Wisdom from my walk

It’s been a crazy weekend. Dean wrote about most of it in his blog. We really did get some cute pics of Caleb in a pumpkin patch. He is adorable. He’s so alert and smiles real smiles whenever Dean or I talk to him.

Dean’s parents will be visiting this weekend, I am looking forward to it. I am just afraid it will make Dean more depressed about them not being around. He’s doing well mostly but I know it bothers him. I remember how it was when I first moved to Ohio but I am sure it is different for him since not only does he miss them but he knows Caleb is missing out too.

Looks to be another dull week for me, no car still. Just more laundry , cleaning and baby tending . I compiled an updated resume on Saturday and sent it out in response to an ad with Johns Hopkins. I really miss working, but I am not looking forward to putting Caleb in day care. he is already showing signs of being a bright child and is so eager to learn and take things in that I am afraid being in a daycare setting he will lose that. I mean I know he wont get one on one attention as much as he should and who knows if they will even try to make sure he gets learning time each day by talking with him and introducing him to new things. Its a horrible dilemma, settle for living without extra cash or staying home with Caleb. We figured out that we will be able to afford to live on Deans check but I still would love to have my own money. Even if it is just being saved for a rainy day. I love my son and love being with him, but I need something to get me motivated outside of the house and I know it would be hard to leave him all day but I cant help but think it will be better for me to go back to work. I dont mind being home with him I just feel like I am missing out on things, I know that is selfish and I know that Caleb will miss out by not having me home, but will he really even care , I mean he’s only 2 months old! I dont know. Dean wont say much on the matter so I am not sure what he expects of me. i know some men want their wives home with the kids but with Dean I just dont know what he wants. I sure wish he’d tell me what to do that way I dont have to make up my mind all alone! (hint hint Dean!)

Its been a tough few days trying to take care of an inconsolable baby, practically all by myself. Theres a window of a few hours where Dean can help out, but in the scale of a 24 hour day it isnt much. The sad part is that I know he is usually such a good baby and that he must feel really bad the way he keeps crying and there is nothing I can do but hold him and talk to him but I know that cant make him feel better or make the pain go away that I assume he is having after being so sick for so many days. I love my son and this first illness he has in breaking my heart!!

I took Caleb to the dr this morning. He now weighs 12 lbs 8 oz. Which is good, cause he is still gaining weight. But in addition to his upset stomach he now has a rash on his face, arms and neck, and it looks like it is now spreading to his belly too! She said it is just a virus and to give him pedialyte only for the next 24 hours. And that if he gets a fever to call . So now we just wait, she said it could last up to 10 days! Poor little guy! <br><br> Last night we went out to get dessert at Vinnys with Stacey. It was nice to sit and chat, to take a break from everything. Tonight we have plans to go out with a friend of Dean’s and his girlfriend. Hopefully Caleb will be feeling ok enough to not fuss the whole evening! Other than that nothing is new or worth talking about. So when something happens I guess I’ll have something to write about.

Caleb is still sick, I am going to make a drs appt for him for tomorrow. Today Dean went to a different office than the one in DC becuase they closed it to check for anthrax. I was glad, not only is he safer, but closer, it only took him 30 minutes to get to work unlike the 1 hr and 30 min it took to get to DC. Unfortunately this move was only temporary, I wish he could always go to this other office. But I will take advantage of the extra time with him this evening! I spent the afternoon shopping with my mom. It was nice to get out, since I dont have a car.

I did eventually call the dr yesterday, around 11 am, they didnt call me back til 4:30! the dr said he should be fine as long as he continues to eat some and to call back if he isnt better in a few days. Today is pretty much the same, less spitting up but still he has an upset tummy.

in other news, the anthrax scare is hitting too close to my husbands work for my comfort. If we were still in Ohio we’d be at no risk for any of this terrorist stuff. But no, Dean’s new job starts the day before it all begins and today they may send him home due to the fact 20 people in an adjacent office have tested positive for anthrax exposure. I know we are here for a reason but I am not so sure yet what that is, and right now my faith isnt that great as we are goign through so much right now in our home situation, or rather the lack thereof. I better get offline in case Dean calls to tell me he is getting sent home, I’d rather they send him home than keep him there with the chance of being exposed to that stuff, apparently the strain sent to the Senate was enough to kill someone! No wonder so many people are coming back with positive test results.

to call the dr or not? The dilemma for the day. On Sunday Caleb started spitting up very badly at each feeding and even in between his meals. Then yesterday that continued with the addition of very wet poopy diapers, he usually only has one or two poopy diapers a day, he’s had 7 in the last 24 hours. He doesnt have a fever and isnt even that fussy, but he does seem to want to be held more and is sleeping more. I keep saying I will wait another feeding to see how he gets but I dont want him to be sick and me doing nothing. i got some pedialyte yesterday, he likes grape flavored things so he about gulped that down, spit some up and had more diarhea. I started alternating ever other bottle, one feeding he gets formula and the next one is diluted pedialyte. But the dirty diapers still continue, but the last two times he hasnt spit up which is a good sign. He is usually a good eater and he’s even eating less but not much. Problem is he is starting to eat then about 2 ounces later he sleeps, then wakes and eats some more, like it wears him out, he never did that before. Who knows. I am hoping whatever it is that it works it way through his system soon, I’d hate to have to drag him to the dr.

Aside from that there nothing much to talk about. Didnt do much yesterday but keep house and baby clean! Today will be much of the same and pending how things go maybe taking Caleb to the dr.

We’ve had a very nice weekend, or at least I think so. Friday night we went out with Stacey to celebrate her birthday. Saturday morning I had to go to a membership class at church. So Dean stayed home with Caleb since he’s already been through the classes when he attended the church before. When I got home we went to Arundel Mills mall, it’s more like an outlet than a mall. The childrens place had summer clothes on sale, tons of stuff for just 99 cents! We got bigger stuff that Caleb can wear next year. I was amazed how much money we saved. We ended up spending $28 on 14 items!

Yesterday we went to church then I came home and took a nice long nap. Then we had to go to my cousins sons 3rd birthday party. After that we went to visit with our friends Robin & Jason. It was a very relaxing weekend, I had a lot of fun. Since we’ve moved back we’ve had very busy weekends, or rather we’ve kept ourselves very busy, but with fun stuff.

The week looks like it will be boring, at least for me. Dean’s truck is still in the shop so he has to take my car. It’s such a pretty day outside too, oh well, I think I’ll be getting out tonight at least. Until then I will just play with my adorable son. He is currently in his crib cooing away, talking back to his toys. He is so cute!