I think I am having a nervous breakdown, or some strange reaction to the birth control. My emotions are going crazy, so badly that I went from having such a great day yesterday to being in tears and yelling at Dean. I was mad at him for not helping meanwhile he had made dinner and bathed and fed the baby. I was a mess. I had him call and make me a drs appt for Monday so he can go with me. I think this may be time for me to say I have always dealt with depression and was suprised when things kind of got normal after the baby. But now it seems I am going back to how I used to be, those pregnancy hormones are gone and now the birth control is messing with my body and mind. Not to mention all of the changes around here. At this rate dean will be kicking me to the curb if I dont do something. We have been doing fine lately but yesterday was the breaking point for me,I was even about to call work and say I didnt want the job today because I couldnt handle it, but like Dean had said I needed to go. And I did and now I feel better, for now. We had half a day of work then a Christmas party where I drank more than I should have but I didnt want to be there anyway so I had to do something to make me less tense. Then I came home and cleaned house some and prepared tomorrows lunches, since Caleb and the babysitter were apparently not around. So I finally just called and they are there now so my time of peace and quiet is gone to be replaced with the normal chaos the evening. Pick up Caleb, pick up Dean, run to get baby products, come home make dinner, bath and feed Caleb, pick up Deans brother from the airport...did I mention the inlaws will be here tomorrow!! Argh! Where's the paxil!!
I just awoke from a very satisfying cat nap. Afterall it was quite well deserved as today was my first day of work in 5 months! Last Friday I had another job interview, I went for the interview and got hired on the spot! They wanted me to start as soon as possible, but I told them I had other obligations until today so today it was. I got up around 6:30 am to get ready then finished feeding Caleb while Dean got ready for work and off we went. I took Dean with me, making him take a later train to work, to drop off Caleb. It's a good thing I did I was a mess. I didnt cry until after I left his aunts house, as I got to the bottom of the stairs I started bawling. It was horrible. I was so tempted to bolt back up the stairs and call and say I didnt want the job, all while holding my son but I didnt.
All day long I fought the urge to call to check on the baby, until around 2 or so. He was fine, being the perfect angel he is. I missed him so much, when I finally went to pick him up, about 5:10, I was so happy to see him. Although he wouldnt look at me for a while even when I was holding him, its like he was holding a grudge against me. But once we got home he perked up some, no doubt because he loves his daddy so much. Nevertheless I got smiles and coos too!!
My job. I now work in a urologist office, I am a medical secretary. I make almost $2.00 more than I did in Ohio, which will be so nice on our budget, or the lack thereof. I really liked my first day, despite having to miss the baby so much. I felt so independent, and I impressed the pants off of everyone in the office. Around 9 or so this morning I did something, dont remember what but the boss said I am already glad I hired her. Near the end of the day a co worker said things were just going to work out nicely(due to my competent computer skills.) All in my first day I answered phones, checked in customers, mailed out documents to patients, filed over 50 medical documents, filed and prepared over 25 patient charts, updated some old documents like their time cards and fax cover sheets and replaced them with much nicer ones( apparently no one knows how to use microsoft word very well, but I will make sure that changes too),I went to one of our other offices to work for a bit, and did tons of little things. I told my boss that it felt like I had never stopped working, I just fell right into the swing of things there, and the funny thing is its a completely different kind of office than I am used to yet I did so much on my first day. Needless to say my boss was very pleased with me and I think I my skills shocked some of my co workers as well. Suprisingly, especially to me, I was very confident of my skills and even volunteered them when I realized there were things that needed done that apparently no one had time to do.
In other news, we are moved in, and about 20 % of the rooms are painted. We were going to paint tonight but I was too tired and so was Dean so we are going to wait til Saturday since we are going to have a lot of extra hands around. So if I am lucky I wont have to do much but take care of my son, by then I think I will need to spend time with him, more for myself than for him!!!
A big problem with working, day care. Currently Deans aunt is watchign Caleb but she will be unavailable soon due to surgery. So yesterday I called a ton of places, day care centers and home day cares, the worst thing was price; ranging from $120 - $175!!! I mine as well not work, almost anyway. Then the problem becomes age, not a lot of places cater to infants. then I get informed about waiting lists, some places had a year waiting lists, what about those of us who didnt plan to go back to work but do and need help NOW!! So we are meeting with a lady Friday night about watchign him, she does home daycare, has 4 children, 2 of which are part time and charges $120 a week. So if we are lucky we'll like her. If not Dean and I will be looking on Monday, since we are both off!! Wohooo!! Gotta love paid holidays!!
