Wisdom from my walk

What should have been another day of vacation this week has turned into quite a bad day. it doesnt help when you start your day at 6:30 am getting blood drawn and drinking a nasty sugary orange drink on an empty stomach. I stayed at the lab until 9:45 am when I was finally done my last blood draw to barely make it to the parent orientation at Caleb’s first day of preschool. By that point I was so shaky and sick to my stomach it wasnt much fun either, but Caleb liked it to so much he didnt want to leave. After that I headed home to finally eat and take a much needed nap, the highlight of my day! I had a lab appt at the ob office this afternoon, I waited for that appt for a good 30 minutes during which time I kept trying to call Dean to no avail. Turns out while I was gone he turned violently ill and still is. So I finally got home from that appt almost 2 hours later, after having a problem w/ the clerk at the store charging my credit card the wrong amt for some soda’s to help ease Dean’s belly ache, the worse thing was that not only did she overcharge me at least $10 for two stinkin sodas, she didnt know how the fix the problem, and she was alone at the store. Now I’m home and the nice dinner I was hoping to have tonight isnt going to happen w/ a sick hubby and a tired mommy. So instead the kid will eat fish sticks and fries and we’ll pray Dean feels better soon or I’m gonna lose it!

Tomorrow I have yet another drs appt to look forward to in the morning and at least Dean is off again, so hoping he feels better or can at least get a drs appt. There was some problem w/ an old claim at his current drs so they wont see him even though the insurance person said they’d pay it w/in the week, the claim was over a year old and I never got a bill for it. I would have known, Dean never goes to the dr and I’ve been battling our old health insurance for claims from over a year ago for months, all for me and Caleb, not once had a claim for Dean. or so we thought til today. So now he needs to try to find a new dr who will see a sick new patient. Today has been full of lovely things and I am just fed up w/ everything. We’ve barely been home for 24 hours and things already are back to the craziness that I was trying to get away from on vacation. I feel like by the weeks end I”m going to need another vacation!

Does anyone want a dog?? I am either going to kill ours or drop her off at the pound. She barks at everything , people, squirrels, butterflies…..and if she jumps onto my very pregnant belly one more time I am going to lose it!!! Sorry today is a whinefest for me, I am just miserable. I would say I cant wait for the weekend but it looks to be just as crazy and busy as the week is turning out to be. I think what I really need is a day to just lay around and maybe get a good back massage, like that will happen. Today I’d settle for peace and quiet, that means you dog!!!

Well my going to Ohio was conditional, at least for me, on passing my glucose test. When Friday night arrived and the drs office hadnt called w/ test results I took that as a sign that I had passed or that things at least weren’t too bad! So off we headed to Ohio Friday night. The 9 hour drive turned into an 11 hour foggy one during which our car started making a loud noise that worsened the farther we went. We arrived and were in bed at my in-laws around 4 p.m. We slept in a bit then spent the first day w/ family relaxing. We’ve had a good trip. Went to the pool a couple of times, got to visit w/ our newest neice who is almost 3 months old and all of our other neices and nephews that live here, and got a lot of great home cooked meals by Mom. (my MIL)

the noise in the car continued and on Sunday we thought we’d try to take the car to meineke but they were closed and again on Monday. So on Monday when the car didnt sound so bad we thought we’d be ok and could wait til we got home, until today when the noise came back loudly. So as Caleb and I napped Dean went to get our car fixed, almost $400 later and we can drive home safely! While Dean was gone I checked our home voice mail to get a message from my ob’s office about test results, as if the added expense today wasn’t enough for one day, I failed my one hour glucose! I was suprised they hadn’t called yet, but I guess w/ the holiday it took them longer to get the results. So tomorrow we’ll drive home all day, I have a 6:30 am appt on Thursday for the 3 hour glucose test and then will have to meet Caleb and Dean at the preschool when I am done for Caleb’s first day! then on Friday I have another doctors appointment, and two next week. Turning out to be a busy week and next week too! Did I mention on Friday I’ll be tackling making a spiderman cake! I’m looking forward to the challenge, Dean is off that day so at least I wont have to try to do it w/ caleb bothering me.

Today is our last day here and we are taking it easy. I”m not looking forward to the drive home as the one here was a mess, but at least Dean’s off all week to help out so I can rest up the rest of the week, amidst my busy schedule that is. Well I need to tend to caleb, we’re still waiting for Dean to get home from getting the car fixed. I’ll update when I get the results from my 3 hour glucose.

Did I mention today marks the beginning of the third trimester of this pregnancy! goodness where did the time go!?!

I called my drs office Monday morning, and after talking to the nurse they scheduled me to come in on Tuesday for bloodwork including my glucose test, and for an appointment. In the two weeks since I’d been there last I hadnt gained any weight, I was happy about that. My blood pressure was better but I do indeed have an infection that was most likely the culprit of the contractions and back pain I had last week. So now I wait for the blood work results to come back. She said that if the blood work is normal than it really could just be just normal pregnancy fatigue, which is scary since I have a couple more months to go and I cant afford to be this tired all of the time!

