Not quite sure where to start. It’s been a little while since I’ve blogged and every day I sit here and think about the things I need to write out for you but I just cant force myself to abandon a house-full of chores and a kid to do so. So here I am finally deciding to do it since the house is semi clean, the laundry is doing itself at the moment, and Caleb is napping.
After a last minute decision at 3:00pm on Thursday July 3rd we packed up and headed out to Ohio for the long weekend. The drive took forever, coming and going. Caleb has started getting car sick on long trips so that didnt help at all. Then once there he had 3 serious falls to the head after which he spent a lot of time throwing up, he no doubt had/has a concussion but no one but me was concerned enough so we didnt take him to the er just kept cleaning up throw up all night! He’s doing much better now that he is home and is even taking a lengthy nap for me now. We went swimming a lot which is one of Caleb’s favorite things to do. We got to get together w/ some old friends who have had babies since we’ve left. I cried when we left them. I was just getting very close to them when we were getting ready to move and now that we are all mothers it would be great to be closer to them so the kids could grow up together as friends too. The last few times we went to visit they were both out of town so we didnt see them, so it worked out great this time that we could get together. Going back always make me play the what if game and thats so hard emotionally. Especially when I come back here to such uncertainities about our finances and having to go to work. There I know I could get a job to fill the hours I want and that they would work w/ me but here I am lost. The job market here sucks as does the pay scale. but we will survive, another month has passed and the bills got paid albiet at the very last minute!
In a month Caleb will turn 2 and I’ve yet to plan or even decide how big a party we will have for him. We are not financially able to throw a bash like we did last year but I want to have everyone that can be, be here. I am devoting this week to thinking that one through. Speaking of birthdays, today is my sister in law’s birthday, happy birthday Amy!! (yes both of us are named Amy)
I’m a bit on the down side today so I wont bore you with more emotions but I hope to be writing more if Caleb can stick to a good nap schedule!!
