Wisdom from my walk

he has strep throat!    the good about that is that he’ll get an antibiotic and should be well enough to go to school on Monday!   The bad is Dean’s probably got it too since he’s been sick as long and as badly as Caleb, but Dean didnt ask the dr for meds for him but probably should have.  So far Bo and I arent sick w/ it but my cough is coming back.   as far as our weekend, well most of our plans are now up in the air.  At least by Sunday he will have been on meds for 24+ hours so that day should be fine.  I feel bad though for exposing so many folks to it, we were at group last night and Caleb played w/ all the kids all evening then saw my friends kids today until she got home becuase I couldnt get in touch w/ her to tell her what was going on.    He was getting better though, or so it seemed, until of course I send him to school…..He’s acting worse as the evening wears on and I am so glad I followed my intuition and took him to the dr instead of waiting.   Its Dean’s birthday and we wont get to enjoy the evening but oh well.  With any luck we’ll get a good weekend away next week, if we can find someplace closer since the ob is against our going away even just 2 hours.  I found a place in VA. near D.C. for cheaper than where we were gonna stay in PA and there’s an indoor pool and jacquzzi so that sounds good to me, less money, more privacy (it’s a hotel not a B&B) and a pool!  Plus we can find plenty to do in D.C.   well I need to find something to do for dinner….

Babysitting for a bit today, shortly after my friend dropped off her 2 kids, someone called from Calebs school and said he had a fever and a stomach ache.   hung up the phone, called Dean, decided to wake  up Boaz from his nap and go in the van w/ all 3 kids to get Caleb, luckily I had enough boosters between our car and the one in our van.    As I was getting things together, Abby (the eldest I am watching today) got a bloody nose that lasted a good 10 minutes.     About 30 minutes after the school called I was finally on my way to get Caleb, he was waiting for us in the office at the school.  He’s acting much better than I’d expect consider he has a temperature of 102.5, maybe the tylenol has kicked in.  I went ahead and made him an appt. w/ the pediatrician on call this afternoon.  He had a 103 temp on Monday and we kept him home Tuesday to rest and was seeming to be doing better but now he’s got a temp again.   On Monday 10 out of 20 of his classmates were out sick, as well as on Tuesday.  On Wednesday, the day he went back to school this week, 5 were absent and 2 got sent home early due to illness.   Dont know the stats for yesterday or today but I know when I signed him out all the reasons on the sign out sheet were for illness as to why kids were leaving early.    I mentioned to the receptionist and another staff member that if that many kids are sick they need to close school, they thought i was nuts.  At this rate it’s never going to stop being passed around.   I mean 50 percent of the preschoolers were sick and on the sign out sheet today I know it was all grades from which kids were leaving, so I wonder what the statistics are schoolwide for attendance this week.   I’m sure it’s not good.    Needless to say this may change our plans for the entire weekend, thus why I’m taking him to the dr in hopes he can get meds and be well enough that we can still have folks over tomorrow as we had planned.   I feel bad for Dean, he’s going to have to spend his birthday in the house helping care for the kids.    I’m hoping the dr will check Bo’s ears too just in case!   What a way to end the week and start the weekend.   Bah!  it’s definitely been a trying week for us!

a long time ago in a place not so far from here, I met the man(well at the time, boy) of my dreams. He was like the class clown, or joker, and always made me laugh. His sense of humor was a trait that made me love him, yet today I still sometimes wonder if anyone thinks he’s funny but himself! But this I Know, this man makes me smile and brings happiness to me life.

Years later, I saw how he could be a jack of all trades, his love for theater and technology along with his creativity made him an amazing asset to the theater community. He pulled me into this world of unknown culture and taught me more than I could have ever dreamed or wanted to know, and in turn shared with me his loves and desires which also became my own.

Our love grew and we knew we’d met our match, he was the king of my
heart and he’d made me his queen. He taught me what love should be like and gave me hope for a lifetime of happiness together.

during years of time spent getting to know one another and dreaming of our future, we planned to build a full house and find a castle for our home. Our first miracle baby boy was born and I learned more about this man I call my mate than I did before. He took to being a father with ease and made it look easy. He aced diaper changes and late night feedings as if he’d done it a million times before. We both loved this little boy and watched with joy as he grew into an amazing child. He’s got his dad’s creativity and his mothers uneasiness with new things.

We knew that while our home was full of love and laughter we also knew we wanted more, more joy and blessing in our life. So along came baby boy #2, at first look he was his brother’s pair but as time goes on we see how different they are yet how well suited they are together. The hustle and bustle of our four of kind family soon became routine and everyone adapted well to our pair of boys, and we continued to learn more about each other and our love grew even more!