Ah, the working woman, as if a mothers job is never done, it seems now it is 100 times worse when you are a working mom, all you single moms out there deserve a hug and huge pat on the back, dont know what I'd do without my husbands support. Love you honey!!!
We are working on a web cam, will let you know how to get to it when Dean gets it up and running.
A friend from church had a moving truck he was going to let us use, and was going to help us move stuff this evening. We talked to him yesterday and he told me to call his wife around 4 to get the details and times together. At 4:10 I called, no answer. i called around 5 and left a message. Stacey called and needed to know what was going on, she had her brother and his friends to help. She called back and said they'd be here shortly and we'd decide what to do. Finally got through to Julie about the truck about 6:15, Chris just needed directions. Right now there are 7 guys to move our stuff! I had started to think around 6 that we wouldnt be moving tonight. Now I am sitting around waiting to go to the new house since I dont need to move a single thing myself! God sure does take good care of us, I cant wait to see what else happens this week.
I hate to ask this, but I know that there are a lot of women more in the know out there than me, how soon after starting birth control is it effective? Like I said before this is my first time ever taking it, suprising at my age I am sure, and I still started it reluctantly. But if it prevents furthere cysts than I am all for it. I am not ready for that pain again.
Looks like we are packing up and moving for good tonight. Not only has my step dad made remarks about us leaving but now so is my mom. She has suprised me, but I think they are both being quite selfish, and that doesnt suprise me. last night I told my step dad that he just doesnt realize how hard it is for 2 people and a baby to move it all by themselves. Not to mention clean, paint, fix holes, and fix plumbing. So looks like we are moving in even though the kitchen sink isnt usable, but I dont think my parents care. Last night as I was asking Dean what we were going to do tonight my step dad, from the other room, he must have been eavesdropping, said moving out. Thats when I yelled at him. We would have moved out last night but I dont think i could have been much help to Dean movign out the bed and big stuff. So tonight we will have help and a moving truck.
Another funny thing about the appointment, she put him on his belly to listen to his back and he just about rolled over, he would have had she not stopped him. I told her how he almost stands without help and she said not to get to anxious cause then I'll never get a break. She laughed and said we better start child proofing soon because he is above average in his motor skills. I was so proud of him!!! He cooed and laughed almost the whole time we were there. he kept wanting to grab the blood pressure monitor cord. It was funny. my little angel! For now, but watch out, soon he's going to be running this place......
we are so blessed with our son. He had his 4 month check up today. He weighs 14 lbs 13 oz and is 25 3/4 in tall. He had to get 3 injections today, he did not even cry. He kept talking to me and afterward he was even playful. On the way home he fell asleep and is now resting. I was so afraid he was going to be miserable, he is just tired. today he starts to eat rice cereal. I am so excited, I hope he likes it. he has been trying put everything in his mouth so hopefully he will. The biggest deal is the mess we will make!
My morning started out pretty good, at least the first 20 minutes were. I awoke to hear Caleb playing, at first I thought he was upset but he was just kicking and flailing all over the place. Knowing he was content and not hungry yet I started to straighten up the bedroom. Shortly after my cell phone rang and it was the carpet place. On wed when they came to measure we told them we want to wait til we finish painting and that we'd call today to let them know when we want it in. But the guy on the phone yelled at me said we didnt tell the right person and that they were at the house waiting to be let in. he was paying them a lot of money and if it isnt dont today we'll have to pay a lot more. He continued to yell at me and I told him I'd be over. I hung up and started bawling, a complete stranger brought me to tears. I was upset so I called Dean who called the guy, who was still rude to Dean. We figured we'd have no choice so I got teh baby together and got over to the house, all withuot a shower or anything. I hadnt even changed the baby's diaper yet. So I get there and these sketchy looking guys come out of the truck to chit chat. I open the door and take the baby in. I hear their truck start up and assume they are pulling into the drive way. Then I hear a loud bang, I run to the window to see our fence has been knocked over and bent. The guy gets out and unbends it and starts to try to figure out what to do , I just yelled at him to leave it alone, he already broke it. So i was still upset about having to be there, then this. I called Dean again, he called and talked to the guy we sold us the carpet, who was not the guy who yelled at us, the guy who yelled was his boss. Dean said he didnt really care either and said to get an estimate and they'd fix it. like it was nothing.