Today we better, but only because I had things to do. I’m babysitting for my friend, which included taking her daughter to preschool. Caleb wanted to stay at the school w/ her and was sad he couldnt paint, but he got over it. He and my friends son played outside for like 45 minutes until we realized Caleb had locked us out of the house! I had to have a neighbor who just happened to have keys let us in! After heading back to the preschool for pickup we did a mcdonalds run for nuggets and fries then picniced at the state park and played at the playground. The kids had a blast and my attempt to wear them out worked !! they are all sleeping peacefully, for a little while at least, I’m hoping they all sleep well today!

I am guessing either the heat or the added workload today is making me have some pretty strong cramps/contractions again today. Once I sit down and put my feet up things seem to get better, so I am hoping I’m just overdoing it, but then again, I cant sit around w/ the laptop w/ my feet propped up all day long! at least the day is more than half over!

This last month and upcoming month have been filled w/kids birthday parties. It’s crazy to see how quick these kids are growing up. The little boy I have today, well we’ve known them for a while now and he’s getting ready to turn 2. It’s great to see him talking and getting around so much better than he did when we first met him. it’s amazing the transformation we watch kids go through. Today as I took A to school I couldnt believe that next week I’ll be taking Caleb to preschool! This is a major milestone and I am looking forward to it, and seeing how much A and some of his other friends that have started school like it so, I’m hoping he enjoys it. He wanted to stay today and play and I felt bad he couldnt but was a little glad I got to keep him with me. I think I’ll miss him when he finally goes off to school for a full day in a few years, I say that now, before I have another child to take care of too!

we may not realize it but w/ every milestone our kids go through we go through some of our own. I mean right now I can say I am the mom of a toddler still if I wanted, next week I’ll be the mom of a preschooler. In a few months I’ll be a mom to two boys! In a few years I’ll be the mom of a school age child and a preschooler. I always hated to think that one day my life would be defined by what or who my child was, but now I look forward to wearing it as a badge of honor! I’m more than happy to say I’m a preschool co-oping mom! I look forward to it and the changes it will bring in me and my son. I am hoping these first few months of school before the baby comes will help him identify w/ other kids and have an identity of his own so that when Baby B arrives he wont feel so left out or out of place because he’ll not only have our family but the family and friends from preschool. Granted the boy has friends enough w/ church social events, the child is as social as we are in things at church, but it’s a different world, the preschool world. I am expecting things to be hard to adjust to at first, but in the end I think our family is going to benefit from this milestone and it wont be long before we’re adapting to the new baby, so I think I’ll take this time to enjoy my firstborn as much as I can before I have to give a lot of my time to our secondborn!!

not sure where all that came from. I’ve had the experience this week that I’ve heard pregnant women complain about a lot but it’s something until lately I’ve had no clue what they meant, but it happened, I fell to tears over everything for days in a row. Little things. Big things. Just about anything, even just tv commercials, or heck I cried when watching an olympic wrestler retire his shoes! I dont even like wrestling! or the olympics even really. I thought women were crazy when they’d say everything is making them emotional until this week when I spent a whole day crying for what seemed to be no reason. it wasnt helped but the fact I was extremely exhausted and feeling bad, but I was a mess. I dare say I’ve never been hormonal, but not like this. I get angry when hormonal yes, but barely ever teary when moody. I dont like this part of pregnancy, not that I’ve had much good to say about pregnancy at all lately, but…I could so do w/out the added hormones. This has made an already stressful week seem unbearable and today as new challenges have arisen in several relationships I have, I am at the point to just not caring. I have a busy life already and lately a busy schedule and workload to go w/ that busy life, and now people expect me to care about high schoolish gossip and backbiting. I started the week crying over the stressors in my life, today I laugh a little and vent a little, but theres no more tears. I’m all cried out it seems. And todays problems are the types that would normally make me fall to tears, as I hate seeing people upset, especially when it has to do w/ me or affects me, but today I will not cry. heck today I could truly careless. I’ve had a great day w/ the kids and am glad I’m able to get through the day w/out an emotional tear fest, so dont try to make me cry! as long as I stay away from the country radio station and the lifetime channel I might survive this day!

what a week, and it’s only Wednesday! as long as the dr doesnt call w/ bad bloodwork results then we are heading to Ohio on Friday evening. I am looking forward to a break but am not sure I”m up for it emotionally or physically even. we’ll see how the rest of the week pans out and with any luck I’ll be able to enjoy my new neice soon and take a much needed break from the daily hassles of the life of a preschooler’s mom!

