Wisdom from my walk

Mondays suck sometimes. So far the best part of the day was Dean being off today for the holiday, yeah I know most people were off Friday but Dean had today off instead. I’m grateful that’s for sure. We had lunch at a chinese buffet, it was delish! the baby slept the whole time while for once Caleb didnt want to eat. I should have known that was a bad sign. By the time we got home from lunch and some shopping Caleb was asleep and had a fever, he awoke when we got home and fought a nap until just a little bit ago. Boaz is finally eating a little better but his nasal congestion is worsening as the day goes on, we’re checking his temp frequently to make sure he’s ok since he’s so young it scares me that he might get a fever too.

we took Dean’s car to the shop to get the neccessary repairs to make it pass the emissions test which it already failed. His car was a gift to us and has been an expense since adding it to our insurance doubled our premium. We were expecting the repairs to be under $300 but now they said it will cost around $600 and we’re just not sure we’re willing to keep putting more money into a car that isnt absolutely neccessary, especially after shelling out a good deal of money in the last month in repairs on my car. its only been about 6 months since we became a 2 car family and we dont use the second car often enough for it to be worth the extra insurance premium a month. so it’s been a hassle today deciding what to do with it. we need to either get rid of the car or make repairs and get it rechecked and have it pass emissions by January 12th, fun stuff. I hate making adult decisions sometimes! ironically for at least these next two weeks we need a second car since Dean’s carpool partner’s wife is having a baby so he needs to drive himself to work. what great timing!! oh well, looks like I’ll be either at home w/out a car or taking him to and from work until his carpool buddy returns from leave. I admit I love the fact he carpools, it’s spoiled me greatly to have to not have to take Dean to and from work or to let him take my car so I can get out during the day. so we’ll see what happens.

The kids are sleeping and I probably should be too since I’ve been battling a migraine all day, as has Dean as well. But now it’s time to get dinner ready before we go pick up Dean’s car at the shop and then he’s heading to pick up above carpool buddy at the airport since his wife was sent to the hospital by her ob this afternoon after he left to go out of town this morning for a few days, he literally was only gone a few hours before having to come back. I really feel for them, I’d be a mess if I was in their situation! Needless to say, It’s been a strangely interesting day around here!

Spending the new year w/ my baby!!

Caleb celebrating the new year

Dean & Caleb at the New Years Party – check out Dean’s shoes, my hubby is truly unique and thats why I love him, even if his shoes are ugly!!

we ended up having a great new years. Caleb stayed up til 1 am even! I know we are bad parents, but he partied and had a ball. He crashed in the car on the way home from the party. Boaz nursed when we got there and slept, while everyone passed him around so he was held all night long, and nursed again right after we celebrated the new year. So it was a nice evening. I even got to play games since both kids were taken care of by other people, it was great! thats the good thing about having friends who like kids! Boaz and Caleb were the only kids there but it was fine. Caleb loves our friends and they all love him. They played with him all night and kept him busy or held and loved on Boaz while Dean and I had fun socializing and enjoying the night.

Well, Boaz is almost 6 weeks old and I think he has his first cold. Calebs been battling a cough for at least a week and now Boaz isnt eating well, he’s barely nursed since last night. His little nose is all stuffy, we can hear how congested his is but we cant seem to get anything to come out when we suction his nose. it’s strange. He’s still wetting diapers so I guess I shouldnt worry yet but if hes still not eating tomorrow I guess I”ll have to call the doctor. I was dreading the baby getting sick and I am praying he starts to want to eat soon, #1 because he needs to and # 2, my poor body needs him to nurse soon. I’ve actually had to pump again for the first time in weeks. I hate having to since the boy still wont take a bottle. I tried that again today since I had pumped and he didnt want anything to do with it. Silly spoiled little boy!! ah, he’s only a few weeks old he cant possibly been spoiled right?

I just wanted to update while I had a minute. The baby has definitely kept me from updating here like I want, I always want to write but I only think about it really when I’m nursing and one handed typing is not very fun! Hope everyone had a great new year! we sure did! I’m looking forward for another amazing year!

