Wisdom from my walk

In an attempt to start my week out right, I spent last evening catching up on work for the preschool and after that stayed up late ironing Dean’s work clothes. I had a lot of time since I put Caleb to bed a decent hour for once and Dean was out at a concernt with a friend and wasnt due in til after midnight. I accomplished a lot and knew that that meant I’d have today free to do fun stuff with Caleb.

So this morning after making us cinnamon applesauce pancakes we went for a 40 minute walk around the neighborhood. As a family we’ve been trying to walk after dinner, well at least Dean and I walk, Caleb rides his bike. The dietician recommended walking to help lower my sugar, so since my morning sugars tend to be higher I thought it would be good to go early in the morning after breakfast, not to mention I’d have more energy now than I will after dinner tonight! We left the dog in the house since she tends to find ways to escape the yard when I talk Caleb for walks which usually ends up in me having to carry the dog home so she doenst run away from us since I dont take a leash with me. So I just left her in while we went for walk. Yes I should walk the dog but being pregnant and having to keep up with Caleb is enough work for me! On our evening family walks we take the dog with us. So we left and could hear the dog barking for us to take her with us all the way up the block. She was quiet though when we approached home so I thought that that was a good sign.

I opened the door to let her out to run off her energy and as soon as I walk in I am greeted by a horrible sight, well you can see in the pic below…she tore up my living room curtains! I almost cried, and the fact I didnt is a major deal as usually something like that would make me cry and being pregnant you’d think for sure I’d cave in at the sight, but my sympathetic son saw the curtains and immediately says” mommy dont be upset” How can one get upset at such a cute comment, so I instead turned my attention to emptying my bladder and tried to ignore the torn curtains all over the floor!

for those who dont know me I am not a dog person, or even much of a pet person at all. I’ve been on the verge of either killing this dog or dropping her off at the spca for months, but havent because my son loves her. He truly and honestly loves the dog and would be devastated without her. I feel like getting rid of her now would make matters worse for him adapting to a new baby in a few weeks, at least w/ a dog he can have someone to play with while mommy and daddy are busy w/ baby. but I hate the dog, have hated the dog and today well she better stay out of my way or else she’s out the door for sure! And when things like this happen the only thing that keeps me sane is moments like these:

30.5 weeks preggo, Oct. 2nd


caleb kissing my baby belly


The Cake I made for someone else’s shower yesterday.

I’ll post pics later but I had a “surpise” shower today with family and some friends. This was after spending the afternoon at someone else’s shower then shopping w/ a friend! I started to suspect something earlier this week and by yesterday was confident something was up for when I got home today and tormented Dean about it to no end, to the point that last night he told me if I really thought people were coming I’d better clean, after which the house was made spotless by me! I think he felt kind of bad about that but no way was I going to leave that up to him or leave my mom to have to clean for a houseful of people if something was up. So sure enough I got home today from being out to a houseful of people! it was great! My mom worked really hard and she did a great job! thanks everyone for a great evening. I am exhausted by all means at this point and the irony is yesterday I made a baby shower cake for the shower I went to earlier today! it’s a good thing I did it yesterday or else I’d really be tired today, but I”m still pretty tired as is!

on a side note, even though being around sweets all day I did good on my diet but my sugars have been high for the last day or so then today they were high after lunch and I hardly ate much. and by the time I made it to my shower my sugar had dropped so low I was shaking as I opened my gifts, so I ate and my one hour after that was sky high too. I dont know why it’s fluctuating so much but it’s not good for me or the baby so pray things get better. I missed a call from my dr on Friday and wont be able to talk to them til Monday and I’m afraid I’ll be put on insulin w/ the week and not only do I not want to have to stick myself every day but we cant afford the medical bills if I have to do that so please keep me and Baby B in your prayers.

sorry some of you didnt make it today to the shower, you were missed, you know who you are!!

