Wisdom from my walk

3 boys, all three w/ ear problems, oddly enough all three have more problems w/ their left ear than their right, two out of three had hearing loss due to ear infections/fluid, (zeke was the only one w/ ok hearing, but guessing that’s becuase he’s younger and had less time to have infections than the other two)   Waiting to get the date set for Bo and Calebs surgeries, Zeke’s appt is fast approaching, he goes Monday for his tubes.   3 kids  x 200 copay for surgery = $600…blah….hoping in the long run it means less infections in turn less antibiotics and drs appt so hopefully making the $200 worth it,  hoping all three boys do ok w/ the experience of their first surgery, hoping I survive it too!  😉

we had so much fun at Kings Island yesterday! in the morning I took the boys w/ me to the Y, came home and let Zeke nap and we just hung out. we had a lazy morning and early afternoon then headed to K.I. around 4 and stayed til 10. It was our neice’s birthday and she and Bo rode the kiddie rides together, she just turned 3. it was so cute. they walked around holding hands, it was great. Our older neice came too, she and Mel rode some things together. it was nice to have a group of us there, it worked out really well, it was Dean, myself, our 2 eldest boys, Mel, Laura, Darin(BIL) and Brianna. (3yr old. neice) Dean’s mom took Zeke for us which made it much easier on us, hoping he was ok for them. We all stayed up til midnight and I’m hurting this morning. It was a good thing we didnt do much else yesterday because exercising and then all that walking at K.I. did me in. I’m feeling it today. I woke up and first thing I did was head for the bottle of tylenol, and my other pain medicine I take every morning, but I’m still hurting an hour or more later. blah…I hate this stupid fibromyalgia, it’s can be a real pain….literally!! this afternoon will be busy too, hoping by then I feel better…

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that’s all I can say about how great church was this morning.  it was amazing how what he said just hit home for me, a lot of what he said fit exactly with how I’ve been feeling lately.   I left feeling rejuvenated, and kept energy up to go on a long trip to walmart and later our neices birthday party.  the kids are going to bed early, Caleb and Zeke slept on the way home in the car as did I admit!   bo of course has enough energy to just keep going, he’s our energizer bunny!   I think we’re taking Mel to kings island tomorrow, she’s the girl staying with us from Baltimore, she came for SOS but her flight out isnt until Thursday morning so if the weather gets any better we want to take her to some fun local hotspots, like the amusement parks and maybe even the castle in Loveland.    well Zeke is finally ready for bed after his late nap, and I am too!    busy week ahead, but hoping it’s going to be a fun one despite the many doctors appointments the kids and I have.

Caleb and Bo see the ENT on Tuesday.  Last night Caleb complained his ear hurt him again.  this morning I saw that it was again draining, guessing it ruptured again.   poor kid, luckily it doesnt bother him until it’s at the worst when it’s about to rupture.  no point really calling the dr since he’ll see one on tuesday and once it has ruptured not much can be done really.   at least it’s draining some at this point, that’s a good thing.

well off to bed for us….

we had a family crab feast of sorts tonight at our house.  They ordered crabs online and had them shipped, and they were so delicious.  but my stomach isnt thinking so, I have had trouble digesting any seafood this last year or so, it’s so sad.  anyway…we had a full house, crabs, ribs, chicken, pasta salad, potato salad, yummy desserts, it was really nice.  the weather even held out so we ate outside, it wasnt too hot and it was cloudy so it couldnt have been better!      I’m glad we did it, the best part was having it here so the kids could be free to play and couldnt get into too much trouble.   I love hosting, I really do.   I’m trying to getting better at letting the small things get to me, like keeping things clean because I’m so ocd about it, and I tried to enjoy the evening, and it was worth it. just wish I felt better….

this week is going to be busy.   Wednesday I’m going to get an echocardiogram and a chest xray to try to help the dr diagnose what’s causing me to have chest pains and shortness of breath.  I think it might just be asthma, as she did but wanted to be sure it wasnt anything else more serious a well, knowing my history of strange things to happen at my age!  🙂   today I had to use an inhaler I had last time I got a really bad cold w/ wheezing because I couldnt breath and felt so bad, it helped so that’s what makes me think it might just be asthma, but sometimes my chest will hurt and it’s not at the same time as the shortness of breath. it’s annoying.   I hate feeling so old and unhealthy!