The worst part about this is I convinced Dean to go with this carpet place because we got a decent price, I trusted the guy, and we coudl get it in quick. But the big reason I was so willing to go there was that we got their name out of the shepherds guide, which is basically a christian yellow pages. On the inside it says : You Can Trust TSG - Our Statement of Faith The Shepherd's Guide logo is a sign of trust. Our trademark appearing in an ad indicates that the owner of the business (or advertiser) has signed the statement of faith below. Statement of Faith:
I have received Jesus Christ as my personal Savior, and my desire is to live my life for His Glory. I have been born again according to John 3:3 which states," ...except a man be born again, he cannot see the Kingdom of God." I pledge to hold the highest Biblical code of ethics in my transactions. It is my ambition to treat my clients with the utmost respect and integrity.
So the people we dealt with today are definitely not living up to that statement. And when I told the guy installing carpet he said last week a customer asked who the guy was cursing and yelling at me on the phone, he needs to be slapped. So apparently its not the first time. I am writing a letter to the shepherds guide to let them know, i called them and they said if a company gets 3 complaints they no longer advertise for them.
After I go back to the house to make sure the carpet is okay I am going to call the carpet place and let them know how upset I am that their company claims to be a christain owned company and yet treats their clients badly. I am going to rationally find out how to get to the top to complain. All very politely too, as long as that guy doesnt yell at me again.
So we have carpet now which means we will have to paint with new carpet, which is what we were trying to avoid. The carpet looked good when I left but they hadnt cut out the closets or trim yet so we'll see. Hope everyone else has a better day!!
Not only did we get our loan, but the tenants moved out of the house! All except the roaches they had brought w/ them when they moved in. we fumigated the house twice this week and the darn bugs still look at us and laugh as they stomp all over our house! we are sure it had a lot to do with the condition of the house. Yesterday we got the house completely emptied out, the tenants had left but had left a lot, and in the basment there was standing water and looks of junk. Upstairs there was a milk carton left on the counter and cheetos all over the living room floor. Thats the least of it. So we bleached, rather I bleached, all of the walls (all without wearing gloves because we couldnt find the ones we bought, and my sensitive skin is now bleach burned on my hands, ouch!!) and the floors. Then we started painting. The house is going to look great w/ the new paint and new carpet. we picked out both yesterday and the day before.
I am very disappointed with our church group, and I know I should talk to someone about it in group, but I cant, I know I will get mad at them. We sent out several emails asking for help with the house. Only one person helped and that was Dean's ex, thats a funny story too, I'll save it for later. No one who didnt see the house when we started wont know how hard we worked, its a complete turnover job on the house and we are doing all alone. This is a huge feat for people our age and with a newborn. Luckily Dean's aunt lives around the corner pratically from the new house so has been watching the baby now and then so we can work. My moms been helpful there too. But we cant get any one else even to offer, even if its just to be there for us. It really annoys me. i cant help but think that our group in Ohio would be there for us, we'd probaby at least have round the clock childcare from the gals and the guys would do the work, but here there's nothing. Sure we've only been back a few months, but we've made lots of friends in this time but I guess that doesnt matter to them. Sorry , I had to vent. Today my goal is to pack up stuff here at my moms to make the move easier.
We had a very busy, exhausting weekend. I was cleaning the new house and Dean was helping the people move out. The week doesnt look to get calmer either. Tonight we go to get paint and supplies, so that tomorrow I can pick the carpet color I want so it can get installed on Friday. we went to a carpet place and were there for about an hour, it was informative but boring. Dean hates thinking about these things let alone shopping and picking things. But we told his parents we'd shop around for the best price, my goal is a good price and quick installation so we can move in this weekend. I went to two places today, by myself, it took an hour total. I got some good prices and the one place, a Christian place, said if I let them know before noon tomorrow we can have it in on Friday, which is just great. Gives us a day or two to get the rooms painted then new carpet, then this weekend we can move our stuff in!! wohoo! It's finally coming together, but it has turned into quite an expensive move.
A month later we finally get the loan officer to let us know something, Dean just im'ed me and said she is faxing him a commitment letter which I assume means we got the loan. I am about to cry. Not only do we get to own a house, but I get to decorate it all my own, well as long as Dean agrees, but as I said, he doesnt much care. Suprisingly enough, I have decided to just paint Calebs room a solid color w/ border and Dean wants to make it like it was in Ohio, border and sponge, which requires more work. But to save time I think he is on my side as far as saving time and money. We got a new comforter set yesterday for our room, much more casual, no flowers. It will look nice with our bed and new dressers. Best thing about it it was on sale, the comforter was orig. $80 we got it for $15, someone returned it. There wasnt anything wrong with it, so I grabbed up the deal. Better yet, my mom paid for it!! So all sorts of neat stuff for us this christmas, so we may not have anything to open for Christmas, but we can at least sit in OUR home with our new furniture, new carpet, freshly painted walls, I'd say its a pretty priceless present. Thank you God!!! We know nothing would have worked out without his guidance. So who needs Santa anyway!!