I had my 30 week ob appt today! The nurse was a little flippant w/ me when she weighed me, based on their scale, the same one I was on 2 weeks ago, I’ve lost 4 lbs in two weeks! Heck I might stick w/ this diet post pregnancy w/ those weight loss results! With caleb at this point I dont think I was losing that much that quickly, I was starting to gain weight again at this point. but not w/ this kiddo, I’m the same weight today that I was when I found out I was pregnant in March! that’s freaking nuts! I got a little smart w/ the nurse who was kind of on my case about it, I told her it’s not like I dont look like I”m getting fat. I could see if I had no visible baby belly or something but this child is growing despite my weight loss. Heck my belly looks as big now as it did when I delivered Caleb and I weighed 17 more lbs than I do right now when I delivered Caleb, that makes no sense to me! The doctor wasnt nearly as concerned w/ the weight loss just said lets try to keep it from happening again, like I”m not eating. heck I feel like on this dumb diabetic diet I eat more than I did before, no, I KNOW I eat more now. I eat 3 meals and 3 snacks now, before the diet I barely at 2 meals and maybe 2 snacks.

They did an internal check today, sorry for TMI for you guys out there, but I was having a lot of cramps and pressure so they checked and everything is fine. She marked on my chart that I have a warning for pre term labor due to my symptoms and the spotting I”ve had w/ in the last month. She said to cut out the pelvic activity, you can figure out what that means, doctors orders I dont think I’ll be too ready to follow anytime soon. and it’s not like she was truly worried about labor so I think maybe we’ll see how that one goes. She said next time it happens to drink water and lay down and if it doesnt go away to call, nothing I didnt already know.

as long as I keep my sugar levels in check w/ diet I wont be getting weekly ultrasounds like I did w/ Caleb, I’m almost disappointed about that. Starting at about 32 weeks w/ caleb I had weekly u/s to check on the baby since I was on diabetes meds and my diet wasnt working, this time so far since my sugars are ok they are going to wait it out, she said maybe 36 weeks I’ll get one which is silly since I”ll be delivering 2 weeks after that, but I will be glad to at least get one more u/s before Baby B arrives. I feel very out of sorts with my doctors right now, things are so different than they were w/ Caleb and it’s good that I’m not having as many problems, I just seem to be having different problems than I did w/ the first pregnancy. I know every pregnancy is different but I didnt realzie how different they would be. I am grateful though that overall things are doing well and my blood pressure is under control as are my sugar levels right now! So things are good and looking up. Now if I could just manage to get a good nights sleep and be able to do some housework w/ out cramping all the time I’d be good to go! I was dumb enough to scrub the floors this afternoon, after all she said pelvic rest, thats not the same as bedrest but I guess I should have asked more in detail what that means since now I”m all achy and crampy again! Sometimes I wonder if this kid is going to stay in there another 8 weeks, I never worried about that w/ Caleb. but the dr said it’s normal for more problems like this in a 2nd or later pregnancy becuase we get less rest and have more to take care of w/ the other child(ren). Not to mention she said the cramps and contrax get more painful in subsequent pregnancies too, the things they dont tell you when you go to the dr and discuss wanting to start trying to get pregnant again!

enough pregnancy babble for today, off to do more housework. I’m looking forward to visiting w/ my brother and his family this weekend. I havent seen their new baby in a while and I need a baby fix!! and yeah, it’ll be nice to see the rest of them too!

I just got in from my endo appt. I lost 2 lbs in 2 weeks. I had lost my last appt too. This dr wasnt concerned but I’m going to ask the ob about it tomorrow, if she doesnt yell at me first! I’m only 3 lbs more than what I weighed in march when I found out I was pregnant, thats nuts as my belly alone looks like I’ve gained 20 lbs!!

My one hour after lunch sugar level was good, so that’s good, but I also didnt eat a full meal but I failed to mention that to the dr, I was just glad my level was ok. I got a glucometer so now I’ll check my sugar 4 times a day at home, hoping it goes well. The dr was hopeful I wont need meds this time since my levels seem to be much lower than they were w/ Caleb. she also mentioned the med I was on w/ caleb is controversial and they dont use it so if I need it I’ll have to take insulin. She was suprised I did ok on that med w/ Caleb, makes me wonder what is wrong w/ it and maybe thats why I had such a rough third trimester w/ him. who knows. I have a regular ob appt tomorrow morning, I’ll update after that one too.

speaking of weight and pregnancy, I hate maternity clothes. I bought two pair of pants and they are still too big! I thought they’d fit just fine but I cant wear them. I wore a pair of the jeans today and it drove me nuts, they kept falling down. The next size down never fits me. It’s very annoying. I cant wear my normal pants because they are uncomfortable but the ones that are too big are just as uncomfy. just another pregnancy complaint!!