last night we went to the last night of SOS at our church.   we had signed up to help w/ baptisms, and didnt know what that would be so we didnt know what to expect.  we ended up being on stage the whole time handing towels to the folks after their baptism.  front row seats, and it was awesome.  before the baptisms we stood in the back during worship and  it was awesome.  i was in tears and on my knees in awe of how great our God is.  Several times I thought about what it would have been like for me as a teen being there, and I realized it’s sad to say it’s different as an adult.  we sang a song that says “your everything to me” and as a teen that’s easier to say than when you have three kids, a husband, and tons of obligations.   i wished I could sing it and mean it, I wish  I didnt feel so weary and out of touch, but I know I am.  I’m tired day after day and I needed that time of personal worship, ironically in the midst of hundreds of others.  it was an awesome way to end a week in which I got the chance to serve in so many new ways.  looking back it was just what I needed, a chance to see that even when I feel so bad I can serve and I can make a difference.   Mostly I needed to be reminded that I’m stronger than I give myself credit for.

tomorrow is church and our neices third birthday party, hoping I am up for it.  i really needed a nap today and never got one.  i’m hurting this evening, and Dean is too from a busy week.   no pain no gain right?

hope everyone has a great weekend!

it’s a rainy morning, I am wiped out already, I hate waking up feeling that way!  that second half of our day is going to be busy, but til then I am vegging out as much as the kids allow!!   at least it’s Friday!

today Caleb and I went to serve at the drink giveaway with SOS again.  It was so much fun, after we found where we were going after being lost for a few minutes!  The woman who was scheduled to be with us was out sick so it was going to be just me, caleb and the youth group leader and 12 kids.    I was really worried about being in charge, and knowing that we had big buckets filled w/ at least one 22 lb bag of ice and a few dozen water bottles that would need carried around to different locations once we were there.  After we loaded up our van another woman was teamed up w/ me, she had filled the back of her pickup w/ ice and water bottles, so we had a ton of water to give away, each group was to give away 30 cases(24 bottles per case) of water.  on tuesday was didnt give out all of the water, today we did and it was awesome.  we went to a location much closer to the city, ok in the city I beleive.   I dont miss being in the city that much, I realized that today after our outreach and going to the gas station there to get a drink and snack for Caleb.

One of the young guys with us said he gave some water to a car full of guys who were all smoking something and he knew it wasnt cigarettes.  it was a great location for such a giveaway, but I dont know if I would have taken Caleb if I had known where we were going ahead of time.  it ended up being fine, but it was a sketchy part of town.  One guy in a car asked the young girl I was with for her number and she had to tell him several times it was about God not her.   she was awesome and it didnt seem to faze her at all.

our group was from Lexington KY today.   the group on tuesday was from cincy I believe.   I wish I could do something like this every day.  I got a chance to spend one on one time w/ caleb, got a break from changing diapers, and did something meaningful.  I also liked being in charge too, I dont know why but in the past I was really shy and now it’s just so easy for me to take on a leadership role, I get anxious but in the midst of it, I’m at my best.  it’s was awesome getting to serve this way this week, and even better to overcome some obstacles to do so by myself(read: w/out Dean).  just hoping I dont feel like crap tomorrow because I’m signed up to do childcare from 12-4 at the church and then Dean and I are signed up to help w/ baptisms tomorrow night, it’s the last night of the week of SOS and I’m sad to see the week coming to an end so soon.   and I’m not even a teeanager who the event is geared for!

Hope to get some pics up later this week, I used a disposable and pending if I can get them printed to a disk or not will depend on how soon I get them up on here.  but it was fun, and we’re hoping to get to some of the Saturday morning outreaches as a family now that we’ve got the Servant Evangelism bug again!

Yesterday Dean took off of work so we could volunteer at church for their week of service projects called S.O.S.   we helped w/ a drink giveaway.  Caleb went with us and it was a lot of fun.   After that I grabbed a quick bite to eat then took Zeke to his physical therapy appt then we headed to my doctors appt because I’ve been having chest pains and shortness of breath.  Zeke slept in the stroller through my whole appointment which was nice.   After that I went home and slept for a few hours, i was so wiped out.   dean and the boys went to the pool after dinner and I went to the grocery store.  We met up w/ Dean’s mom so caleb could spend the night there and then went to pick up our friends neice who is staying with us this week while she attends the S.O.S. camp at our church.   I came home and again went to bed where I stayed til this morning, and I am wishing i was still in bed.  I was up and ready to go to the Y to exercise but I dont have it in me, I am wiped out and achy.  the boys have a field trip w/ their early intervention class and I knew I could manage both exercise and that today, I’m just too miserable feeling.  hoping to get a little rest before then by giving Zeke an early nap, but dont know if that will happen w/ Bo being so loud!!

so I’m once again suffering the after effect of a full day, and it’s no fun.   at least yesterday was!!