I am not a confrontational person, I avoid it at all costs. But even I have limits. Its been a rough day, we just got in around midnight, after going to what will be our new house several times and after talking to the police several times. What it comes down to is the people my inlaws were renting to rented the downstairs of the house to a family ( a very non stable, very dysfunctional family). The people living upstairs who were the ones renting the house have moved out and are planning on coming to clean up the rest of the upstairs tomorrow. The other family is another story. I had had quite enough today, especially after seeing how bad the upstairs looked, I can only imagine the basement is worse. All I am saying is we found a half full ( i am being optomistic) jar of mayonaise sitting in the hallway upstairs. Looked like it had been sitting there a while. It is no wonder the house is roach infested, its like they were leaving the bugs bait purposefully. A freshly banged whole is now present on the living room wall, mind you it was not there yesterday. And no its not an oops we moved the entertainment center and it banged the wall, its more like someone took out their frustration on the wall. The carpet looks as if it was chewed through, either by one of the several dogs or cats that also occupy the hosue along with at LEAST 4 adults and at least 6 children. The ironic part is of the whole upstairs, the kitchen and dining room looked untouched. The floor is well kept as are the cabinets and counters. Makes you wonder, I guess they didnt cook much. Point is, about being confrontational. The first time we went over tonight the gal (putting it nicely) who lives downstairs all but blamed the upstairs tenant for attempted theft of the stove and fridge and didnt want to put any ownership on anyone they know putting the whole in the wall, but even through this she was nice and reasonable to talk to.
In an attempt to keep the fridge from being stolen which was sitting out front, waiting to be picked up by the upstair tenants, even though its not theirs, we went out to figure out what to do. we called the police who said to call when we got back to the house and they would meet us there. So as we drove up we began to call but realized the upstair tenant was their so we thought we'd try to talk it out. Things were fine with him, but the gal from downstairs became quite defensive and said my lawyer said I should stay and sue you. So I wasnt thrilled. After all how can someone who doesnt pay rent have the right to sue for anything! She said we need an eviction notice, aparently our 30 day notice isnt reasonable time to give to her and her poor family to leave especially due to the fact her children have health problems , not like we asked or as if that should really matter. And that she would stay until then and even until we went to court, since she would sue us. At this I was furious, I usually dont judge people but this was one cover that wasnt hard to read. She was going to milk it out as long as she can. She will stay wherever she can for rent free as long as possible. Seems like she's done it before, as she said, she'd been through it before and knows how it works. So we're not the only ones she's given a hard time, if only that were cause enough for the cops to kick her and her mooching family out. I feel sorry for the kids. A little bit ago I told Dean she should qualify for govt aid and that I am sure they'd find her emergency housing if needed, but he said that would mean they would probably realize she is an unfit mother and take the kids away, and I am all for kids staying with their parents, but as I've said before, not everyone is meant to be a mom(or dad for that matter - I know that from my own experience) So my original point is I told her I will happily go do what needs done on Monday to get her her eviction notice and then she said we'd need one for everyone because apparently some guy named Squirrel gets his mail sent there so she wants an eviction notice for him to, and my question should have been who the hell has a name like that and who the hell cares since no one said he could live there in the first place. So we had a few words, in an attempt to be the good person I am, and to keep myself for putting her in her place, I returned to the car and fed the baby. And called my father in law to see what we should do, funny thing how I can turn to him but not my own parents. Even stranger is I knew he would keep me calm if I called him. Seems there wasnt much we can do though about the people who wont move out - at least not at 11:30 at night on a Friday.
unfortunately the law is, once someone occupies a place for 30 days they are resident and have the right to 30 days and an eviction if necessary. Darn squatters have rights too? Doesnt seem right to me, but I guess they have laws to protect someone, but right now they are not on my side. So we gave them 30 days, and being the good tenants (even though they really arent legal tenants) they are, they want the right to their add'l 30 days for the eviction notice. And she wants up to 90 days , or until it goes to court and she thinks it will take that long.
So we had plans to do work this weekend and move stuff in, but not now. Not after seeing the damage already done. So in the morning we are going to get a cop come assess damage and write it up so that if any further damage gets done then they can be charged. (we already discussed this with the police, in one of our many calls for help and advice) We dont think it would be smart to clean it up, put in the carpet we were going to and paint until they are out since we are afraid of what they will do to it. I am writing this all out for you, # 1 because I need to vent #2 because if people watch springer, than of course they'll enjoy this good tale. Tune in for another episode tomorrow, same time same place......(hopefully not same time, I should be in bed)