Wisdom from my walk

goodness the pain!!! seems to be worse when I’m sitting down for some reason.  We went for a walk after dinner and it wasnt as painful as this morning but now that I am home again I am so uncomfy.   Dean just went back to work to try to catch up on some work since his co-workers have been out most of the week.    I am going to spend some time packing clothes for the weekend.  I was going to scrapbook but sitting is so uncomfortable right now.

We got tickets to see Harry Potter at the Udvar-Hazy center imax for Saturday evening.     We were planning on seeing a movie and when I saw that was at the Imax I got excited.  I’ve read the Harry Potter books, i think one more than Dean has and I’d been wanting to see it, but with the kids and all it’s kind of hard.  So since we were going to see a movie or show anyway, going to the Imax sounded fun and it’s close to the hotel.   Dean wanted to go to that musuem anyway so we’ll walk around there for a bit in the afternoon then go to the movie then catch some dinner.    I think we’re meeting a couple we met at an Emergent meeting on Saturday for lunch so the day is shaping up to be busy but relaxing!  I’m hoping to get some swimming in at the hotel pool in the morning, it looks so nice in the pics on their website and I remember swimming while preggo w/ the other two kids and esp. during the end like this it will be heavenly!   most of all hoping to get some sleeping in on Saturday morning but not sure how that will work since I’ve been waking up at almost exactly 6:40 a.m. every morning, about 20 minutes before Dean’s alarm even goes off, it’s quite annoying!   So hoping I can get myself to sleep longer this weekend.  well I need to get up and get moving, sitting is really hurting this evening.  dont know if it’s cause he’s sitting so low or what but the pain is getting to me.  I hope this kid at least stays put til Monday so we can have a nice weekend out!   but after that I’m all set for an early delivery!!

Boys room with curtains I got on ebay.   I looked a lot for curtains to match the orange walls, and these are perfect!  there’s red in Caleb’s comforter too and yellow in both his and Bo’s comforters so it works.

the only thing I’ve done new to the nursery for the new baby is put up these cute John Lennon wallies that I also got on ebay.

well tomorrow, so we’ll just act like it ok?  that means 35 weeks down, 4 at most left to go.   My appt went well today, ultrasound confirmed he’s dropped down some, she couldnt even get any pics of his head this time because his head was so low.   She also didnt tell me how much he weighed, but not like it really matters at this point.   Next came weight check, down another pound on the scale, wohoo!

Then the nst, or non stress test.   which really is stressful for the mom underoing it which I think is ironic for it’s name.   So I have to hold the heartbeat monitor the whole time since they can never get it in a good spot so I have to hold it the whole time, which is stressful in and of itself.   Compared to yesterday I am still contracting but not as bad as yesterday but I also havent been as active today, although I did manage in a 20 min. walk w/ Bo in the stroller this morning.  so back to the test….Baby # 3 is very active as always.   My biggest concern was that the contrax. werent going to show up on the nst again.   But they did in fact, and I asked the ob about it, told her how I’d felt all day yesterday and today and that I was determined not to mention it unless they showed up on the monitor since every other time I think i am but arent via the monitor.   So she says I’m contracting about once every 10 minutes but that they arent that strong, I’m thinking that it’s a good thing I am not having to endure labor cause they may not be that strong to her but to me it’s killing my back and stomach!!   Since I see a different dr everytime and I guess they dont note if I mention spotting or anything, she asks about the change in intensity of contrax and if I thought I’d lost  my mucus plug which of course I discussed, and with her even I think, 2 weeks ago and even had spotting last week as well.   She looked suprised and said that since the contrax. arent changing my cervix yet that we’ll just wait and see what happens and that they’ll check me again next week to see if anythings changed, since I go on Monday I guess if things get worse we’ll find out then.    So I’m kind of glad the contrax. actually got picked up by the nst, I know the pain and uncomfiness I’m having isnt just in my head and while my cervix isnt dilating at least the dr knows something is going on!   I need to go back and see if I dilated at 36 or 37 weeks with Boaz, either way that’s only a week or two away and if I dilate too much they’ll do the c-section sooner, and since each pregnancy ends sooner than the last…I’m a little more hopeful that the kid will arrive before 39 weeks.    My biggest confusion is I know that I’m contracting every 10 minutes and while she said it’s not strong contractions, I know they say to call when you have more than 4 contractions and hour and well folks you can do the math.  So I guess unless my water breaks or I cant manage the pain I will just wait it out.   Debating taking the kids for a walk since the weather is so nice, but I might wait to go after dinner so it helps lower my post dinner sugar level.    Been walking every day this week since Tuesday so far in an attempt to get things moving and to keep my blood sugars down.    but it’s so uncomfy now that he’s so low.

