afraid once my weekly ultrasounds and stress tests start that something will go wrong and I’ll end up in the hospital sooner than we expect.  It only happened a few times w/ Bo, tests didnt go well and they’d send me to labor and delivery.   Those twice weekly tests will start soon since I’m on insulin now, so the chance of being sent to L&D anytime for any reason is always a possibility and this time I want to be as prepared as I can be in case something comes up.    But that means a lot needs done still and with my lack of energy and ability to do much w/out being in pain or having contractions it leaves little room for getting much done.   I’m only sitting here writing now because I’m so physically drained I needed to take a short break from my nesting madness.   Dean’s tired from working all weekend and I’m driving him nuts and he me!!!   Gotta love this stage of pregnancy!