Wisdom from my walk

This happened where we should have been if the kids werent sick.   I was going to take just caleb and myself when Dean gets home from the dr.  but now I might have an excuse not to go…too bad we’re out the money for the tickets though.   I was ready to take him too…but now I’m a little concerned, not even sure they’ll stay open the rest of the day now.   Meanwhile it’s snowing like crazy outside.  yesterday it was 60 degrees, we went out w/out coats, had the windows open and it was awesome.  today is dreary and yucky.  I cant believe how big the snowflakes are.    I really wish I could be on a warm beach someplace….all by myself would be even better!!

So Zeke has a fever since Saturday night at(technically Sunday morning?) 2 a.m.  Bo woke w/ a fever last night as well.  Dean is still sick.   Caleb just has a slight cough.  We had plans to go to an indoor water park today, of course that isnt going to happen.  Hoping we arent out the money we paid for the tickets.   I am tired and feeling yucky myself, but not with the same stuff they have, just normal “amy” issues.   Caleb is an absolute mess about not getting to go to the water park, he doesnt handle dissappointment well.  And since he’s not really sick he doesnt understand why one of us cant take him, I am not up to and neither is Dean, I dont think.  Dean’s still in bed, again.    I am so sick of having sick kids, I feel so bad for Zeke. He woke up this morning and asked for medicine.    then laid back down in bed.  This is a lot like what he had a few weeks back, and I he always get so much sicker than the other boys.     well off to tend to sickos.   I so need a vacation day, I was really looking forward to the waterpark today…blah!!!!!!   why why why…..

BLAH!  Dean’s still in bed.  I am trying not to be upset that I didnt get to go to the women’s event today that I already paid for, but now that I’m done putting away tons of laundry and have no more chores to do as I sit here wishing I was elsewhere it’s hard not to be disappointed.     I dont know if Dean will ever get out of bed today and I know he feels bad but so do I, just not as bad as he does.    We are supposed to work tech team tonight and tomorrow and tomorrow evening I need him to keep the kids so I can go to child dedications since I have to be there for that.     So him resting now is probably good, but I’m worried the rest of the weekend is going to be ruined too, and Monday we have fun plans and right now I”m not sure we’ll get to go.   oh well…..life happens…

aaahhh..so brilliantly describes what I do to get to this point of pain and fatigue….my life sucks sometimes.    Dean is REALLY sick too so that doesnt help things.  I probably wont get to go to the womens event tomorrow.  I deserve to get to not to go, since I was a baby this week when I broke down and couldnt take it anymore and Dean had to come home from work to take care of the kids, so it’s only fair I have to take care of them when I have other plans.   I was just really looking forward to it….

So I weighed in today, and since my b-day January 17th I’ve lost 3 lbs (per their scale), 2.47 body fat pounds (that changes my BMI amt) and total inches of 1.75 in.  So better than gaining or staying the same, but still not amazing.  Overall since October I’ve only lost 11 lbs total, but a lot of inches, so that’s good I guess.   She was surprised during a conversation I had with someone else there today about the machine I hate the most being an upper body one, and I said it’s because my arms are so weak and it’s hard for me to do, yet I lost the most inches total in  my arms since I’ve joined.  Guess it’s because I’m working them so hard!  So not a great weigh in, but anything is better than staying the same or gaining!

Dean’s home sick today. He’s currently napping w/ bo and Zeke.  this morning I took Zeke to physical therapy, they ordered him new orthotics since he’s outgrown his old ones, and it’s causing him to walk funny wearing the too small ones.  he also had speech therapy at the house today for the first time.  We’re getting into the same problem w/ had w/ Bo in that he’s not really behind at this point, there are just some issues that need dealt w/ and if they arent they may lead to problems later.  the biggest problem w/ that is insurance doesnt like to pay for that kind of thing!  So as long as we can keep him in early intervention and private PT and insurance will pay he should be fine by the time he goes to school.  Bo on the other hand seriously needs some speech therapy.   the therapist today noticed Bo’s problems even.   Hoping to get him in for another hearing test and re-eval for speech after those results.

busy weekend ahead, if Dean gets better.  there’s a womens event tomorrow at church and there’s no one else to watch the kids but Dean this weekend, everyone’s going out of town, so he has to be well enough for me to go!! plus lots of other stuff going on this weekend that we both need to be well for.  Monday is going to be fun too…everyone’s off and we have big plans, I cant wait! more on that later though….

I am once again baffling doctors.  This time I dare call him a “dr”  I went to my normal dentist yesterday, which was a complete waste of time.  She referred me back to the dr who did my root canal and gave me a prescription for vicodin which I will never use.   He called end of business day yesterday and said someone would call to schedule me an appt to be seen.  They  called this morning and wanted me in at 11:30.   I was supposed to work at church til noon…so I went to do some mandatory things at church then went to pick up Dean so he could take a long lunch to keep the boys while I went to another pointless appointment.   the dentist today said that the pain should not be a result of the root canal.  He gave me a prescription, an antibiotic, and said if it doesnt help I’ll need to call my regular dentist back to get the tooth pulled.  He said he didnt know what the pain was from, and said I shouldnt be having pain in that tooth.

i have come to grips w/ the fact a neurologist can find nothing and will send me to a different kind of dr to find out if another body system is causing the problems I am having.  I can NOT understand how two dentists cant figure out what is causing me severe TOOTH pain.   Aside from tooth pain I feel crappy and my face is tingling all over.  Sounds like I may be ending up back at a normal doctors appt to get a referral to see the neurologist.     I am not ready to go back down this road although ignoring symptoms for too long may be the main problem to begin…….

I was grouchy already, feeling crappy is doing that to me this week…I can deal w/ most crappy days, but I’m not doing so well handling high pain days as I’ve had this week.    I really want a nap but it’s not going to happen.  Currently got my own kiddos and my friend’s kid, so no napping here.

Happy Freaking Valentines Day!

OWWWWW!! Dont know if my tooth that had the root canal is having issues or it’s an ear infection but my jaw and left side of face hurts soooo badly!  Dont know whether to call the dentist or regular dr.  going to see the specialist today hoping she can check my ears and let me know if it’s an ear thing or not, but not sure she can.  It’s not like I can go to the dr  or dentist today anyway, since I already have one appt and am watching two other kids today already.   And we’re expecting snow tonight and tomorrow so it would probably be dumb to schedule an appt for tomorrow.   I was up through the night in pain from my jaw/face so hopefully it doesnt continue to get worse.  Praying the ibuprofen kicks in soon.    Just another manic monday…