Wisdom from my walk

last night we drove about an hour to meet our newest friend, Ginger. Her parents have 4 other dogs and a 5 month old little girl. They are trying to find Ginger a new home and were hoping to do so before their trip out of state today. Ginger will be 3 yrs old on July 4th.   She knows some how to sit, seems to do stay pretty well, rolls over and shakes your hand w/ her paw.  We said we weren’t sure how the dog and the kids would mesh but that we’d be willing to give her a try for a few days to see how things go so that they wouldnt have to figure out to do with her before today when they leave for their trip. The kids love her. She is the sweetest dog I’ve ever seen. She hasnt barked once since we’ve been with her. She doesnt seem to mind Bo but she will try to avoid him when he chases after her. but other than that just fits right in. If things continue to go this well she’ll be staying with us.

I need a nap. still feeling bad since working out on Monday…my body just doesnt do well these days w/ activity.  i am worn out.  the kids have gone past my level of patience, again and again.   I shut bo’s door in hopes he’d eventually fall asleep, I went to check on him, he’s awake and there’s throw up all over the room.  Why cant I ever get a break.   I was ready to turn around, shut the door and go to bed myself.  zeke’s asleep.  calebs outside playing.  I just want to be asleep.  I made a drs appt for myself for Friday morning.   Hoping I feel better before then but not sure it’s going to happen.  I’ve been thirsty all of the time, my mouth is dry and parched no matter how much I drink.  the headaches are back and miserable.  worried it’s my thyroid or sugar.  I’ve never had a thirst problem like this, I drink a lot during the day as is, and now it’s just nuts.   I stopped drinking soda in hopes that was causing the headaches, but not sure it’s made a difference.   blah…i just want a vacation…

Zeke has passed some of his therapy goals, she changed some to different goals today.  He is now able stand up for a few seconds without holding onto anything.  One of his goals was to walk w/a  push toy, today he did that great at therapy.  Previous attempts with that at home had failed, but he did great today!  so just now I got him to try and he again stood unassisted and later walked w/ the push toy!!  last week things werent looking so good and she said it may take 3 months, but this week she was hopeful and said if he continues to progress this quickly then in a week or two he’ll be walking!!  he’ll be 13 months old next week.  as long as he walks before 15 months it’s good she says.   but she did say if we didnt start the therapy and orthotics he wouldnt be walking anytime soon.  She said Bo and Zeke are examples of what early intervention(E.I) can do.  Zeke is doing great w/ E.I.. helping him, but Bo is almost 2 1/2 (next week) and Bo is still having problems because he didnt get E.I.  they are both getting evaluated on Monday by therapist that work for the county program to see if they qualify, but at this point the only thing Bo could get is free preschool.  but I guess that’s better than nothing.  he still walks and runs funny and isnt talking properly.   so we’ll see how things go Monday.  At least we can see definite improvements in Zeke, I only hope the delay of care for Bo doesnt leave him behind for years to come once he starts school.

I am not good w/ older children.  on tuesdays I volunteer to do childcare for parents who attend a class at our church.   I started out w/ the smaller kids, ages 2-3.   That I am good at….tonight there were 14 kids, ranging in age from 4-12 and there’s another childcare worker, she’s 17 and is about useless unless you tell her exactly what needs done, I think she’s used to being the kid and doesnt necessarily want to be in charge…at that age I was already taking lead teacher roles…differences in personalities I suppose. Tonight I had to tell her that her conversation about piercings was inappropriate, the kid on her lap at the time was 5!! and no it just wasnt about ear piercings.  but I digress.   soooo next week I am going to be more prepared.  we spent a lot of time outside tonight but the time before and after that was a little chaotic.   any ideas for crafts w/ multiple ages.  like I said younger kids even up to age 6 or so is fine, but older than that I get lost on what they need/want to do.   I think I’ll do a craft w/ marshmallows and toothpicks, take some homemade playdough and maybe one other activity to add to see how it goes.   I like order, and I know kids need it.  So I’m bound to make this easier for me and them, we spend 3 hours together, I need something to keep from getting bored.  the older girls got really bored today,I might bring some jewelry making stuff for them, or make them help the littler ones w/ crafts.   any other ideas??

I wanted to tell you how closely Ive kept
The memories of you in my heart
And all of the lifetimes that we’ve had to share
Live even though we’re apart

But dont cry for me
‘Cause I’m finally free…..

(song by Mark Harris)

I know this song is about dying, but whenever I hear it it reminds me of those I’ve left behind in Maryland and I get all teary.   You are all missed!!  but know that we are in such a good place….in so many ways.

although the after pains of all I did yesterday is making this one of my “bad” days….still theres lots I am blessed with, including those who stay with me in heart even though they are far away

I’ve uploaded a lot to flickr today.  (that link will take you to them) but here’s the ones of Calebs newly decorated room.

one wall, which the headboard of the beds is against, is a solid khaki-ish color. the other 3 walls are striped – thanks for my SIL for her help w/ that!!

We joined the Y on Saturday, they had a special which waived the $150 joining fee so we just had to pay for the first month which is good.  On Saturday we all went and swam for about an hour.  Today  I went to a water exercise class and left the boys in the childcare room.  they had fun , I got to exercise and even got an uninterrupted shower afterward.   I could get used to this!!  Too bad I was already in pain before I went and now I’m all achy.  I talked to the instructor afterward, I dont want to do too much too fast and end up making me feel worse.  She was very knowledgeable about fibromyalgia and said to see how I feel the rest of the day today and tomorrow and maybe I could do every other day, the class meets every day.   She said one of the ladies who has fibromyalgia needs two days between work outs.  I am hoping I can do it more frequently, and add in other exercise, including weights.    I was of course the youngest in the class, there was a 93 year old lady and she didnt even look that old!!  So it’s mostly older ladies but they made me feel comfortable anyway so it’s all good.    I just really want and need to lose weight and now I have excuse w/ the y membership, I am not going to let this illness to make me unable to get in shape, and my dr said the more excercise I do the better the fibromyalgia will get better..hoping she’s right, right now I feel crappy!!