I keep getting on Dean about not updating his blog but lately I’ve been slacking as well. Today we invited Caleb’s preschool classmates and parents over for a playdate since there is no school this week. A few of his friends came and we had a great time. The kids play really well together and it was nice to get to talk to other moms. I’d really like to do this on a more regular basis and one of the moms seemed interested so we’ll see.

I keep forgetting tomorrow is New Years Eve. Somehow the holiday season is confusing me alot, I guess it has a lot with missing out on Thanksgiving, and that usually sets you up for the other upcoming holidays, or at least for me it does. and this year its like the last 2 months are all a blur. I dont mind it really, but I wish i felt like I could celebrate and get into things more. I dont know how to expect tomorrow evening to go, we’re planning to go to a friends house for a party if we all feel better, Caleb’s getting back to normal after a cold but Dean and I are feeling pretty bad today. We’ll be taking the kiddos with us so I dont know how much I’ll really get to enjoy the evening. I feel like I cant do anything social and enjoy it, so today was nice. I didnt mind nursing amidst other moms, and especially another nursing mom. It’s when we go out with our single young adult friends that I feel odd and have tried to have to not nurse while we’re out with them. I know it might just be me, but I dont want to offend anyone while nursing, and it’s not like I’m not discreet, it’s just I know in the past they’ve not understood what it’s like for us to have to be parents and do things so I doubt they’ll understand how hard nursing is let alone that its not easy sometimes when you have to worry how it’ll affect those around you. I’m even considering not attending our current young adult group for awhile, we currently have a babysitter for our weekly meetings, but I tend to have to nurse during the time we are there so I dont really get to participate so I may as well just stay home and nurse in the comfort of my own home instead of try to attend and be disconnected. Not to mention we just found out our current sitter wont be able to do it anymore so we dont know what will be happening with caleb during that time. Not sure why I got off on that tangent, mostly because I’m not really looking forward to trying to get out and be social tomorrow when I know it will be challenging due to nursing and caleb. it’s hard when your kids are the only one being tagged along to events, you want to be involved but it’s not really fun when you feel like your kids cant be there and be happy, that or you have to constantly be on them to behave or in the babies case to worry about when he needs to nurse and trying to figure out where you will nurse so you’re not nursing in public. sorry for the complaining just worrying in advance about what should be a fun night out, dean says this sets us up for a failed evening but I want to be realistic, and taking a 5 week old and a 3 year old to an adult party isnt exactly realistic. blah! not that we could really leave the baby with a sitter since he wont take a bottle, but I really wish we could. I think I may just decide to spend the new year at home with my boys. it would be so much easier!!

I’m hoping to at least get out with Dean for a date in a few weeks to celebrate my birthday but know even then the baby might have to tag along due to feeding issues. if the boy would take a bottle we’d be fine but he’s so spoiled w/ my nursing him on demand that he wants nothing to do with it. he’ll barely take a pacifier when we offer it. this is so different then with caleb who took bottles and a pacifier from almost day one. it’ s good I guess but it’s hard, so very hard. well gotta run, the baby was laying on my lap and his diaper just leaked all over my leg, fun fun fun.

Just a quick update, Boaz had his a drs appointment. He last went when he was 5 days old, then he weighed 6 lbs 5 oz, today, at 5 weeks old he weighed 9 lbs 5 0z!! A whopping 3 lb gain! We were concerned at how much he was eating and since I”m nursing there’s no way to know if he’s getting enough, add to that his constant spitting up and we were a little worried. But guess he’s doing just fine, as the dr put it, that must be some good moo juice! They expect them to gain 2 lbs a month, so he’s just great, exceedingly so even. He was 19 inches long at birth and now is at 20 ( it may have been 20 1/2 I cant remember but it was at least 20 inches) inches long!! he’s doing wonderfully and didnt have to get shots this time, next time he will. just wanted to update and will get a 5 week pic up later!