Wisdom from my walk

So sinc it’s a long weekend for Dean I told him that starting last night he was to get up w/ the baby through the night since Boaz has been getting up at 2 am and staying in our bed nursing almost non stop til around 6 am which has left me w/ little to no sleep. So last night I went to sleep fully expecting to have to get up and nurse Bo since he doesnt always take a bottle, but I didnt have to get him til 6 am. Dean said he got up at 2 sharp and he gave him a 2 oz bottle of bm and he went back to sleep in his crib, not waking again til 6! He nursed a little at 6 then I put him back in his bed and we all slept(caleb included) til 8:40!!! We let dean sleep a little longer then headed out looking for yard sales.

it’s a long weekend for Dean and we have nothing aside from church scheduled to do. I got a good long nap this afternoon and now Dean’s powerwashing the house and I’m supposed to be taking the kids outside….but I wanted a minute to write. So it’s been so relaxing for me today, something I really needed! I hope all weekend is like this. But Calebs getting bored w/ our no plans since he likes to keep busy so we’re going to have to come up w/ something to do for him soon! so off to play outside….have a good weekend everyone!

Boaz on 5.18.05

Boaz 5.18.05

We got Caleb a new bike, bigger than the ones he had. he loves to ride it to the nearby park/playground

He keeps getting so big, it amazes me!

boaz is getting big too, 5.27.05

Boaz 5.27.05

Caleb came up to me with a picture in his hand; it was of Boaz when he was just born laying in the hospital bassinet and Caleb looking down at him. caleb showed me the picture and asked me how many babies we were going to get. I asked you mean how many more babies one day? And yes he asked how many more babies were we going to get and I told him I didnt know. I asked him if he wants a boy or a girl baby and he said a girl. His reply to my asking him when he wanted a baby girl he said today. I told him to remember how long it took for Boaz to visit us and how big mommy’s belly had to be first and he said that was a long time ago. He then decided he’d go show off the picture to Boaz and tell him about it. I cant believe he’d want another baby since he’s always trying to get me to not nurse Bo because it interferes w/ his plans for our day! 😉 Ive convinced him feeding a bottle to Boaz takes longer than mommy just feeding him, and w/ Boaz it’s true! So he’s not as annoyed but he does get mad if we say we were leave to do something after I feed Bo, he hates that. So I’m suprised he’d want another baby to keep me busy. For the record there will not be baby # 3 anytime soon in the McKenzie home, even if we all think it would be nice.

I can barely believe that it’s been 6 months since we welcomed boaz into our home. He’s been such a sweet addition to our family and fits in so easily. he doesnt mind our hectic running around and loves people as much as his daddy and big brother do(I’m the only intervert in this household) He wows us daily with new tricks, his biggest accomplishment of late is sitting up . He is not far from pulling himself up unto things as he keeps trying to climb out of the stroller or high chair if he’s not tied down! I’ve even had to catch him from climbing out of the bouncy seat he used to sit so contently in while I showered! He’s a great roller and while he cant “crawl” per se he sure gets around. He scoots around like crazy and gets to where he wants to be either by rolling or scooting. As I write he’s got himself stuck from all the moving! The best part of having 2 boys is seeing them intereact. Caleb is Boaz’s instant comic relief as soon as he sees him he’s giggling. Today Caleb even helped Bo up after he fell over from sitting up, Caleb righted him and was so proud of himself and of Bo for sitting up. It’s amazing to see the love between them at such an early age. I love both my boys and despite the busyness it requires I’d say I’d be more than willing to one day have a 3rd, although I still think I’d like a girl, except I’d have to learn how to be a mom to a girl, I already have a grasp on boys so far so it might be a lot of work to have a girl. what am I talking about…no # 3 anytime soon folks. Well I’ve got a houseful again today, just wanted to take the time to mark this special day. happy 6 months my Bo Bo baby!!

