I must admit I have had the worst day today, and I am not even in labor. I went to the drs office around 11:30, my blood pressure was very high so they had me rest on my left side, checked it again and it was still high. Rest some more. And yet again, another high reading. So what do they do? They send me home to rest! Apparently there were no drs in the office, a fact they failed to tell me when I called to tell them I was coming in for my blood pressure check. They said they would check with the dr due in at 2, so here it was shortly after 12 and I had 2 hours to wait! So I headed home, completely exhausted, it was a 45 min drive to the drs office! So arond 1:30 I get a call, they want me back at the drs office! They wanted to do a non stress test on Caleb. I opted to have it done at the hospital which is the same distance away just in case they decided to keep me, figured it be silly to go 45 mins. to the drs office then another 30 minutes to the hospital if the need arose.

So I picked Dean up from work and we had our first non stress test. Caleb did well and my blood pressure wasnt nearly as high as it had been that morning so about the time we finished up there it was 4:30. the nurse their tried to call my ob to give them the test results but they turn their phones off at 4:30! So she checked with the specialist who saw no reason to detain me so they sent us home. After a whole day of being dragged back and forth I did not talk to or see an actual dr once. I am quite upset and feel awful.

So we are assuming there is no immediate need for delivery despite my nagging headaches and blurred vision, which is no doubt from the high blood pressure. We don’t know anything really except that there will be no Caleb today. I am just concerned about my own health I guess, it cant be good to have my bp this high, especially when I am having symptoms and not just a high reading. So I am sorry I didnt write earlier. It seems like the whole world, okay my family and some friends, called to check on me today since we all thought we’d be having a baby soon, and despite what I was told, that if my pressure was up there would be a baby soon, there isn’t going to be. I guess that is the frustrating part. On Thursday my dr said to come in today for a bp check and if it was high they’d do something for my health concerns and if my bp was fine they’d wait to see how Caleb did on his u/s on Wednesday and then if nothing we’d see how I was doing on Thursday. But my bp was high today, and much higher than it’s been yet they did nothing. And the really frustrating thing is my dr was not in the office today, yet he told me to come today, and the dr who was in made the decision to not do anything, and I’ve only seen him once so I dont know if he even understands how high risk our pregnancy has been. My mom said I should call and ask to have my ob call me but it’s probably no use seeing as they’d probably just have me come in tomorrow and I am so upset I dont really want to have to go back yet. So that is how my day has been.

And on top of all that I am extremely moody, my poor hubby is getting verbally abused all of the time and I dont know how he is putting up with me. He is constantly going out of his way to try to comfort me but I am so moody and feel so miserable most of the time that I just want to be left alone. I havent been mean just crabby I guess. I know it must be driving him nuts. I keep crying all of the time too. That and I keep getting headaches and the shakes, so yesterday I dropped 3 trays of ice cubes and burst into tears and stormed out of the room leaving him behind to clean up. Today I dropped quite a few things but didnt make nearly as big a mess, and he wasnt home. I cant help but wonder if I should talk to my ob about how I am feeling but after today I doubt they would care. I will just be so happy when this is all over. Two more weeks, if that.

The good thing about having the non stress test today was the nurse said I was having contractions, I couldnt tell the difference between them and Caleb’s usual movements so I had no clue, but the test measures uterine contractions to see how the baby responds to them and apparently I had a few while we were there, which gives me hope that maybe Caleb will decide to come on his own shortly. If we would only be so lucky.

Sorry for not updating sooner, I am just not in the mood to say much because every time I start to talk about today and this pregnancy I get all upset, dumb pregnancy hormones!

I must admit I have had the worst day today, and I am not even in labor. I went to the drs office around 11:30, my blood pressure was very high so they had me rest on my left side, checked it again and it was still high. Rest some more. And yet again, another high reading. So what do they do? They send me home to rest! Apparently there were no drs in the office, a fact they failed to tell me when I called to tell them I was coming in for my blood pressure check. They said they would check with the dr due in at 2, so here it was shortly after 12 and I had 2 hours to wait! So I headed home, completely exhausted, it was a 45 min drive to the drs office! So arond 1:30 I get a call, they want me back at the drs office! They wanted to do a non stress test on Caleb. I opted to have it done at the hospital which is the same distance away just in case they decided to keep me, figured it be silly to go 45 mins. to the drs office then another 30 minutes to the hospital if the need arose.

So I picked Dean up from work and we had our first non stress test. Caleb did well and my blood pressure wasnt nearly as high as it had been that morning so about the time we finished up there it was 4:30. the nurse their tried to call my ob to give them the test results but they turn their phones off at 4:30! So she checked with the specialist who saw no reason to detain me so they sent us home. After a whole day of being dragged back and forth I did not talk to or see an actual dr once. I am quite upset and feel awful.

So we are assuming there is no immediate need for delivery despite my nagging headaches and blurred vision, which is no doubt from the high blood pressure. We don’t know anything really except that there will be no Caleb today. I am just concerned about my own health I guess, it cant be good to have my bp this high, especially when I am having symptoms and not just a high reading. So I am sorry I didnt write earlier. It seems like the whole world, okay my family and some friends, called to check on me today since we all thought we’d be having a baby soon, and despite what I was told, that if my pressure was up there would be a baby soon, there isn’t going to be. I guess that is the frustrating part. On Thursday my dr said to come in today for a bp check and if it was high they’d do something for my health concerns and if my bp was fine they’d wait to see how Caleb did on his u/s on Wednesday and then if nothing we’d see how I was doing on Thursday. But my bp was high today, and much higher than it’s been yet they did nothing. And the really frustrating thing is my dr was not in the office today, yet he told me to come today, and the dr who was in made the decision to not do anything, and I’ve only seen him once so I dont know if he even understands how high risk our pregnancy has been. My mom said I should call and ask to have my ob call me but it’s probably no use seeing as they’d probably just have me come in tomorrow and I am so upset I dont really want to have to go back yet. So that is how my day has been.

And on top of all that I am extremely moody, my poor hubby is getting verbally abused all of the time and I dont know how he is putting up with me. He is constantly going out of his way to try to comfort me but I am so moody and feel so miserable most of the time that I just want to be left alone. I havent been mean just crabby I guess. I know it must be driving him nuts. I keep crying all of the time too. That and I keep getting headaches and the shakes, so yesterday I dropped 3 trays of ice cubes and burst into tears and stormed out of the room leaving him behind to clean up. Today I dropped quite a few things but didnt make nearly as big a mess, and he wasnt home. I cant help but wonder if I should talk to my ob about how I am feeling but after today I doubt they would care. I will just be so happy when this is all over. Two more weeks, if that.

The good thing about having the non stress test today was the nurse said I was having contractions, I couldnt tell the difference between them and Caleb’s usual movements so I had no clue, but the test measures uterine contractions to see how the baby responds to them and apparently I had a few while we were there, which gives me hope that maybe Caleb will decide to come on his own shortly. If we would only be so lucky.

Sorry for not updating sooner, I am just not in the mood to say much because every time I start to talk about today and this pregnancy I get all upset, dumb pregnancy hormones!