How is it that people always know the wrong time to call? I woke up bright and early this morning to take Dean to work since we had left his truck at his work last night when I picked him up to go to the hospital. So I came home completely exhausted again, and climbed back into bed. So a few minutes ago, as I was so soundly and comfortably sleeping, which rarely happens anymore, the phone rings. First it was my mom, her daily check on me, and she fussed that I need to call my ob to see if I need to go in before Thursday, I fussed back then got off the phone in hopes of going back to sleep. Well as I was dozing back to sleep my mother in law called, by this point I was pretty awake so I agreed to go shopping with her.
I started writing this earlier, but just got back from shopping so…I went shopping with my mother in law and she got us some outfits for Caleb and the stroller we picked out! Wohoo! Now the only thing I really want/need is a diaper genie. Okay we probably dont need it, as Dean says use a trash can, but I really want one, so maybe we will just go get it anyway. While shopping I got the cutest hat, for me of course, it was on sale and I just had to have it! I used to wear hats often but I guess my head grew as I got older and I gave my old ones to my neices, so when I saw ones on sale today I just had to get one. We also went to the chinese buffet for lunch, and we picked up Dean so he got to go with us. It was quite a fun morning/early afternoon. Now I am ready for another nap! And hopefully no one will call to wake me up. I have noticed since I have been on bedrest that we get at least 5 sales calls a day, but I’ve learned not to answer the phone if it says unknown name/number on the caller id, but you better believe me if another one of those calls wakes me from a nap……well I just wont answer it!
I am so glad to have gotten out today though, I know I am supposed to be in bed, and we even rented some movies for me to lounge and watch today, but I hate being stuck inside, especially when the sun is out and it looks to be such a nice day. And with any luck the walking around the stores may help my cervix start to do something! I am hoping at my appt on Thursday to find out that it is doing something, it would be nice if Caleb came on his own, but he only has a few more days before they decide when they are going to evict him. Come on kiddo, I keep telling him we have lots of cool toys out here for him but I dont think he cares. I think he knows that he has it pretty good where he is now, I mean come on, he doesnt have to do anything but eat and sleep now, once he is out he will have to smile and play and cuddle with mom and dad and dont forget he’ll have to have baths and get his diaper changed. He’s got it pretty good, but mommy on the other hand is ready to have her body back and I was eyeing up some great deals on clothes today but knew better than to get anything because I am sure my size is going to change here in a few weeks, and the thought of being able to buy clothes again! I am so excited! Even more excited about that then I was when I was looking at baby clothes today. Okay, I know it is selfish, but I really am ready to get back to some normalcy here, so come on kid, I’ve been holding on for long enough……I hear my feelings are quite normal for this stage of my pregnancy but I cant help but feel selfish for wanting my body back, but more than anything I think it is knowing it’s just a matter of time and I cant do anything to control how much or how little time left there is. I have enjoyed my pregnancy despite the tough times there have been, even yesterday when I got to hear his little heart beat and feel his kicks it made the miserable parts of the day seem to melt away. But then realizing we wouldnt get to hold Caleb yet made it hard too! So who knows, I wish there was a book to tell you how you are supposed to feel or that even told you that what you are feeling is normal, but no that’s what friends and family are for, to help us cope and encourage us, and thanks for everyone out there who has been there for us during these rough couple of months!
Well folks, bedrest bekons me to return, so have a good day!