In name news, we really havent decided!  I cant believe it but we havent.   Jokingly Dean said yesterday we should each pick a name at random that we like to add to the two we each like already, then when we are at the hospital we’ll have 4 names to choose from, here I was thinking isnt having to decide between two names hard enough already!    So, so far we have one E name, and both of my other names do not start w/ an E.   Dean said while it was his idea, he was just joking and has yet to come up with our 4th name choice.   Two of the names I have have Reese as the middle name, after my deceased great grandparents.   the other has an E middle name, since I felt bad about breaking the E idea.   So knows what we’ll end naming this kid; I am trying to not stress over the fact we cant agree on a name!!  I mean we like all of the names, its just hard for me to say yes that’s what this kid will go by for his whole lifetime as a name!!!   i’m sure it wouldnt be so hard if we didnt get so much crap for the name Boaz.

So things are moving right along and before we know it our 3rd baby boy will be in our arms!  I’m excited and have been nesting so bad these last two days.  I’ve actually had energy which makes me think that labor might be sooner than later, since I’m usually so tired all day.   I worked some more in the nursery to get it ready yesterday and will try to get pics up later on now that that room is ready and with the boys’ room complete w/ new curtains things are looking good.     Waiting til after this weekend to wash up some baby clothes and get them put away.    Dean and I head out tomorrow evening and I’m looking forward to the time away w/ my hubby!  One last weekend of peace before being even more outnumber by males in this house!!

the last w/ us as a family of 4 before Baby # 3 comes around….

today Boaz had his 15 month check up(more like 15 1/2 months).  He only weighs 22 lbs, which is so small compared to Caleb at this age.  I mean Caleb was and has never been “fat” but still 22 lbs is small.  Bo is in the  25% for his age.  He is 31 inches tall.   He didnt get his vaccines because he is sick.   she thinks he has the rotavirus that is going around, he more than likely picked it up on Friday while playing w/ the toys in the drs waiting room when we took Caleb for strep, the dr said that’s probably where he got it!   No antibiotics though, he seems somewhat better today, no vomitting or diarrhea and he ate some more.  he’s still really fussy though but hasnt had a fever since this morning.    He has to go back in a week or so to get his vaccines once he’s feeling better.   She said he’s doing great developmentally and not to be concerned about his lack of words.  I would be concerned but he understands everything we say so it’s just a matter of him choosing not to talk.  He will occassionally talk and say things plain as day but he has to be in the mood to talk.  He’s growing up so fast, and before we know it he wont be the baby anymore, he’ll be the middle son.

if things dont change the baby will arrive a month from today on April 7th.   We went for a walk tonight after dinner and while it helped my sugar levels lower after dinner, it made me have some really bad contractions and back pain.  Reminding me why I have had to take it easy.  I’m still trying to keep up with all the housework as much as I can, and most days things are ok contraction wise but that walk reminded me why I havent been doing as much.   I was fine during the walk but as we got home and I did some housework I felt horrible.   the one thing that is getting really hard to do is drive.  it’s not that I’m so huge I cant, it’s that I am so uncomfortable sitting and I cant move around while driving to get in a comfy position.   I dont remember having that problem before, I’m guessing it’s because the baby is so low.   The pediatrician today was impressed with how good I looked for how soon I am due.   I told her it’s because I keep losing weight, that does help.   It made me feel good to hear that instead of people saying how big I am gettitng.   I mean I’m supposed to be big, I’m 9 months pregnant!   but its nice to not always have people reminding how big I am!

Dean worked a half day today to go to his dr’s appointment and I kept falling asleep since he was here w/ the kids.  I have just been so worn out and simple things like taking the kid to the dr or myself to the dr or going grocery shopping makes me exhausted.   Hoping to get in bed early tonight, just waiting on some laundry to finish before I do.

