Wisdom from my walk

Boaz in his jump-up, he really did smile, not sure why I only got a serious looking pic out of him

Boaz on 3.1.05

Happy Birthday Cake 3.3.05

Yellow Flower Cake

My hubby turns 27 today. I never am able to get him anything that #1 he doesnt know about or #2 I cant hide from him.(because I am so anxious to give him his gifts). This year was different. they weren’t great gifts, just ones I put lots of thought into. I got him this as a gag gift, I told him he needs to wear it while working out! Dean working out= fatal error. Sorry I thought it was funny. I also got him a deep fryer. he’s been shopping around for one for months and just wouldnt commit, said he didnt want to spend the money, so I did it for him. Now I can make yummy bbq wings! Mmmmm! I intended to make a computer cake for him, and had the pan. The pan did not come w/ instructions but had ideas, one being to use it to make it a huge rice krispy treat cake. I loved that idea as rice krispy treats are one of Dean’s favorites. unfortunately since there werent instructions I blotched the job and we ended up just cutting it up and he took them to work. They tasted good but I couldnt get them to come out of the pan in the computer shape. I’m dissapointed about that.

Unfortunately for Dean we had a very busy day. He and Caleb went to preschool, Dean stayed to fulfill our coop duties. While they were there Bo and I went to the lab for 2 hours to get my glucose tolerance test, blah! We picked them up from school, came home grabbed lunch then Dean went to the gym, the mva and the grocery store while I baked and decorated two cakes. (3, one died, I tried to use a new cake mold) We had little time to get much else done before heading to our life group(bible study for those who dont know those terms). We got in after 10 and had laundry to put away and a messy house to clean. Fun day, I would have hated it if it was my birthday. Dean didnt mind, except he had a huge migraine.

Today seems to be almost as equally as busy. I think all week has been busy, we’ve had something to do every day and night this week. I”m just now feeling like I’m catching up on laundry and housework. I’m beginning to feel very overwhelmed by the house and kids and our social obligations. it doesnt take much, I think adding in the gym has eaten up a lot of time too that we didnt have before. I think things wouldnt be that bad if I wasnt suffering from migraines and fatigue all of the time, but thus is my life.

Well the baby has been asleep for almost 4 hours and that’s odd for him so I think I’ll wake him or else he might be up all night. oooh the hubby’s home early too! yeah!! now we can make it to that 6 pm kid birthday party on time….wohoo!

I’ve been telling Dean that for a long time. He keeps claiming he wants to run a marathon, one day I am sure he will. Neither Dean and I are very active people. These last 3 weeks I’ve done some sort of working out at least 2-3 days a week. Dean went to Ballys with a friend last night to work out. He is excited because this person knows what he’s doing and was able to tell Dean what to do. Now he wants to switch gyms. I dont want to though because I’ve been to our current gym more and to start was a challenge as is. for some reason I think the fitness level of people at the Y is less intimidating then that of those that attend ballys and that’s a big issue for me. Not to mention the kid friendly things at the Y.

I started attending a step aerobic class this morning. Its from 6:30am-7:15. I was exhausted to begin with, I got up and fed the baby around 5:40. I got dressed and headed to the Y. Took a class and for the first time in a while took an uninterupted shower, that was heavenly! I left feeling revitilized and awake, but I also started to have another killer migraine while working out, and it’s coming and going. Once home I found that despite my goal to go early while all of the boys slept, they had been awake. boaz always eats briefly around 5:30 then falls right back to sleep, when I left he was wide awake, I figured it was just another attempt to sway me from going and I didnt give in. I laid him next to Dean and left. Dean told me Caleb woke at 6:30, something new for him but this is day 2 of that so we’re going to have to either go back to letting him stay up later or get used to him being up so early, I prefer the prior. So already this morning I’ve worked out showered and even gotten dinner ready for us and a family that just had a baby. Last night I put stuff to make pulled chicken bbq in the crockpot and let it cook all night. I just finished pulling it apart and added more bbq sauce, it will be done shortly. My day is off to a good start, minus the migraine of course! I’m hoping to get the boy out of the house finally, now that theres no snow or none expected today.

