Wisdom from my walk

Today we went to the library to see the Zoomobile presentation. I knew it was at 10:30 am but I also Knew I had to make it to the store to get cake supplies and have a cake baked and decorated before the day was through. I decided for caleb’s sake we’d make it to the library despite my overfilled day. He’d seen this presentation at his school before and I never told him where we were going or what for til we actually were there and he was so excited. This pic is of Caleb and Boaz watching together, it’s such a sweet pic!

Butterfly Cake, 6.7.05

Caleb is missing preschool. It has ended for the summer and while he cant voice this he shows it in many ways. My son is one of the kids who is used to always “doing” something. Before Boaz I’d have him always on the go, to the park, to a concert somewhere, the library…anywhere kid friendly that he’d enjoy. Since Boaz that is harder to. So now that he’s out of school I”m finding I need to have more things on hand to occupy him. Last week we stocked up on new craft supplies, being the boy he is, he wanted “beadles” aka beads to make necklaces and bracelets with. Dean loves that! Today I used my cake/cupcake holder as a water table and he loves it!! Luckily I have 3 of these containers and after seeing his enjoyment of it it’s going to be a great thing for him to do!!

Notice more “boyish” toys to make up for his girly desires to be “crafty” and wear dress up clothes. I’m sure he’ll turn out just fine, but I’ve got to get him playing w/ his cars more!! so here at least he’s got some boats!

Would you believe it’s the second day of 80+ temps in Baltimore and Walmart is already out of sprinkler toys?!? Well last week I picked up this slip and slide for a whopping $5! It states for ages 5-12 but we ignored that recommendation! So after trying to find a sprinkler for more his age and failing and I set up the slide anyway. he cant understand how to run and slide which drove me mad trying to explain, and there was no way I was going to show him, that water was freezing! But he still had a ball, the water sprays up so it is somewhat like a sprinkler and slide all in one so it was perfect.

When Caleb was 6 months old it was January. By the summer time, actually around 9 months he was walking. We spent his first summer outdoors playing in a small pool or doing other things indoors. Remind me never to have a baby in the winter!! It’s hard to occupy a 6 month old and a busy preschoolers. I’ve already gotten sick of dragging out a big blanket for Bo to play on since he always ends up in the dirt or grass anyway! It’s too big of a hassle to set up the playpen unless we’ll be out there for a longer period of time. Today I got smart! I picked up this baby pool that has a cool quilted inflatable bottom so it’s soft. The sides keep Boaz in, for now at least! He loved sitting there playing w/ toys and watching his big brother play! It’s definitely harder to go out and play w/ one Bo’s age but I”m learing some good tricks but I definitely will do better to plan to have our next child in the fall so that they’ll be mobile and if like Caleb walking early so they can keep up w/ the older two. I have no doubt by 10 months Bo will be walking as he’s already very mobile for a 6 month old. he’s now pulling up on toys and in the tub and just about everywhere!

Today, on top of all those fun things above, we had Boaz’s 6 month check up. I know he’s smaller than most of the babies born after him at our church. I just didnt know how much smaller til today. My little lightweight only weighs 15 lbs 9 oz. Although he’s a tall 26 1/2 inches, which explains why those 3-6 months clothes arent snapping right at the crotch! He fared well and is doing great for having had two shots, a little sleepy but not at all as fussy as I’d thought he’d be. I’ve yet to even have to give him any tylenol. he screamed after the first shot then when done he stopped crying when Caleb made him laugh! What a great big brother! Hope everyone else is having a great Monday!

Lego Cake for First Birthday

Big Lego Cake

Happy 1st Birthday Jack!

Just saw the strangest thing…while driving home from the drs office I saw an MTA bus that instead of scrolling the destination it said CALL POLICE EMERGENCY. So I did my duty pulled over and called, I was the 2nd caller and told them where the bus was heading. Now I”m dying to know what was happening on the bus…guess I’ll watch the news tonight and hope it’ll say. Very interesting indeed….did I mention this is the first time I’ve ever had to call 911! Guess it’s good it wasnt for something wrong w/ me or my kids….or else I’m sure I’d be too freaked out to know what to do. Say a pray that everyone is ok who is on that bus….

We’ve had a busy day today. I had an early drs appt and then I watched the kids all day. I made it home to pick up Dean and get some chinese for dinner. After cleaning up a bit I headed to the grocery store, alone!! ah that was nice! While there the boys headed for a walk to the park. Boaz had his second bottle of the day and went to bed w/out nursing! I came home from the store and he was already in bed. he drained a bottle this morning too, this weaning process might be easier than I imagined! He also slept through the night til 6 amlast night, ok he woke once but Dean gave him a pacifier and he went back to sleep.