We were one away from getting our full house and a suprise deal of the hand gave us just what we needed, baby boy #3 who we’re anxiously awaiting.

In some games, it’s pure luck of the draw, and others it’s all about the strategy. I not only got lucky I got the winning hand, I have my king and soon will have my three of a kind. It’s as full of a house as I could ever dream and it’s all because I took the risk and played the game.

Thanks honey for being the king of our home, making me feel loved like a queen and being the best father these little boys could ever have! Happy Birthday!!

Just a little tempting, no?

I made cake for dessert for our bible study tonight.   I knew I would be tempted to try some since I had to level it off there were scraps of cake just sitting on the counter.   I’ve “cheated” a few times on the diabetic diet, once even w/ a rice krispies bar for snack instead of a healthy snack and my sugar level was fine.  Thinking I would be fine I induldged in some scraps of cake(without icing)  A little while later my head started hurting, not too unusual for me lately.   I was sitting on the couch and felt hot all of the sudden and felt like I was going to pass out.   I checked my sugar becuase at this point I was feeling very bad.   it was 180!! that’s really high for me, the only time it’s been that high is when I had the glucose tolerance test and then I didnt feel like this.    I told Dean to call 911 if I passed out because I felt like I was going to go to sleep and not wake up.   I laid down and closed my eyes until the crazy feelings ended.   A little while later my sugar was down to 140 which is better but still not great.

it was to be my first night doing the new meal plan and I’d already screwed it up royally.  I set the alarm to go off at 3 and my level was still up there but not as bad; I ate a few crackers as I’d been told and prayed by morning things would even out.  I laid awake for about an hour stressing out over this royal mistake I made that was putting mine and the baby’s health at risk.  my sugar level this morning was just 2 points above the goal so  i’m guessing minus the cake tonight things will go well and I might not need more insulin.  I learned the hard way not to cheat and eat sweets and I will not make that mistake again.  I really thought i was dying, it was the worst feeling.  I made a cake because 3 people, including my hubby have birthdays this week.  I told Dean before this incident even that I didnt think I’d be making another cake for his birthday game day on Saturday because it’s too tempting on me, it’s hard to make it and not taste the batter or the cake in the end.  So I will probably buy a cake for him for  Saturday, it’s sad but I cant  let myself do this again, it is not good for me or baby.   so  in the end, the lesson is, whatever you do , dont eat the cake!!

I went to meet with a new dietician today, that works with my endocronologist.    I was not looking forward to it, fearing it was all my fault that my levels were off.  Turns out she does things completely different that the dietician whose diet I’d been following and so now I’m on a “new” plan that doesnt make me eat a serving of fruit and 2 servings of veggies w/ every meal.    she said on the old plan I was eating too many carb servings due to the added fruits and veggies.  she also disagreed w/ how my endo. told me to eat 45 carbs before bedtime to keep my ketones down in the  morning!!   It was hard to come up w/ a plan to help the ketones and my fasting levels, but for now the plan is a small snack before bed, much smaller than I’d been doing thank goodness, and getting up around 3 am for a snack and to check my sugar.  While there so consulted w/ another dr and it seems if this doesnt work I’ll see the other dr as well and I’ll start taking more insulin, a different form around 3 am or so.   I’m not looking forward to the more insulin but I’d be glad to not have to stress over how this is all affecting the baby.

The dietician was great and I’m very hopeful but now I have to rethink how I was eating and while it should be easier at first it’s going to be hard to adjust to the changes.   The downside was I had both boys this afternoon and Dean had to try to occupy them there at the hospital for an hour and a half while I had my appointment.  I know it felt worth it to me since I came home w/ more solids answers and solutions, but I’m sure he’s not happy about how long it was.    He’s staying late at work so I’ll be paying for that  hour and half and then some until the kids get in bed.    I’ve got my ob appt tomorrow and I’m going to ask if it will be ok for us to go away next weekend, praying in one sense we can but then again if not than maybe we’ll still have money to redo the bathroom, total damage done by fixing the van problems this week was $450  —ouch!  that’s more than we were budgeting to redo the bathroom, and we’d even gone and picked out things and knew how much it would be.   🙁

I’m wiped out from a busy day and tomorrow will be busier.   Dean’s birthday is Friday and I need to make it to get his gift still!  I was going to go tonight since he’s working but caleb fell asleep in the car and I am just too tired to wrestle two sleepy kids at the store this evening.    I’ll update more after my 34 week appt tomorrow!