I’m feeling hopeful about my working out, and despite my lack of coordination I managed in class just fine today. The instructor was great and understanding when I fumbled a bit, afterward he was very encouraging. I’m hoping to make Dean go with my on the days I dont have class so we can work out in the weight room, if I can convince him to go with me and not a guy buddy. I’m afraid I wont do it if I have to do it by myself.

Well the boy was tolerant enough to let my write some but now he’s getting demanding, as is the babe so gotta run. I’m hoping this burst of energy isnt related to my high sugar level again this morning and that I’m not going to have a big crash of fatigue as has been the case every day when my sugars finally level out. fun stuff. I am not even doubting anymore that I’ll pass the sugar test, I’m doomed to fail it. Even after working out this moring my fasting sugar was as high as yesterday mornings taken before any exercise. So I’m doomed and depressed about it, but it also is motivating me to get my butt exercising as to avoid needing insulin. Oh fun thoughts for sure. have a good day folks!

For some strange reason this was the month to deliver babies. These are a few people we know who are celebrating birthdays between March 1-5th(if I leave you out let me know!):

Dean (on Thursday I’ll go into that one more of course)
Aaron (happy 30th!! )
Sammy ( a playmate of Caleb’s)
Jason and his daughter Willoweve
Jared
Craig
Mike
Audrey
Karen(well her’s isnt til the 12th but I’ll squeeze her in the list 😉 )

And I’m sure I forgot someone, I’ve got a migraine, this is day 3, I think that I’ve had one.

As a kid you love snow days, you never think about how it affects your parents. As a mom I hate snow days, and of course the kiddo loves snow. If it wasnt snowing so hard right now I’d take the boy out in it, but he’ll have to wait for daddy to get home, if and when that ever happens. At least this time they didnt bother to ask Dean to stay at a hotel overnight to insure that he’d be at work tomorrow, I’m mad enough he’s still at work. I’m going to worry until he steps foot inside the house. I hate snow, it’s pretty if you can sit inside all day and snuggle with the ones you love, but I’ve only got 2/3 of the people I want to snuggle with. I’m hoping it snows enough to keep the other one home tomorrow but I know it wont happen.

I’ve been reading some peoples blogs who I used to be very close with but no longer talk to. For some reason I feel like I’m spying on them. I have no problem reading complete strangers blogs but it feels odd being able to check in on people I still care for to see whats going on in there lives even though I dont see or talk to them anymore. Not that its completely my fault I’m not talking to them, I’ve done my part to mend things with them but for some of them they just dont want to be a part of my life. Thats fine and although I dont understand their feelings or reasonings I accept that they have closed the door to our friendship, I just wish that I didnt still care so deeply for people so that I could close the door. I have this thing about not giving up on people, and luckily in the past it’s helped me be able to regain old friendships. I think the hardest part right now is not understanding why someone wont forgive me for something I did a long time ago, especially when what I did didnt involve them. Argh. I’m all emotion today about it and not sure why. May have to do with the amazing time I spent with my church family today at a going away luncheon for a family in our life group. It reminds me of the friends I moved away and left. Now that I’m back “home” I’ve found new relationships that are amazing, but it still is hard to look back at the past sometimes and wonder what might have been if time and distance hadnt gotten in the way of things. Life is hard, friendship is hard.

Caleb getting ready to play in the snow.

Boaz in his sled today, 2.25.05

I cant wait til next year when Boaz can really enjoy the snow, for now he’s just indulging us and letting us enjoy seeing him with his big brother out in it.

Last night we bundled Bo up and put him in his sled. We all walked to the park so Caleb could use his sled. Boaz fell asleep on the way and slept all the way there and once home. We were all freezing and had red faces, Boaz was completely warm and looked untouched by the cold, but we did have him bundled up a lot!

Boaz looking cute as always, 2.25.05