well we had a busy week last week and a busy weekend. Today I again woke feeling extreme tired. Thinking some water and breakfast would perk me up, but no such luck, not long after that I felt even more tired! I’ve got a call into my ob’s office, this is the beginning of week 2 of feeling so tired I dont want to get out of bed. I am worried about it being the diabetes again and if it’s that it really is an easy fix, but until then all I want to do is sleep. My girlfriend came and picked up Caleb to watch him for the day so I can sleep, so if I have to go to the dr that will help. Some days I truly hate being pregnant. I cant help but think if I wasnt pregnant right now Caleb and I would be playing energetically at the park, instead he’s off playing and I’m resting. Granted, I should have tried to get help last week when I was so tired, but that means giving in to defeat. I only gave in today because Dean called my friend for help because he couldnt leave work to help me. I hate feeling helpless, especially knowing I have 3 more months of this! we cant afford to pay someone to watch caleb or for Dean to miss work to care for him. I dont know how I worked full time while pregnant w/ Caleb, probably because I didnt have a 3 year old to take care of too! Some days being an adult is no fun, today is one of those days!

for most parents out there today is a significant day, first day back to school! I look forward to the day we have that day w/ caleb but then again even having him away from me a little today makes me sad. I guess by the time he’s in school full time I’ll have another toddler to keep me busy so it will work out well!

While preggo w/ Caleb the first time I felt a contraction was when I was in labor, and then it was mostly back pain from the contrax becuase Caleb was sunny side up. All night and this morning I’ve been having some painful cramps and I dont doubt it’s contractions, but I dont know if they are real or just braxton hicks, esp since I never felt this in my first pregnancy. It’s kind of scary.

We just planned an almost last minute vacation to Ohio for the week of labor day. My mom is upset because it’s too far into my pregnancy, that will be week 1 of my third trimester! but I know if we dont go to Ohio now, before the baby and before preschool starts we wont go until next Summer! thats a long time, and we are already missing our newest neice! I’m nervous about the trip but I’m sure I’ll be fine, and it’s not like they dont have drs or hospitals there if something happens! I wish the drive wasnt so long, but cant help that. It should be nice, we all need a vacation. the day after we get back Caleb starts preschool, so that’ll be good, he wont be too upset about coming home if he knows it’s so he can go to school!

So all I need to do is hold out another week and then I can have a few days break! wohoo!! I can hardly wait!

I hoped it wasnt true, but the first two times after eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich I explained the horrible bout of illness to follow as a coincedence. Today I fixed caleb a sandwhich and thought it looked good, so made myself one. Soon afterward my stomach was letting me know it does not like pb&j anymore. It is a sad day when you can no longer enjoy a simple pleasure like a pb&j sandwhich. I hope this doesnt mean baby B wont eat them when he comes out of my belly too!

We did some real Christmas shopping last night. In my attempt to remain organized and prepared for this years holidays eventhough I’ll be recovering from a c-section when the time comes, I am doing my best to do what I can now to get us ready. Caleb was with us while we hit another toysrus to find out if we could find anymore good clearance deals, we were worried he’d wonder why we were buying toys and would demand to play w/ them but he could care less. The only time he cared was when I picked out a crib toy for Baby B, he wanted to play with it but failed to notice the rest of the stuff in the cart I was pushing. Caleb was being pushed in another cart by Dean. We got 3 things for Caleb on clearance that we are putting up for Christmas. it’s a start, I think we might go out tomorrow night w/out him to find some more gifts. It’s fun shopping and saving money! Plus it puts my mind at ease that although Christmas around here will be a lot different for us this year, with two kids, that we can still make it special for all of us, and less stressed! well gotta run, the kid is stuck behind the couch.

you know your life is getting boring when you get excited about the new toilet your hubby installs! a week or more ago our soon broke our toilet and after a week of Dean and I being inconvenienced by having to use the other bathroom on our main floor he gave in to my requests to fix the darn thing. yes we are lucky to have 3 bathrooms, but when you are pregnant you need a bathroom close to the bed for mid-night potty breaks not to mention one day last week morning sickness got the best of me while Caleb was bathing and I had no choice but make my son see the whole nasty sseen between me and the toilet bowl in his bathroom while he bathed. that was the turning point for me and I began pressuring Dean to fix it and finally on Saturday he did.

We aslo managed to hit a great clearance sale at toysrus, tons of clearance items are an additional 50% OFF!! Go as soon as you can as we hope to hit a few more local stores to see what selection they have left, hoping to get my christmas presents done since I’ll be in full baby mode come thanksgiving and we should have our new little addition by the end of November so none of that last minute christmas shopping for us this year. I vow to get it done before baby B arrives so I can actually pick out some presents for the kids.

well my genius son wants his turn to play online so I’m happy to oblige him in return for a chance to shower in peace! hope everyone has a great Monday!