So I know you want to know what the dr said right. Well I hate to even go back to that part of my day for fear I’ll get upset and angry. I’m sure my being busy today has helped me forget about how mad I was this morning. I had an 8:30 appt, I was called back to the room around 8:50 and was out of the office by 9:00. What happened in that 10 minutes was a complete waste of my freaking $25 copay or any money at all. My dr said what I already knew, my test results were normal. he did a quick exam, which DID NOT include a blood pressure check even. He said he didnt know what was causing my symptoms and that sometimes having no answer is better than bad news. I disagreed w/ him several times and he kept basically saying that same thing, that he didnt know what was wrong w/ me and that is better than him telling me something is really wrong. He said it’s good we know it’s not a tumor or MS. I am unsure of how positive he is that it’s not MS as the only defining test result he had for that was the MRI and everything I’ve read said that in order to diagnose MS there’s a ton of things to check. Oh well…..his “plan” is to wait to see me again in 2 months and hope that this goes away as suddenly as it started. I swear that is what he said. I told him I’ve been having trouble w/ my speech, stuttering and he said Oh…and said thats odd. Really this used to be my favorite doctor. Today I’m just mad I wasted my time this morning and my friends who kept the kids for me. So my “plan” is not the same as this genius’, I am calling tomorrow to make an appt w/ my primary care dr to see what other options I have and to see if I can get a referral to either a different neurologist or some other dr who might be able to figure this out. I havent been able to work out because of this and when I mentioned that to him he didnt even respond to what I said. I’m so frustrated, yet Dean says I should have stood up for myself and asked for him to do something. If I had done that I would have been in tears and angry and I couldnt do that. I’m suprised I’m not more bummed about this actually, I guess it just isnt too big a suprise because of how things went when I got the MRI results from his office. So despite my high hopes of finding out what great plans the dr had to treat or diagnose me were thrown out the window. I can barely believe he said the things he said, it’s almost like the whole thing was a dream, a bad dream. Now you know why I HATE doctors. Tomorrow I dont have to babysit and I think it’s the one day I dont have plans this week! Except for laundry and working on some things for Sunday school. but the most important thing I’m doing tomorrow is taking a nap when the boys do…I have been so tired it’s ridiculous yet I’ve been too busy to rest. I’ve barely gotten more than 5 hours of sleep a night and then I am out all day and night so I dont get any rest at all. I’m only up typing now because I’m not feeling well and I have a few more things to do before I can go to bed. Well off to finish up so I can maybe get a decent amt of sleep tonight.

Anyone got some extra energy they can send my way!??! Last week at the dr he told me to get more bloodwork done when I started to feel worse. Guess that time is now. Since the end of last week the fatigue has gotten worse. I know I keep myself way too busy but what was keeping me busy for the last two weeks is the same as now and instead of getting through the day and not feeling tired, i’m not wiped out around 10 am if not sooner! I knew the day was coming soon, as the scale keeps creeping up no matter what I do so looks like sooner than later I’ll be able to start taking meds to treat my thyroid problem, at least I hope. then I’ll feel better…like I said I hope….I hate feeling so tired! I’m dreading my appt in the morning and it’s not helping me to feel much better so I guess I”ll just go cuddle w/ my boys instead of getting depressed about my miserable state.

We had a really laid back 3 day weekend. The most we accomplished, ok that Dean accomplished was powerwashing most of the siding on the house. I’ve had killer allergies all weekend, the worst being yesterday. I couldnt decide if it was from new dryer sheets or other airborn allergens, but tonight it’s back w/ a vengeance after attending a cookout at friends who have cats, but I’m also wearing a shirt that was dried w/ those darn new dryer sheets. I am trying not to take benadryl because it does make Bo extremely groggy, and me too! but I think after he nurses before bed tonight I am going to or I wont sleep well.

I’ll be babysitting again tomorrow and maybe Wednesday. I have my appt w/ the neurologist on Wed morning, pretty early, 8 or 8:30 I think. So I’ll update after that if I dont have the kids, if I do have the kids then I’ll update that night. I’m planning a LEGO cake for my nephews first birthday this weekend so I’m excited about that and trying to work it out in my head. I love making new designs, or rather new things up. I’ve seen pics online of some LEGO cakes but I want to make something original so I’m still working out the details. So hopefully that all goes well.

No other big plans this week that I can think of, if these allergies keep up I’ll be seeing my PCP too for something I can take while nursing. Nursing…ah this weekend I was planning on staring the weaning process, adn while Dean was able to give a bottle through the night on Friday I’m too lazy at night to mess w/ a bottle when I can just nurse so I didnt do so well. but Boaz has been taking at least a bottle a day during the day and he’s loving baby food. he really wants to eat our food, but after having him choke on peices of bread and his biter biscuit today I’m not rushing it even if he is grabbing for our food and fussing when we dont share our meal with him.

well I have some things to do before bed so have a good week and I’ll try to update after my appt, hopefully some sort of news as to what is causing my neuro symptoms.