We spent the day running around to drs appointments, one for me and one for Boaz. The good news, Boaz is healthy and his ear infection is gone. (despite the fact he’s been pulling on both ears for a week now, that’s how I knew he had the ear infection to begin with, dr said looks like he’s discovered his ears, geez the money we pay drs for the simple things) No bad news per se about my appointment, I’ve gained almost 10 lbs in a month, which I really had some but little control over. It hit me hard, seeing that number on the scale, especially after losing so much weight so quickly. yes I know it’s easy to rebound but it’s a lot harder to control your weight when you’re dealing with an autoimmune disease that screws up your metabolish. I knew a sign of my thyroid going to the other extreme was weight gain but I wasnt prepared for it yet or so much so quickly. I’m determined to fight back(w/ exercise), but was hoping to at least get a dx for the tingling problem first.

I dont have another appt for that, my neurological stuff, til next Wednesday so I’m still deciding if I’ll work out between now and then to see how I feel and risk making things worse or just eat little to nothing in the next week to try to keep the lbs off as much as I can control with this condition. The dr today still is sticking w/ the weight(pun on words of course) and see method of treatment since my thryoid really isnt treatable yet as the levels keep flucutating too much. So I go back for blood work in a while, or sooner if my symptoms get worse. I dont mind really the waiting to treat the thyroid, it’s the unknown neuro. symptoms that are freaking me out. Dean’s got me all stressed about possibly having MS and I wont talk to the neurologist til next week so until then I just wait and worry. I know I’ve been tested for this in the past but I dont know if it’s something you can develop pver time or if I’d need another spinal tap to check again for it. The other option is still nerve damage and the dr today thinks that is what it is but he’s not treating that so I have to wait. It’s so frustrating. I’m sure no matter what it is is life threatening as i’ve been feeling this way for at least 2 months now but it’s still scary to feel like this every day and not know what is going on.

As we speak my boys, all 3, are asleep on one couch. Bo barely slept at all today and Caleb had no nap and well dean never gets a nap so they all just crashed while cuddling, it’s so cute. I think I’ll let them stay there as long as they do on their own, it’s too precious and I dont want to wake the sleeping baby! So I’m sitting here w/ Toy Story 2 still playing as the boy was watching it before he feel asleep and surfing the net. I’m about bored though so I think I’ll stop procrastinating and work on the laundry then find something to do, maybe read a book for once…..I know I should enjoy this quiet because I found out a little while ago that I’ll be babysitting the kids tomorrow and Wednesday, which is fine but will keep me busy and tired so it’s kind of nice having this relaxing time this evening so I can at least rest up for the next two days. caleb is thrilled of course to have his friends coming over again this week. It’s good because he wont have preschool anymore so this will keep him busy for a few days this week, and me too!

sorry for the rambling, still procrastinating doing the laundry…oh well, I”ll suck it up and get to work….have a great week!!!

Surefire ways to keep 2 preschoolers, a toddler and an infant busy(and in the process wear out 1 mommy & 1 daddy):

*play at indoor playground at local mall(when it’s raining)

*Play at state park

*Go to a Milkshake concert at the library(hey Lisa told us they shot a video for Noggin recently so be on the lookout!!! we’re stoked about that!)

*then after all of that send 2 kids home then take a walk/bike ride for about 30 minutes in our neighborhood

needless to say I’m a little tired, and Dean too! Did I mention all of the above happened in the last 24 hours! shew!

Normal MRI results. what’s that mean? who the heck knows but I keep getting told it’s a good thing…..they “ruled something else out” yeah so back to square one, no one knows what the _ is wrong w/ me. sorry I’m grateful the results were normal but I hate dealing with doctors who dont know what to do or what the problem could be. this is really getting old. I wouldnt care so much if I wasnt sitting here w/ the same symptoms I’ve had for a couple of months now. It’s really getting to be a pain. Starting to wonder why I’m dishing out $25 a visit to specialist who cant help me. Oh yeah, I get to see the other specialist on monday, this ought to be fun…..have I mentioned how much I’m starting to hate this? wohoo for normal test results….I know it’s good but I”ll be happier when they can give me concrete answers.