• bo is sick, really sick….he’s done nothing but lay around all day with a fever that goes away after tylenol but comes back right at the 4 hour mark for a new dose, but he is loving his diet of broth and popsicles, no really he loves soup broth, he’s a strange kid I know UPDATED: around 11 pm Boaz’s fever spiked to 103.6!  My poor little guy is so miserable!  
• i lost 2 1/2 lbs since my last appt, um that was just this past Thursday! I am still having higher than normal fasting levels along w/ spilling ketones in my urine so what’s the mean, more insulin and more stress UPDATE:  sugar levels normal for once, still spilling ketones for some reason
• dean has an appt tomorrow to discuss taking care of our fertility problems, you know to ensure not getting pregnant again!
• bo has an appt tomorrow for what should be his 15 month check up but will really be to determine if he’s got another ear infection or something, he’s only been off meds for about a week and half
• my grandmom is in the hospital after a fall yesterday that she denies happened, and now the drs are thinking she has bone cancer and are waiting test results to find out if it is that and that’s holding up their possibly doing surgery for the damaged bone; chances are she will be in the hospital for quite a while, phrases like “this could be the beginning of the end” never sounded so insincere til it affected someone in my family
• i am so stressed out I am having trouble sleeping, and if I do manage to get to sleep my darn alarm clock goes off around 3 am to remind me to get my butt out of bed, check my sugar and eat a snack, yes freaking 3 am. then I have to try to get my brain to shut up and stop stressing over all the crap going on so I can get back to sleep, it’s no wonder I almost fell asleep driving twice today.
• as if my body heard me telling a friend how the drs never were able to diagnose if I had MS or not, and never figured out what was causing my facial tingling/numbness that had continued into the first trimester then faded in the second trimester, well it’s back and almost non stop, today it feels so bad that if I didnt keep looking in the mirror I’d think my face was swollen just because it feels so odd, the ob said to check w/ the neurologist but that chances are they wont do anything since they cant do any tests now and with being so close to delivery they would probably just wait but did add that if it is MS that it will get worse during the post partum period, gee, i get to look forward to this getting worse as well as probably having post partum thyroid problems again, makes me wonder if i’d rather deliver and not be pregnant and deal w/ all of that or just deal w/ all of this other pregnancy crap
• is it Friday yet?
• and you were wondering why I am so stressed…..
• UPDATED to add ONE REALLY FUN FACT :  one month from today, March 7th is April 7th when my c-section is currently scheduled for!! so at most just a month til baby # 3 is here!!

Calebs been on medicine since Friday evening and other than being tired he is acting much better.  Yesterday I took him to see Curious George while Dean and Bo went to our friends house so Dean could help them paint and my friend watched Bo til I was done at the movie w/ Caleb.   We stayed there to play some games with them and some other friends who had planned on coming to our game night, who had already been exposed to our germs all of Thursday evening.

This morning the kids and Dean slept in while I attended the first service at church to work in nursery.   They came to the second service and we stayed for a meeting afterward then headed to a birthday party where Bo threw up all over their floor and several toys!   I brought Bo home so we could rest, but Bo took a while to get back to sleep.  he just got up and his bed was covered in throw up, so so much for Dean’s theory he just had some bad milk.    I’m guessing he’s got another ear infection or something.   His pattern of symptoms for ear infections usually goes like this, upset stomach, diaper rash, throwing up, then we take him for stomach symptoms and find out it’s just an ear infection.   who knew stomach symptoms meant ear infection but for Bo it does.  He’s got his 15 month check up on Tuesday so I’m hoping to keep him away from milk for 24 hours and see how things go and hope he doesnt get worse and need to go before his appt on Tuesday.    So while one kid is getting better the other is now sick.

Dean seems to be feeling better and I still have managed to not get it yet, praying it stays that way!  but my sugar levels are up again today and that happened right before I got sick last time, and I didnt cheat on my diet so I know it’s not from that.   I”m definitely worn out but it’s been a busy weekend so that’s probably why.

Ob appt tomorrow, Bo’s appt on Tuesday as well as Dean having an appt  that afternoon, another ob appt on Thursday, hopefully Dean and I will be going away on Friday evening for the weekend, coming back to have a shower w/ our church friends for Baby boy # 3 on Sunday.   we’re staying at a marriott hotel near dulles airport that has a pool and whirlpool, and hoping to go see a show in D.C. or two.    I’m looking forward to the weekend very much, esp. after all this sickness but I”m also scared I’ll get sick and wont be able to go.    So pray we stay healthy and get a good getaway, only a few more weeks to baby # 3 arrives!!! i’m excited and nervous but mostly ready to be done being pregnant!