1-25-06

I dont have much to say today, but am bored.   I have lots to do today but I cant get myself going, although I was up and out to take Dean to work.  Bo woke up early so we were all up so in an attempt to get Dean to work on time for once since his carpool ride always gets him there late, we all got up and out this morning.    My back is hurting badly and I’m tired.  My sugar levels are off this morning again eventhough I raised my insulin dose some.  I need to email my dr my levels to see what he thinks.  He told me to only raise the insulin every 3 days so since I raised it once already I dont know if he’ll want me to wait or not to do it again.

I have  a big to do list today but I just dont want to do anything.  I think I need a break, I wish we could take a family vacation or something things just seem blah.     Dean’s working his second job this weekend so he wont be around much at all til after Sunday morning.  I’m already dreading the weekend because of that.   we need the money though so it’s a needed sacrifice.   I still am in shock than in 10 weeks we’ll have another baby.   It’s getting scary the more I think about it.  We have an extra crib and a toddler bed but I dont know when we should start arranging furniture or how to even since the baby will be in our room for awhile.  My biggest fear if we dont move Bo out of his room before the baby comes then it will be harder on him when his room goes to the baby.   Dean of course thinks all of that can wait but I’m so scared waiting to transition him out of his room will make life harder on us since we’ll have to deal with that on top of new baby stuff.    At least Bo is sleeping through the night now so him sleeping in Calebs room shouldnt affect Caleb’s sleep, now gettting them both to sleep might be hard.    So much fun stuff to look forward to.  Well I need to get my lazy self going, I was doing good but it seems once I sit down then it’s all downhill as far as productivity and motivation.    Hope everyone is having a good week!